Clown don’t cry

I will continue to stay with this city in another way I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Is your “heart” still there?

Wu Bin, the most beautiful driver in Hangzhou, was smashed by a sudden iron block falling from the sky during driving, hitting his belly and arm, and finally sacrificed gloriously. In the last 40 seconds of his life, he stopped the car steadily with perseverance beyond the imagination of ordinary people, turned on the double flashing lights, pulled the handbrake and evacuated passengers. Don’t forget to comfort passengers not to run around, pay attention to safety. In Wu Bin, we see his sense of responsibility that regards people’s lives as the highest level, and his actions explain the value and significance of life to us. In today’s fast-developing society, many people lose their conscience and morality due to greed, annihilate human nature, violate the principle of survival law, and lose the heart they should have. The continuous shocking food safety problems make people impossible to prevent. We have to worry about our own safety and health. Accidentally, we ate tofu or steamed buns with dipped white block whitening agent, and drank some beverages containing carcinogens without paying attention, even vegetables and fruits that we think are the safest and most natural are also promoted by chemical elements. I really don’t know, what else can we rest assured to eat? Those who ignore others’ lives and cheat and damage people’s lives completely abandon their conscience and responsibility for their own benefit. Isn’t it enough to let those eager people wake up suddenly and retrieve their due conscience, love and responsibility that those fresh lives were created and withered? Saying goes what tens not illness, nothing don’t have no money. For those who have no heart, should they add what they lack? Never lack heart. Heart is the foundation of human beings. If a person is careless, acts profitably, annihilates human nature and loses character, although he is still alive or dead, he is living secretly, which is a walking corpse. It is sad! There is such a moral in the Bible; When we stand in front of God through the grave, we hold our hearts in our hands, and money can only accompany you to bury in the dark underground. Those who have no heart should wake up. When you hurt others, should you also be hurt by others? The story of Wu Bin, the most beautiful driver in Hangzhou, made those profiteers who lost their conscience and corrupt officials who didn’t do anything see the shining quality in the world and feel a faint warmth? Do you realize the true meaning of human being alive? Should you ask yourself: Is your heart still there? Like (prose editor: Rain dancing alone) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Mood suiyu

I get up lazily almost every day. My mood is inexplicably heavy and heavy. I have no hope for life and no longer keep the so-called belief. I am always influenced by a lonely and bitter mood, after that, I will think about problems and treat life very sadly or Sadly. I don’t know how long the symptoms of autism last or how long it will last. But it is very strange that whenever I open the door of the office, these feelings will disappear instantly when I start to be busy with work trifles. Yes, even I can’t tell what kind of phenomenon it is. In short, it is like living in a divided world. Maybe everyone is a loyal contradiction, but this point is more prominent in my performance, and I will feel very inferior, so that I lose confidence and patience in life and life, surrounded by a kind of extremely lonely loneliness, feeling the nothingness given by life will also be super optimistic, enjoying the unbridled gains from friends to the fullest, and being happy to forget that you were still depressed the second before, it is hard to imagine that this second is extremely happy and sentimentally attached to life. It is not worthwhile to have nothing, including sufferings and pleasures. I often want to set a goal for myself and make myself close to a meaningful life as much as possible. It is very funny, they are always aborted in thinking, and then they are at a loss or calm. The only thing that appears is an attitude, a view towards life and life. I overestimated my own strength and ignored the power of time. I thought that what I could put down would become clearer in the limitless time. I thought that I would get involved in the disappearing space with the years forever. No one is born to be an angel, but he turns himself into a devil. I really don’t like that I am always too melodramatic when dealing with some things, such as love. I can’t say whether I believe it or not. I just got hurt when I used to believe it. I heard it again when I didn’t believe it. Later, sometimes I believe and sometimes I deny. The scope of activities is very small, so I seldom face problems that need to be decided. Sometimes I miss a certain feeling and suddenly come up with an impulsive idea, but when I think of the wounds I have suffered, the obstacles I may face, and the ending I don’t want, I feel timid. This kind of love is not allowed by myself, so I stopped and dared not to come forward. In the end, I still like to face these with plain mood. Even on blind dates, my mood can always remain calm, among which there are many intimate friends. Maybe for a long time in the past, I paid too much attention to love and asked too much for it, which seriously affected my attitude towards life, as a result, I am unhappy and even severely autistic. However, I always treat every destined person around me with great care, including friends, colleagues and relatives, because the happiness that love lacks is praying for compensation from these people, they are very guilty, so they decide to rebalance the relationship between them. It is spring and April in a flash, and the warm air shows the enthusiasm of summer. I like it very much. Stretch out my hand and borrow a ray of sunshine to drive away some gloom in my heart more or less, the other side of self-abasement is the understandable confidence. I believe that I will be strong enough in a certain period of low tide in my life, and gradually grow up or become more mature in a certain period of unsatisfactory days. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Loneliness is the deepest loneliness (E Weekly)

Loneliness is not that nobody cares about you, but that you don’t want to care about anyone; In fact, the most difficult thing in life is to put down, walk in the world of mortals, be willing to put down, my heart was relieved …… — inscription by going to the dawn alone, walking or stopping, wandering in this little strange town. In the autumn when I was 18 years old, I set foot in this land, from the initial rejection, indifference, to the later indifference, acceptance, and then to today’s heartbroken love, lonely walking in the lonely world of mortals, looking at the sky, the ground, watching the changes of the four seasons, looking at the deep shadow of time, the breeze blew across my face and my hair was dancing. I kissed the unique breath in the air of the border, holding my right hand with my left hand, and smiled lightly …… standing still without saying a word; sitting quietly on the lakeside, looking at a vast expanse of quiet water blankly. Someone said that thousands of years ago, the tower was on the foot of Wanbao mountain, but now, it stands resolutely in the ancient garden of Heda, reflecting the tower Lake, I stared down; Could you tell me how many Earth cities are there under my feet? What kind of legendary story is there? If it could pass through to the moment when it was burning, what kind of thrilling would it be? I picked up a stone and threw it into the lake, which stirred up circles of ripples. Under the sun, the waves of water made me unable to open my eyes; I turned back to my mind and spread out my palm. Time went through lonely in the vein, and on the left was the past, on the right is the future full of thorns and longing, among which is the present that I dare not face. After all, I don’t know what I am pursuing and what I want? My heart seems to have been suspended on the nine days. I can’t see the clouds in the sky lightly, nor can I see the flowers bloom and fall in front of the court lightly. I am dragged down into the world, and where will my love go after all? The heart is like a silk screen with thousands of knots. It is impossible to abandon common Love and destined to experience emotional purgatory. However, it is reborn by bathing in fire and reappearing nirvana, or from then on, the soul is gone, diffusion cycle? A thought of persistence, in the end, people are tired, and their hearts are even more tired. How can they be scarred …… I like a sentence very much, Fenghua is a finger of flowing sand, and aging is a period of time; I don’t know when it will start, we have a deep feeling for this sentence, perhaps after many years of stumbling, we can understand the meaning of happiness better; We have been imagining that we are pulled by a pair of hands, looking at his warm eyes, melting in his clear eyes, gently opening his lips and whispering in his ears, the road to happiness is so short, can we embrace in the depths of the blue sky and white clouds like this, and stay? The fleeting time is like water, but it is just between the smiles and the taste. In fact, memory is also a kind of passing by. In the first love like duckweed, passing through without trace …… once warned myself, don’t write any words related to love any more. In the world of love, words are just accessories. No matter where they are placed, they seem pale and weak, and they are just deliberately showing off. Write down a story, and no matter whether it is related to myself or not, I will sink into it and cannot help myself. Finally, I will regard myself as the leading role of the words, which will hurt my mind secretly and sob with my eyes hanging. I have to walk alone in the cloudy rain, I don’t dare to expect the sunshine to be sunny any more, I can’t make sunflowers facing the sun any more, and I don’t even dare to watch the years to be sunny alone; But now, I don’t want to try my best to write such questions and contents unconsciously, there was no Yaxing who sent me into a poem. He retreated to flashy and quietly became a listener. It was also someone else’s story that watched me. More than once, my friend asked me why I am still alone now? I only smiled slightly, but actually there was no answer. Sometimes I sat alone at the lakeside, looking at a daze and thinking about the answer attentively. So I knew that it was not because I would rather lack than abuse, it is not because there is no suitable partner, nor because nobody likes it, nor because the family members disagree, but where is the reason? I once meditated with the yellowish light for a night, but still couldn’t find the answer. The only explanation is that I am used to being single for a long time; I like freedom, I hate the sudden appearance of a person binding myself. I always feel that the right person is still waiting in the farthest place, so I have the courage to give up everything; Maybe others don’t understand how much courage it takes to reject others, how many days and nights you have to endure can you consider a paragraph of words that will reduce the damage to the lowest, but it is often that you fulfill others and wronged yourself; Go back and forth, go around, entangled in the world of mortals can not be left independent! In the 19th year, how many days and nights, and how many years flow? How many emotional experiences have made me like this? Suddenly Looking back, how many people have ever been to my life, and now there is no news? Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Don’t flower rose.

Don’t flower rose.

The heart is like a lost cat, with its big green and dark eyes open. At night, it glows green light, tossing and turning. When I was very tired, it often happened to fall asleep. Now I am afraid of the leisure time. I am extremely bored and can’t see any bright colors. The dream at night is much more special, running, weird, sad, but only lacking joy. Many old friends will shuttle back and forth into dreams from time to time, laughing and watching my current life. In a half-asleep and half-awake state, I want to turn over and grope for my mobile phone, log on Weibo, and record the story that is happening with short words, but I can’t find it. I thought, shouldn’t I have a little nostalgia? I haven’t been lying in the sun for a long time, and I feel happy. Most of the time was busy doing nothing, but in the end there was no objective ending and it was a common thing to end up hastily. I am afraid of being forgotten and the days without sunshine. Don’t be a rose, the words suddenly flashed in my mind, I want to write down every painting of it very carefully, no matter it is paranoid or capricious. What I made was such a rose. Not long ago, on a sunny morning, the sun gently sprinkled on me. I sat in the back row of the bus, opened the window, and the wind slowly welcomed me, the hair around my ears danced lightly. At that moment, I laughed alone. Maybe I loved this kind of myself more. But in the next minute, the newspaper station on the radio made me have to get up and leave. You see, such warmth does not last long. I haven’t used a pencil to write words for a long time. On that whim, I bought a pencil and turned its tip round and round with a pencil sharpener, as my right hand rotates on the paper. The shaped font appeared on the paper with an eraser next to it. It seems that when I was a child, around the first grade, I would write down rows of simple words on the paper one by one every day, which were skew and bulky, but revealed sincerity. If you don’t come, I will go. This sentence was a wonderful love story, but I suddenly wanted to use it to commemorate my childhood. If you leave, I will follow you. I know, if you leave, it means I can’t go back. Those yellowed photos, paper cranes hanging on the ceiling, certificates of merit attached to the wall, thick spider webs and dust-covered past, even if they were brushed off by hands, could not touch the initial stability and mood. You said, should I go. If you rent in a small house, you can hear the noise from the man upstairs from time to time. Sing today, play tomorrow and pull the day after tomorrow. I was thinking that if he was from the Conservatory of Music, it would be a tragedy. In less than two months, I really said goodbye to my student career. Since the end of the new year, I have been busy all the time. It has not stabilized, but I have to face the pressure from life. I also want to do everything well, such as having an enviable career, a stable life and a clever face. And these are just not my strengths. Friends, they talked with me day by day, made friends with me, and constantly persuaded me that the outside world was real but not wonderful. If you can’t endure it, go home. Now, how can I go back? What kind of identity should I go back? I don’t know, I really don’t know. Timid, afraid when something happens, empty heart, no strength. You said, what should I do to make myself fearless. In the end, I was just a mortal among thousands of people. Humble, small, without any light. However, I also know that I am different from others. What makes me unique is what others don’t have. Women are a complex of contradictions, but one day a man said to me, this is the so-called work. This work is the product of your hesitation and your thinking. I know, this is undeniable. The man who said this to me had not been seen for several days. I almost couldn’t remember his appearance. I only knew that he was popular with girls and liked to smoke a cigarette from time to time. He talked a lot, but it is not disgusting. Well, anyway, I won’t meet again. It’s better if I don’t remember. Remember be it. There were also two boxes of coffee at the table. During the Spring Festival, they reached a state of obsession and drank every night. Then they sat alone in the living room staring at the TV, thinking about those naive dreams, I hope it can come true one day. This was also the reason why I didn’t dare to write for a long time. After all, I was afraid that writing like this would not make the pencil characters printed. Read a lot of novels, such as Annie Baby, Guo Jingming, Yu Hua, Spring Village tree, fall, Cangyang jiatuo, Nalan Xingde, Anthony, Han Han…. Then a person falls into every paragraph of text and cannot help himself. I just tried to make myself smile, but found that my mouth was cramping. It was like trying a new thing for the first time. I twitched with wonder and tension. There is the sound of running water, which is the flushing sound of the upstairs toilet. The room was very quiet. Except for the sound of keyboard tapping, others came from outside the door, such as the barking of dogs upstairs, the singing upstairs and the sound of water upstairs. All this was heard by me, but it had nothing to do with me. I haven’t contacted my family for nearly a week. I think about them more often, but I know that my shy feelings can only stop thinking about this step, it’s just a few simple words to call back. On the contrary, when there is a phone call two weeks, there will be more topics, and there will be no talk after frequent calls. Well. I admit. My family, I miss you. And I will take good care of myself, and you will do the same. Some stories are no longer stories when they arrive here. And I just want to peel off my heart step by step and talk with the keyboard with my hands. Whether my handwriting is delicate or artificial. It has nothing to do with others. Good morning? Good afternoon? Good night. I hope everything goes well in the following life. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…