Loneliness is the deepest loneliness (E Weekly)

Loneliness is not that nobody cares about you, but that you don’t want to care about anyone; In fact, the most difficult thing in life is to put down, walk in the world of mortals, be willing to put down, my heart was relieved …… — inscription by going to the dawn alone, walking or stopping, wandering in this little strange town. In the autumn when I was 18 years old, I set foot in this land, from the initial rejection, indifference, to the later indifference, acceptance, and then to today’s heartbroken love, lonely walking in the lonely world of mortals, looking at the sky, the ground, watching the changes of the four seasons, looking at the deep shadow of time, the breeze blew across my face and my hair was dancing. I kissed the unique breath in the air of the border, holding my right hand with my left hand, and smiled lightly …… standing still without saying a word; sitting quietly on the lakeside, looking at a vast expanse of quiet water blankly. Someone said that thousands of years ago, the tower was on the foot of Wanbao mountain, but now, it stands resolutely in the ancient garden of Heda, reflecting the tower Lake, I stared down; Could you tell me how many Earth cities are there under my feet? What kind of legendary story is there? If it could pass through to the moment when it was burning, what kind of thrilling would it be? I picked up a stone and threw it into the lake, which stirred up circles of ripples. Under the sun, the waves of water made me unable to open my eyes; I turned back to my mind and spread out my palm. Time went through lonely in the vein, and on the left was the past, on the right is the future full of thorns and longing, among which is the present that I dare not face. After all, I don’t know what I am pursuing and what I want? My heart seems to have been suspended on the nine days. I can’t see the clouds in the sky lightly, nor can I see the flowers bloom and fall in front of the court lightly. I am dragged down into the world, and where will my love go after all? The heart is like a silk screen with thousands of knots. It is impossible to abandon common Love and destined to experience emotional purgatory. However, it is reborn by bathing in fire and reappearing nirvana, or from then on, the soul is gone, diffusion cycle? A thought of persistence, in the end, people are tired, and their hearts are even more tired. How can they be scarred …… I like a sentence very much, Fenghua is a finger of flowing sand, and aging is a period of time; I don’t know when it will start, we have a deep feeling for this sentence, perhaps after many years of stumbling, we can understand the meaning of happiness better; We have been imagining that we are pulled by a pair of hands, looking at his warm eyes, melting in his clear eyes, gently opening his lips and whispering in his ears, the road to happiness is so short, can we embrace in the depths of the blue sky and white clouds like this, and stay? The fleeting time is like water, but it is just between the smiles and the taste. In fact, memory is also a kind of passing by. In the first love like duckweed, passing through without trace …… once warned myself, don’t write any words related to love any more. In the world of love, words are just accessories. No matter where they are placed, they seem pale and weak, and they are just deliberately showing off. Write down a story, and no matter whether it is related to myself or not, I will sink into it and cannot help myself. Finally, I will regard myself as the leading role of the words, which will hurt my mind secretly and sob with my eyes hanging. I have to walk alone in the cloudy rain, I don’t dare to expect the sunshine to be sunny any more, I can’t make sunflowers facing the sun any more, and I don’t even dare to watch the years to be sunny alone; But now, I don’t want to try my best to write such questions and contents unconsciously, there was no Yaxing who sent me into a poem. He retreated to flashy and quietly became a listener. It was also someone else’s story that watched me. More than once, my friend asked me why I am still alone now? I only smiled slightly, but actually there was no answer. Sometimes I sat alone at the lakeside, looking at a daze and thinking about the answer attentively. So I knew that it was not because I would rather lack than abuse, it is not because there is no suitable partner, nor because nobody likes it, nor because the family members disagree, but where is the reason? I once meditated with the yellowish light for a night, but still couldn’t find the answer. The only explanation is that I am used to being single for a long time; I like freedom, I hate the sudden appearance of a person binding myself. I always feel that the right person is still waiting in the farthest place, so I have the courage to give up everything; Maybe others don’t understand how much courage it takes to reject others, how many days and nights you have to endure can you consider a paragraph of words that will reduce the damage to the lowest, but it is often that you fulfill others and wronged yourself; Go back and forth, go around, entangled in the world of mortals can not be left independent! In the 19th year, how many days and nights, and how many years flow? How many emotional experiences have made me like this? Suddenly Looking back, how many people have ever been to my life, and now there is no news?

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