Meditation

The world is too busy, noisy environment, noisy crowd, everything is so beautiful, I just put on a smile. My smile is wanton, my words are stirring, my cells are shouting, but my heart is ups and downs. My heart is running on the deserted path, with a quiet smile. Life is in a hurry. I just need to be myself, listen to myself quietly and listen to the world. Now I can be calm, so long ago? I was so impetuous and restless that the world seemed to be lively, standing like a city wall in my world, and finally collapsed and broken. I am so impetuous, conceited, looking up at a very high place, but accidentally fell very painful, very painful. I am so impetuous that I stick to my own point of view for yes and interrupt others’ words, which is a mess of mistakes. On the road of life, I was just pursuing my dream. I kept running, but lost my original goal. I saw my messy pace without rhythm, and my impetuous pace without stop. I lost my calmness. In front of the huge reality, I was powerless again. Memory is like yesterday. When everything calmed down, my heart also began to be clear. My passion of youth, but lost my reason, blindly pursuing, lost myself in desolation. I am vain about my achievements. Life is actually simple. I know I want too much, but I have no plans. Finally, these seemingly solid walls are tofu residue projects. I know modesty and prudence are the magic weapon of my life. I can remove vanity and calm down. There are too many things in life, so why should I care too much about gain and loss? It’s just simple. Life seems to be long, but it is also finished in a trance. Every immaturity and experience is worth treasuring. Life is very simple, calm down and feel. Summer is hot, autumn is withered, winter is cold, and spring recovers. I can’t say that season is good, that season is bad. In fact, as long as you enjoy quietly, there is a beauty in it. Like (prose editor: Shu Kuang) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Years make you fat

You are getting fat again! This is what my friends often say to me when we meet. My friend who said this may not see me for some time, or may not see me for only a few days. As for my friends who have been apart for many years, they often stare at me, open their mouths and exclaim: Wow, why are you so fat! I took a picture of myself in the mirror: the bulging face, the stature and the big belly are really unsightly. Standing on the weighing device, the pointer ran from 0 to 75 kilograms, faster than Liu Xiang. The absolute number of this weight is not too large, but it is really difficult for me to carry such a weight at a height of more than 1.6 meters. My wife often curled her mouth to me and said, “Hey, look at your fat body, you are tired at first sight! One day she suddenly said to me on a whim: I’ll call you fat from now on. After that, my wife shouted from the front of the fat man to the back of the fat man: Fat Man, what are you doing? Fat man, come here to help; Fat man, let’s go out and play. I’m a little unconvinced, I thought when I was in my twenties, although I was not romantic, I was even fat and thin, just right. At that time, I had many dreams and hopes, looking forward to being outstanding and making contributions. However, passion is hard for a long time, time is easy to die, achievements are difficult to build, and mediocrity has passed through half of life. Check the past. There are more regrets, more regrets, less joy and less achievements. It seems that there is nothing left except this fat meat. Liu Bei used to sigh with emotion when he saw his flesh reborn. Today I see fat meat sighing. Although there are differences between heroes and ordinary people, I think we should be interlinked in this aspect of emotional experience. I felt proud of my expectations of my relatives and wasted my time when I was full of fat and thought that I could do nothing at my age. Looking at the men around me, at my age, there are not a few obese people, many of whom are better than me. After a little consideration, it is not surprising that men and women in the fourth age group are physically at the time of getting fat. However, although they are all fat, they seem to have a big difference in self-feeling. Some fat people don’t take obesity as one thing. They should eat and drink, and flaunt their big belly in the public’s attention, it’s easy and easy; Some fat people worry about obesity, and they feel that their fat body affects their image and brings disturbance of disease. However, my feeling of being fat is different from that of the above type, I am makes my heart weak. In my subconscious mind, being fat is not a problem. The key is whether you have fat capital. In my opinion, leaders and bosses are the people who have the most fat capital. They have the right to be powerful and rich, if you lose weight, it is not stylish enough, but it can withstand the weight. Imagine, if your leader or boss is a thin monkey, will you have some doubts about his ability and financial resources? I think I am will. The reason why I am so fat that my heart is weak is that I feel that I don’t have the capital to be fat. For example, if we are ordinary people, we have no official, no money, no career, and nothing is the best. It is strange that I am such a poo-bellied person, with extraordinary dazzling eyes, but without any dependence and no weakness in my heart. Sometimes on second thought, anyway, there are quite a few posturing people in the society now, so I just regard myself as a leader or boss, so I may be more steadfast in my heart. But after a long conscious exercise, I still can’t enter the role, I feel like a beggar. Even if I walk on the street with fancy clothes, I still feel weak when I should feel weak, unlike some bosses who wear slippers, shorts and have a big belly, casually, but driving a BMW, that kind of wealth momentum still came to my face. Sometimes I feel very wronged. There are four brothers in our family. They are all not fat when soaked in lard jar, but I have grown meat when drinking cold water. God is too careless to care about me. When I sighed for obesity, my friends joked: “It’s better to be fat. Although you are not a leader or boss, sometimes you can still be Mengmeng, on some occasions, cheat the respect of unknown lovers. I replied: If I go out with the leader, others regard me as the leader and the leader as the follower, and the leader is angry and gives me small shoes to wear, then I am not wronged. My friends said nothing. Disaster comes from the mouth, fat comes from the mouth. In order to make myself feel at ease and avoid some possible troubles, I decided to lose weight. My first measure to lose weight: diet. After not holding on for a long time, I had no choice but to give up. I have a problem, seeing delicious food makes me not eat it is really a pain. Just like a beautiful woman lying on the bed stripped off her clothes, the light was soft, the fragrance was strong, and the atmosphere was warm, which required a normal man to be indifferent when he saw it, wouldn’t it be a very human thing. I don’t want to embarrass myself too much and fight against people’s inherent desire of mouth and belly. I decided to take the second measure of losing weight: exercise. I played table tennis, played badminton, and ran. I gave up after holding on for a few days, which was still caused by people’s laziness. If I failed to lose weight through exercise, I took the third measure of losing weight: taking medicine. It is much easier to insist on taking medicine. It is not long time to hear from friends that these weight-loss drugs are not scientific, and many of them are at the cost of destroying people’s health. Be careful of sequelae. I stopped the medicine immediately after hearing this. Between healthy fat and morbid thin, I prefer to choose the former. There is no hope of losing weight, I am very frustrated. After a period of time, I revived my spirit. This time I no longer considered losing weight, but decided to devote more attention and energy to study, constantly strengthen my own cultivation and push myself forward with all my strength. Because I have a new feeling: As time goes by, when I gain weight, my knowledge, self-restraint and ability can also increase, which can be regarded as a quite gratifying thing. Like (prose editor: Dielianhua) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…