Cold Night

One day in the winter of 1967, suddenly a message came from my father’s unit, saying that my father was ill and asked his family to take care of him. Hearing this news, my mother asked me to go to the Xipan town where my father was sent. I am the eldest brother in the family, who was fifteen years old, the eldest sister was twelve years old, the second sister was ten years old, the eldest brother was six years old, and the younger brother was only three years old. My mother couldn’t get away, so I could only take the responsibility. At about eight o’clock in the evening, I set foot on the last train passing that station on the Shanghai-Hangzhou line. Looking at the dark area outside the window, my heart was very heavy, as if hanging a lead pendant. I don’t know what’s wrong with my father, and I can’t even manage my own life? I guess the disease must be serious. I stared at the darkness outside the train and was distracted for fear of missing this small station which only stopped for two minutes. About an hour later, the train stopped slowly. I got off the train quickly, only to find that there was no second person getting off at this station. I have never been to this small town, and I don’t know where to go. I had to ask the duty officer on the platform, only to know that the station was four or five miles away from the town. Out of the platform, it was dark all around, and there was no pedestrian on the road. I walked alone on this strange country road with one foot high and one foot low, as if I was a drunk who drank too much. The wind was very cold. I wrapped my clothes and straightened my collar to keep out the wind. Walking and walking, it began to rain. I didn’t bring rain gear, didn’t want to take shelter from the rain, and had nowhere to take shelter from the rain. I could only move forward mechanically, but I was very anxious. But the more anxious I was, the more I felt that this endless dark stranger had no end. I didn’t know how long I had been walking. I found a light blush street lamp appeared in front of me. I knew the town was coming soon. The wooden pole stood on the roadside alone, and the light in the half waist was emitting dark red light, In the wind and rain of this cold night, this faint blush gave me a hint of warmth in my heart. I stared at this dim street lamp silently, and my eyes were even a little moist, as if there was a person to talk to for the grievance I suffered. The town has arrived, but where is my father’s unit? I was at a loss again. Ask someone, there is no figure on the road. In this cold and drizzle winter night, in this winter night when the Great Cultural Revolution made everyone in danger, who would appear in the streets of this town to drink northwest wind? I had nothing to do, so I had to take the most stupid and primitive method: Looking at the signboards or the written words door to door. My father’s unit should have a signboard in this small town, which makes me confident. I walked along the street, and the shadow under the street lamp was from short to long, pulling into an infinite dark color, adding a trace of terror to the silent street. The cold wind and drizzle hit my face. I shivered and got under the eaves beside me. I looked at the door of this House and the door of that house. I found that they were not, and I felt a little scared. I was terrified, helpless, and even felt a little wronged. I didn’t know what to do, so I had to bite my head and continue to look forward. It was not until the end of the street that I saw the signboard hanging in front of my father’s unit, and the light was revealed from the crack of the door. I knocked at the door with courage. Someone inside asked me. I reported to my house that I wanted to find Zhang Longwen. Someone came out to open the door, I didn’t know how to call a man in his thirties. I just called him Comrade according to the habit at that time. He was not cold or said Zhang Longwen was there. Pointing to the cabin on the left, he walked into the middle room. I walked towards that small room, heard the buzzing electric current and saw the light coming out. I entered the room and saw my father, who was lying on a single bamboo bed without falling asleep. Dad, I’m. I called him. My father heard my cry, raised his head and told me with a little difficulty that he was badly ill and had a fever for three days. He couldn’t get up. Was it raining outside? Seeing that my hair was a little wet, he motioned me to wipe it with a dry towel. Dad, do you want some water? I poured a glass of water from the thermos and asked. Well. Dad, have you asked a doctor to see it? I asked. No, I thought it would be better to endure. Who would have thought that I was so sick. My father owed his body, and the bamboo couch made a creaking sound. I’ll call a doctor to show you right away. So late, where can I call a doctor? Tomorrow humor. Maybe I can get up tomorrow. You haven’t had dinner, have you? My father seemed to notice something and asked. I said I was not hungry at all. I looked at the house where my father lived, which was about five or six square meters. Besides the bamboo bed my father built, there were some messy old wires and electrical materials beside it, there are several big switch knives, one electric lamp on the wall, and several ammeters are constantly buzzing. This is an electronic control duty room and a small warehouse in my father’s unit. Because my father was sent here with a black hat, such as a member of the three youth league of the Kuomintang and an agent of the management, so that he could stay in such a loud and bright place as a shelter, it was said that it was a preferential treatment for him to take a 24-hour duty officer. My father was still having a fever. I squeezed on my father’s narrow single bamboo bed and couldn’t close my eyes all night, except pouring water for my father several times, I really couldn’t stand the strong hum of the dazzling light on my head and several ammeters. I tried to cover my head with clothes, only temporarily covering it, but in the silent winter night around, the buzzing thunder above my head kept pouring my earmuffs, as if several fighter planes were roaring, how could I sleep? I don’t know how my father slept in such a preferential environment? Will he sleep well? The next morning, I was dizzy and took two enamel cups to the canteen of Jiexi commune to buy three Liang porridge and two pieces of fermented bean curd. I washed my father’s face, but he seemed to be more spirited. He put up his body, leaned against the wall, picked up the cup and ate porridge with spoon. At this time, I also held up the cup. Somehow, a drop of tears fell into the cup. I turned my head quickly to prevent my father from seeing it. Written in 2003.4.4. Night Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Listen to the rain mind

As wrapped as cotton, as Silk as yarn, as floating as weaving. The blue dress that got wet at night poured out the sound of frogs in the field, and wiped out the small lanterns that went home at night. You said, without frog quarrel and Firefly disturbance, this is the peace that really belongs to oneself. What the rain wants is only the touch of heart and heart. By the window, I was confused about the day and night. Who stole my lingering sleep? I use my hands lightly pulling silkworm cocoons to reach into the chest of the rain, to feel the leap of your heart and heart, and to let the lost thoughts shuttle and wander between the rain and the rain, then stay deep in your soul. Abandon the restless and restless body, empty into rain’s bosom friend, lie in the embrace of rain, listen to the rain’s mind. You float from the ancient and great great wall, telling the glorious and tragic sky of history! You drifted from the snow plateau without footprints, using the sacred white snow to wash away the dust of the world and cleanse the sins of the soul! You came from the distant heaven and wetted the letter from the south to Yanchun! You play with fish, flirt with ye er, kiss with flowers, sometimes like drinking and crying, sometimes like craziness and laughter. Listening to the rain, the rain keeps on, thinking constantly, the rain breaks, and the heart is still there. Like (prose editor: Dielianhua) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

To mountains walk

At dusk, the charming scenery makes people relaxed and happy. The rolling birds fly back to their warm nests. The back of the old farmers who returned at dusk overlapped into the place where the smoke curled up from the kitchen, and everything returned to peace. However, the last afterglow of the sunset stirred my quiet heart and triggered my complicated vicissitudes of life, I couldn’t hold back the loneliness in the room and left with strain. I wanted to listen to the voice of nature and the mood that I could never guess. At dusk, the charming scenery makes people relaxed and happy. The rolling birds fly back to their warm nests. The back of the old farmers who returned at dusk overlapped into the place where the smoke curled up from the kitchen, and everything returned to peace. However, the last afterglow of the sunset stirred my quiet heart and triggered my complicated vicissitudes of life, I couldn’t hold back the loneliness in the room and left with strain. I wanted to listen to the voice of nature and the mood that I could never guess. The mountain is really beautiful. The beautiful trees are swaying gently in the gentle wind, and the charming wild flowers give off a burst of fragrance. The birds returning to their nest also call out a few times to face the evening wind, open your hands and take everything into your arms, savoring the beauty of solitude carefully. The impetuous mood is restored to peace and calmness. The heavy footsteps also became much lighter. Looking back on the past, I was busy with my career and livelihood alone, chasing my dreams desperately all the time, and running on the rough road of life. I couldn’t stop to have a rest all the time, so I missed a lot of beautiful scenery; When I was close, I married my wife inadvertently, but I was separated from each other’s career, only on holidays can we get together and talk to each other. After that, we will fall into a long process of lovesickness, which inevitably makes us feel lonely. With the increase of age, this kind of lovesickness gradually turned into helplessness and sorrow. I found myself tired and haggard when I took the mirror and took a photo. Maybe only now can I walk in the mountains, maybe we can get rid of this emotion and make ourselves happier. Despite the hustle and bustle of the city and the hypocritical faces of some pig friends and dog friends, we took a leisurely step away from the temptation of fame and impetuous, clarified the complex and unsaddled emotions, and forgot the messy steps when we came, enjoy the pleasure bestowed by nature to your heart’s content, making your life more warm and quiet. Leaving this forest, my heart is still so peaceful and my steps are still so calm and light. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Add me to the frivolous in the rain

In the evening, Ye Ye went to pick up the daughter of the extracurricular class and went downstairs. I found that the rain fell from the sky, and the rain rushed to me like a small knife. Not bad, two umbrellas are packed in bags at any time. She waited for her daughter in a safe place downstairs and opened an umbrella herself first. When a small number of students swarmed in, she saw her daughter looking for everywhere. Baby, here! Leaves Baishou hands. It was like a gust of wind, and my daughter had rushed to her. With! An umbrella was handed to my daughter. I don’t play! The rain is not heavy! I walked first! That what line? Longer catch a cold? Fast,! Just like an old maid, the leaves follow closely for two steps. But the blue is better than the blue, the child’s foot strength is beyond the reach of the leaves! There was an empty road between them. On the other side, the naughty daughter made a face, stretched out her tongue, and greeted them with provocation: Come on, come on, chase me!. Leaves smiled. Nowadays children are not the puppets who are manipulated by others and obedient and gentle. They have their own thoughts and actions. Many things will differ with parents. As a wise parent, as long as there is no principle problem with children’s requirements, leaves generally agree. Forget it, let her go! When we were young, the rain was much larger than this, so we were still revelling in the rain! Leaves thought for a while. That’s about it. At this moment, my daughter was dancing in front of her, and the leaf looked at the tiny rain, thinking of her age… at that time, she also liked to walk in the rain. The light silk rain carried the breeze, and the leaves strolled along the roadside. Although the present empty. However, she has turned into a heroine in the novel and encountered a beautiful romance. She needed to play all the roles. For a while, she was shy; For a while, she was furious; For a while, she was extremely frightened. When there was no one on the roadside, she still murmured. If you ask the audience, then there will be only light rain. Their patter applause made the leaves smile sweeter. At that time, Ye Ye was still a member of the school musical instrument class. Because the orchestra teacher is a newly graduated college student who lives in the school, he once said that he can come to the school to learn skills when he is free. In this way, when the rain was drizzling and the clouds were frivolous, Ye Ye came to school with his beloved big guitar, and wanted the teacher to teach her more. Moreover, the teacher has always been very fond of her, a little girl who practices hard. However, when we arrived at the musical instrument room, there was already the music lingering around. Several students took the lead and practiced each other. From time to time, someone came to consult the teacher. This scene is no different from the practice after class everyday. However, it is voluntary for children. After that, everyone put down their musical instruments and rushed to the rain together. Boys and girls played the game of catching people one by one. Although Ye Ye is a girl, she is also a middle-distance runner in the school sports team! As long as it is her chase, ordinary little boys are doomed. Except for a big boy who sings well and has long legs, there is no way to take leaves from him! But in the school chorus, when boys and girls duet, they were partners. When the teacher instructed the method, Ye ye listened solemnly. However, as soon as the teacher turned around, she gave him a hard twist to vent the regret in the rain. The boy was a general, and the little actions of the leaves were generally able to resist, which made his mouth open with pain. The teacher said to him several times: I haven’t sung yet. Why are you so big with your mouth open? Can you take it back later? But the leaves aside pretended to be as if nothing had happened, and their hearts were happy. There are many stories in the rain. At this moment, Ye Ye looked at her daughter in front of her. Although she had been wet by the rain, there was a little girl beside her who shared her happiness. How can you walk alone in this sweet moment? Moments. The leaves also closed the umbrella, thinking silently: add me to the frivolous in the rain! Like (prose editor: Ke Er) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Dream

Recalling your past is like watching an old movie. The protagonist in the plot cries or laughs, ups and downs his mood and many stories that are hard to forget, I will never get tired of playing it over and over again! What you want to remember is somehow forgotten, while what you try to forget is firmly imprinted in your heart. It is true that everything can’t meet your own wishes. Everything can only go with the flow of nature. There is no need to force it, no need to carve it, treat it normally, calm your mind and relax your mind! Life seems simple, but in fact it is complex. Life seems stable, but in fact it is ups and downs. I seem deep, but in fact it is simple and clear. Very few delusions, only random thoughts, few regrets, only sigh with emotion! I never feel lonely and bored, and I only regret that I have too little time! The pace is fast and the days are tight. Although going out every morning, there are still traffic jams on the spacious Road, and car owners will feel helpless. It is not as good as me, riding a small self-help to come and go freely, shuttling back and forth in the crowded street, also very leisurely! The smell of spring is getting stronger and stronger. Beautiful girls wearing fashionable clothes sketch out the most beautiful scenery in spring. Looking at the beauties in the past, I would also sigh with emotion that my youth was gone long ago, and my beauty had already faded quietly with the flowing years, leaving only the wrinkles of my forehead and the crow’s feet at the corner of my eyes, countless vicissitudes and confusion! Everyone is living in a mysterious life. It seems that only I am still staying in a simple life. As I get older and older, my life circle becomes smaller and smaller. Previous not too busy to with good friends shopping Go supermarket, now live with a community of good friend half are a rare meet. Am I lazy? Or is everyone crazy? There were only a few friends around, and they wanted to find a friend to complain, but they found that they couldn’t turn out a phone number with the hand holding the phone. Is time changing people, or do people simply want to keep up with the pace of time? It is said that the years are ruthless. If you slip away, you can’t find the previous breath. Only the memory hides a faint shadow, leaving only the shallow memories, lingering in your heart! True and False, beauty and ugliness, good and evil, happiness and annoyance, life is a never-ending game, and in the future, it will all become the past. There is no result in forcing, and extravagant demand is more helpless. Those who should come can’t hide, and those who shouldn’t come can’t. Sometimes people live just a kind of state of mind. In the days without complaints or expectations, they walk leisurely and gently day after day. Don’t interpret too many emotions, don’t chase the memories that are far away. Big things, small things, everything is annoying, only things in mind have fantasies! Yesterday, Today, I am busy every day, but tomorrow still has extravagant hope! No one can tell what tomorrow will be like. The future is the same vague and unpredictable for everyone. Hope in illusion, imagination in expectation. The wish in expectation, the thought in expectation. Right and wrong, right and wrong, love and hate, joy and sadness are intertwined in the interlaced time and space. Some people are born to love painting and give them talent! Some people are born to sing and dance, and they are vivid! Some gift for poetry and painting, not scholarly family! Some people are full of literary cells in their hearts. The words typed randomly under the keyboard can be combined into beautiful words and sentences! It turns out that it is not only those who have read classics or are talented that can explain the words beautifully. As long as the written words are permeated with aura, with life and soul, they are beautiful articles. Recently, I wrote something messy, but I can’t understand it. I always hold the flag of sticking to SJ quotations as a cover to deceive my soul. In fact, it is really pathetic and self-deceiving. Really, sometimes I really want to change myself, but I am always struggling in the raowen game I have compiled. I can’t figure it out! Therefore, I fell in love with dreams and gorgeous dreams. I am relaxed and happy in my dream! I have my own and gain in my dream! I hope and miss in my dream! There is my world in my dream, which is as blue as the sky and as pure as white clouds! I am beautiful and quiet in this world! Like (prose editor: Ke Er) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Xiang from Ward 7

I don’t know how to express my feelings, just like being blocked by a wall and unable to find a breakthrough. I am an ordinary nurse, I love my profession very much, and the patients also like my gentle character, so they always come to me for anything, saying that other nurses are too fierce and afraid, so I have to be bullied. But I never feel sorry for God, because our job itself is to send roses to others to leave lingering fragrance, so I am also very happy to do more for others. However, there are also some patients who don’t let go of any trivial matters. How to explain is of no help, and communication is very laborious. A few days ago, I was on duty and the ward was very busy. I helped my colleague who worked together to change a bottle of medicine. Out of kindness, the result was not optimistic. I walked into Ward 7, walked to the bedside of bed 23, and changed the dressing for a patient named a xiang. I saw that in order to save a drop of medicine, she left very little liquid in the infusion set, even there is no liquid in the infusion pot, blood vessels have returned to blood, and even some coagulation. I vaguely heard the comments from other people in the ward: This stingy man is very ill, miser ‘I didn’t quite understand her behavior at that time, and I didn’t think much about it. Seeing it, she came forward kindly and changed a new infusion set for her. Unexpectedly, she flew into a rage and said to me angrily. Every day, others didn’t change the dressing like this, saying that I didn’t know how to return to the rules and fake products. I explained to her patiently that she became more and more excited as if she was going crazy. She also said that she doubted the ability of all doctors and nurses, and she was very worried about her treatment. I’m not arguing, just busy with other things.. Later, as long as I saw me or heard my voice, I shouted at my throat and asked me what my name was and wanted to sue me. I had no choice but to smile. When I got home, I felt very depressed. What kind of way should I treat my patients properly? Is the harmony of human society really Stranded? I almost stayed up all night. As soon as I went to work the next morning, I hurried to inquire about a Xiang’s situation. Some colleagues with bad temper reprimanded me severely and said, “You are right. What’s the terrible thing? It really brings shame to the nursing team. ‘I said that things eventually started because of me, and I felt guilty. Then she was concocted again: you are kind-hearted, help me, what’s wrong? It’s her own business for her A Xiang to feel uncomfortable, sick, you are really mediocre. Finally, I was speechless and couldn’t help blaming myself. I didn’t know what to do. Later, when the head nurse knew about this, she not only didn’t criticize me, but also praised me, saying that I am a qualified nurse who actively helped colleagues and communicated well with patients. It was great, besides, A Xiang is a little abnormal. My service attitude is very good, and the whole ward praises me for being sensible.. After listening to the leader’s words, I seem to understand something. Only when such a person has figured it out by herself can the big things become small and small. I came to Ward 7 again with relief and communicated happily with the patients. At this time, A Xiang called my name again. I thought that disaster was coming again. I was about to explain to her, but she grabbed my hand and said: you are a good person, God bless you. At that moment, my melancholy thoughts disappeared, and a warm current came to my mind. What a great thing to be understood and recognized. I walked out of Ward 7 and imagined the old faces of A Xiang, just like my mother’s age. They had worked hard and saved their whole lives and deserved our respect. Of course, I also understand a Xiang better. Facing the summer full of green outside the window, I started the work of the new day with confidence and passion that I had never had before, and also explored the mission of my whole life with greater persistence. Understand long live……….. Understand our parents understand our children understand our brothers and sisters understand our loved ones understand our leaders understand our colleagues, classmates, our fellows understand our benefactors and enemies understand our society understand our patients and family members understand Precious Tears and smiles understand people who can’t help themselves understand the contradictions and repulsion between people understand the human world all Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…