Su Shi Jinnian, also used to die for you, etc.

I used to prefer myself to be a pear flower, just because I could cling to it. Now. Through that era of floating and wild horses, things are different. Original own but a windfalls residual flap, no branch can be. I bit. My spare time is used to recall. What I often recall are all fragmentary and clear memories you gave me. After the flourishing flowers blossoming and losing, my arrogant smile was fixed in that flowery and losing center. Like a candle burning to the end, I was finally blown out by the wind. Disappear in this world. Sinking in a yellowish memory, it cannot be redeemed. If you ever loved someone deeply, you would be like me. I no longer want to go back to that place alone and look at a lost love. The place under that tree has become an insurmountable forbidden zone in my heart. I like to wander alone in the complicated crowd. They watched coldly as they staged farce one after another. It’s three minutes hot for everything. Only you, I almost tried my whole life to interpret your appearance. Until you leave. Until again entanglement. Now. I don’t have much emotion to pour. I can only bet my whole life. Lose or win. I have learned not to expect too much. Be it. I told you that I would live with a smile. If one day we meet, when you see me smiling at everyone like flowers. Please believe that I am really happy. Please believe that my life will still be bright. I am not a woman who will force myself to smile. You should know. My teenager. When can I expel her from your heart. When will you spoil me. Then gently call my name. A pool of clear water, a bamboo forest. I only wish to accompany you. The flowers are attached to the old past, and the orchid boat is swaying. This world Unknown Pleasures. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Life

Sometimes I ask myself what life is like and what kind of life is the real life? I wonder… Think about how far the life now is from the life I want. I used to live happily and simply, but now the society seems to assimilate me, I began to pursue material life and put my spiritual world in a longer term. As for people, living is just like this. Sometimes I always remind myself to go forward bravely and never flinch when encountering difficulties, because I am no longer the flower in that greenhouse, and I can no longer rely too much on who to be a stronger self, to be a better person is the most important thing. Sometimes I always reflect on myself and how many choices I have made along the way. However, I have come to the present step by step. When I gave up my ivory tower life, I should have thought of my present life long ago. I should work hard, I should change, try my best to let my parents see my glory and change the wrong way behind me, just like a philosopher said: don’t lament the road I have traveled, go ahead and you will find your own happiness! Yes, I am still happy after leaving you. Although I start my own life again, I have tasted the beauty of loneliness and let me pick up the writing pen again, which is enough, true. Sometimes I imagine that I will meet someone at a certain place and at a certain second one day. You smile and say, “I’m coming… I said happily: I have waited for you… I don’t think that day will come for a long time, because it will not last for a lifetime. As for love, I think that’s it. One day you will appear. It’s mine. It’s mine. It’s not mine. It’s just as the saying goes: the strong Twisted Melon is not sweet. Sometimes I also dream (sometimes I also have daydreams, hehe O( _ )O ~). In my dream, I lost a little smile and stayed there quietly… I seldom see myself so quiet (because I belong to an activist in front of my friends, which is like a happy fruit). In fact, it is also a way of life. I like the red bean sung by Faye Wong very much: Sometimes, I believe that everything has an end, and sometimes I get together and leave. Nothing will last forever, but sometimes I would rather choose nostalgia than letting go, when you can see through the scenery, maybe you will accompany me to see the long stream of water…… I also like to change some sentences in it, for example: But sometimes, I would rather choose to let go than miss it. Yes, that’s it. Sometimes there must be something in my life. Don’t force me to hit it all the time, why nostalgia??? My life is dominated by me. I have the final say on my territory. I like this feeling very much and enjoy it very much. You? How is your life? Like (prose editor: dancing alone with rain) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

I feel so painful that I want to cry, but I can only laugh foolishly

In Liaoyang this year, it still didn’t warm up at the end of March. The North Wind from Nowhere blew me cold. I sat in the empty shop, took a cup of boiled water for myself, dried it, and browsed the space while drinking. Suddenly, saw such an article entitled “Women’s College students unbearable employment pressure suicide, leaving 100,000 diary Diary” article, Heart was shock, after reading this reproduced articles, we are so painful that we want to cry. Our generation is called the 80’s generation. This generation has a distinct impression of the times. No one can resist the growth. Seeing Astro Boy and Saint grow up, we have a distinct character of love and hate, while as the only child, we are not independent, passing through the narrow single-plank bridge into the ivory tower from the flood of exam-oriented education, he left the ivory tower in a daze and was ruthlessly thrown into the flood of society. These two Baptists almost annihilated us! The country encourages us to start a business and calls on us to find jobs before choosing jobs. But let’s look at the situation in the talent market. Who will not be shocked by the sorrow of wearing a cold sweat? Apart from those children whose parents have all abilities, we in ordinary families almost have the same helplessness: parents are getting older and older, and those laid-off and re-employed try their best to send us to university, but we can’t give them a loop and their old age, and we even have to keep gnawing at their old age. When we were young, we devoted ourselves to studying without asking about the world. Our parents even regarded reading as the only way for us to leave poverty. They, like the most dutiful nanny, washed, cooked and worked for us, day after day, and we also feel at ease, why? Because we are scholars, useful people in the future, and people who can honor our ancestors. We are held in their hands and bear their hopes. After graduation, we were at a loss in the crowded world. We didn’t understand why we couldn’t even find a decent job as the favored son of heaven. That female college student groaned helplessly, it seems to be ringing in the ear! How many people are running around the job fair with thick resumes? How many people are eager to send job-seeking emails in Internet cafes? How many people are wandering from north to south? How many people live with realistic masks? Our generation, in such a society with surplus talents, doesn’t even have the right to cry. Facing the eyes of parents, we can only hide our deep sadness, smiling to fool oneself and others till numbness I remembered that when I read fortress besieged in high school, I still couldn’t understand the sadness that people inside thought out and people outside thought out desperately, I don’t understand why this book, which seems to have no words, is so famous, reading it from generation to generation and worshiping it as classic book from generation to generation. Finally, after graduation, I understood what kind of sorrow it was. This is exactly the portrayal of graduates now. When we entered the university, we went through fierce struggle. High school was like purgatory, people among them won’t deny it. After entering the university, they just wanted to relax their nerves, and they realized the pressure of employment. Their senior brothers and sisters ran on the road of job hunting every day, it can be seen from their expressions that they are so tired. After graduation, we also set foot on the same path as them, writing resumes, interviewing, listening to the phone, until another round begins, this rush, we can’t see the end. We have been honed as round as cobblestones by life. We have fixed a maturity in this world. Our greetings to life have learned to smile. Although we always want to cry, however, looking at myself in the mirror, my tears have dried up. Our generation may not be the saddest child, but it is the saddest child. We can’t cry. We can only smile and use all our life’s strength to overdraw our souls before we can be free. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Hard to stand without bones, hard to stand without heart

During my busy calculation, I went back to my mother’s home and chatted with my parents day by day; I went up the mountain to pick wild beans and appreciate the raging of weeds; I went down the river to catch small fish and shrimps, experiencing the depth and depth of the water, the difficulty of trudging; Harvest Mao Dou, find ways to store Mao Dou and so on. Time disappears day by day in the muddle. Counting by fingers, most of the time has passed. Calm down and want to review, what else can continue or what else is not in place, but my mind is blank, like a boneless person, and more practically, I am like the heartless master, feeling at a loss. I was lonely with the TV and kept controlling the number of the remote control board. The fluorescent screen flickered with silver light under my arbitrary actions. Even the figure that appeared occasionally was out of shape. I was dumbfounded, I put the remote control board randomly, and let the snowflakes flash constantly. I picked up my mobile phone and made a phone call to my son intentionally or unintentionally. However, what was left to me was a piece of internet audio. I searched my friends’ phone carefully and just dialed a few numbers, I was afraid of disturbing my friends’ elegant pleasure, so I stopped immediately and thought over and over again. I started the TV set unhurriedly and let the whispers echo in my ears to relieve my anxiety, daze deep in thought. People, how strange! I am busy with my career all day long, seeking development and benefits. I feel physically and mentally exhausted and complain repeatedly. I hope I can find a place to recuperate myself and find opportunities to vent myself, cheer for your health. However, if you really give yourself more rest time and relax yourself, you cannot find the scope of your own weight loss, the background and premise of your spiritual sustenance. It seems that, to relax yourself, you still need to have great determination and perseverance, which may be the fault of being a person. Therefore, I think every one of us should have ideals when doing things. The ideals I said are not exaggerated lofty ideals such as serving the people and striving for the country, I think we should have a certain spiritual motivation to do things, and do what we can with our heart and strength, so that life will slowly flow forward in the peaceful sound of water, we won’t lament for the temporary blockage of the river, nor be complacent for the temporary catharsis of the river, relax our mentality, let fish and shrimps play freely in our water flow, and let the grass float freely in the water, let the fragrance of wild flowers penetrate into the water, naturally and without any concern, and complete every note of life in the smooth music rhythm. I advocate that people should live a real life and be valuable. Therefore, it is my hope and goal to do it with heart and straight back. I hope that all of you can realize the true meaning of life in the ups and downs of the long vacation, and thus devote themselves to the future work and life more happily. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…