Actually very strong

I am very good, I am very good, so I must be strong and keep working hard. Although I have lost my motivation and been chasing, I always take such a small step and lose my dependence. I have learned to bear it, in fact, it’s very good. I can’t find lost memories when I grow up. I die in the bottom of my heart, but occasionally there are ripples. The happiness at the corner of the street, the warmth of tears, wiping away the remnants at the corner of my eyes, the road still, although I am the only one who doesn’t want to lie to myself, I pretend to be strong, and behind the smile is the unknown sadness. Night is the best hiding. One is lonely, one is heartbroken, and one drinks tears to taste the lonely sorrow oath, lies, promises, jokes, I have always been unable to find the truth. I have always believed in all the good things. Even if the results given to me completely collapsed, I still believe, because of faith, I won’t cry any more without doubt when I leave. Maybe my tears have run out, maybe I still keep them for you. I have faced a lot alone. The life of one person is very good. There is no need to worry about or remember, there is no yearning, praying and blessing, and loving yourself for yourself. The world is not around someone. Missing is stored in the bottom of my heart, no longer hurting yourself for whom, no one is who, no one will be with whom for the whole life. The evil fate is actually a test. If you walk out, everything will be better. There is always someone waiting for you, waiting for you for the whole life. Don’t stop in pain, let the wind blow away the annoyance, tidy up the mood, don’t look back after starting and turning around, don’t worry when choosing, everyone has his own pride, don’t abandon your only dignity for that worthless emotion. I also used to be brilliant and admit defeat. Strong or weak. The sea and rocks once withered and broken will disappear. Will I be strong, loneliness will listen to me, not all lovers in the world will be together, your back, just want to remember that the farther back can not tell the distance of tears, my memories stay in the trap you designed, when will you throw me away and don’t want to retain me? There is no tenderness I want in your eyes. After separation, you pretend to be indifferent without a drop of tears. In fact, you still can’t kill every bit of tears, just learn to smile, say goodbye to displeasure, accept pleasure, I will change, try to let myself learn the happiness of a person, without your happiness, maybe my heart is really numb, without the real feeling Like (prose editor: Shu Kuang) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

My Happiness

Great men have the pursuit of great men, and common people have the living methods of common people. We are not a great man, so we certainly can’t do anything big. People who do nothing have the way of living for people who do nothing. We can eat three meals a day, have houses to live in to avoid wind and rain, and have simple means of transportation to travel outside, safe Access, healthy family members! After reading some books, I learned the basic principles of being a human being, and wrote a few words when I was free to talk about my views and thoughts on reality. Whether it is right or wrong, it is unimportant and even more irrelevant, the living method of ordinary people is very simple. I have a stable job to do and a small salary to support my family. Although I work harder, I don’t have any more troubles. I feel at ease when I sleep at night and can talk with my lover, plan the life of the small family, plan the future affairs of the children, not afraid of breaking down the East and making up the West, as long as it is OK. Epictetus. Born to be kind and simple, he did not envy the fame and wealth of officialdom. After 30 years of hard work, he was still a common people and had no right to work. From home to school, from school to home, he went back and forth, every day. Calm as water, never envious of the superiority that others show off with famous cars, not to mention the pride that others have great wealth, doing things honestly, doing this job, not flattering superiors, not offending colleagues, ordinary people have what they want, do your best to help others, not to mention return. People of the same age laughed at me for not seeking for progress. I was still a white man for 30 years, and I was not angry. The villagers wondered that I was not worse than others. Why didn’t I take a part-time position? I smiled calmly, take it calmly without any excuse; Previously, I had been in the arena and played mahjong with friends running around. Now, it is also a pleasure to be at ease with the arrangement and combination of words. Time was ruthless and time was fast. Unconsciously, years carved the young people in those years into ten-year-old men full of green Mulberry. My son was just like my scene in those years and was about to graduate from university, taking part in the work and going to the society, there is a cycle of life starting from a new beginning. This is how human beings continue to change from generation to generation, multiply and live, and continue. As a social person, I have done my duty to cultivate talents for the society; As a member of my family, I have completed the inheritance and connection of the family’s life genes. While creating meager wealth for the society, I completed the extension and development of the genetic advantages of my family. I don’t have any extra savings, so I don’t feel upset because I think the income and expenditure are basically the same. People often say that we don’t have a big appetite for eating, dressing and looking at our belongings, so we don’t have too many improper requirements, and naturally there are few troubles; The reason why people have a lot of troubles, because you have a lot of desires, when you want to open up, no matter you are in glory, there will always be leaves falling back, no matter you have wealth, eating is always three meals a day, sleeping is nothing more than a place of three feet. Every day is 24 hours. You have to spend spring, summer, autumn and winter. In the end, you have to fight for fame and wealth, and your body and mind are greatly damaged. Health is your greatest wealth, others are all things outside of the body, which are not brought to death or brought to life. I feel happy to live like this! I have respect for the eagle and gratitude for the sparrow. I don’t have the pursuit of eagle spreading wings and blue sky, because I know that I don’t have wings to fly. I am very grateful to the life that sparrows only want to eat all day long and settle in the nest in front of and behind the house, because they are the portrayal of my life. I only admire the eagle, but not the Sparrow. I am just a mediocre person, even worse than a sparrow, because although I fly very low, I don’t even have this poor ability. So what do I dare to expect? The eagle is great. It has great rewards and ideals, but it is lonely. All Saints are like Eagle, because they fly high and look far away, they are naturally in a state of extreme coldness; sparrow is humble, because its production goal is very simple, having food, drink and love, being able to have children happily and enjoy the happiness given by nature. Isn’t that what we ordinary people pursue? An ordinary life comes to the World occasionally because of the love of parents, which itself is a kind of happiness. Because the love of parents gives us life, no matter how small parents are, they are absolutely great in our hearts, because without them we won’t have the chance to come to this world. Just for this, we have to be grateful for the whole life. Those who don’t recognize their parents, not worthy of being a person, at least not enough. Crows still know how to feed back, birds are like this, but human beings are the masters of all things, why not birds? People who don’t know how grateful they are are, that is, how big the officials are, how much money they earn, what is the meaning of living? Even if you think it is very happy, I think you are not the happiness of animals, at least it cannot be counted as the happiness of human beings, because you don’t deserve the name of human beings. Although we ordinary people are very shallow, do not understand profound philosophy and art, do not appreciate elegant symphonies and paintings, and do not have any inventions and creations without the greatness of leaders who respond to each other, however, we won’t feel discouraged for ourselves because we can know that the reason why red flowers are beautiful and charming is that they are set off by green leaves; The reason why leaders are great is that we are followers who respond to every call; if there is no plain foil, can the mountain show its height? The reason why the sea is praised by the world and is inclusive of everything is to think about it. If there were no rivers and Rivers returning to the sea, could it be so vast and boundless? We are countless small streams, even a drop of water that forms a stream. Compared with the universe, we are insignificant. We can have or not. Since human beings have historical records, how many unknown ancestors have turned into white bone dust, no one knows, with the vicissitudes of life, who can remember the trace of every life on the Earth? The reason why we can remember the names of those ancestors today is that they have made great contributions to human beings. Because we are too ordinary, God has not given us Superman’s talent since we were born, therefore, we think very openly and will not complain about it. Ordinary people are like weeds on the roadside, stones in the mountains and crops in the fields. Weeds do not seek whether the land is fertile or not, as long as there is room for the growth of their bodies, they still live according to the growth rules. Although they are often mowed by people, they still live tenaciously; although the stone in the mountain was eroded by the flowing water, it still sat in the water, covered with scars and carved into different shapes, but it still kept the nature of the stone until it was burnt. The crops in the field are still harvested on time despite the wind and rain. They are unknown to the public and contribute themselves to human beings without complaint. This may not be a big deal in the eyes of big shots, but I think it is great, we ordinary people can only do this. I think God will have mercy on the common people like dirt, because we have tried our best, because our ability can only be like this, too much force, we will feel that this is just reluctant. I won’t feel sad because I am a grass, on the contrary, I feel gratified that I can use my tiny body to add a little green to the nature; This is enough, for which I feel very happy, I am very contented; I am just a stone. Because of my existence, the mountain will achieve its majestic momentum of Cui Wei. Even if I am afraid of being completely damaged by the mountain stream, I will not regret it, because I tried my best, this is my happiness and my value; I am a nameless tree, no matter where it grows, it can add a little scenery to the Earth, even if it is just a little bit, that’s enough, because I know that I only have this ability, so I feel very happy. The eagle will ridicule the Sparrow for being unambitious. I can understand that the sage will look down upon the ordinary people for nothing, and I can also understand, because we are really ordinary. Philosophers will look down upon us and say that we are too superficial. They only know three meals a day and even ridicule us for being the ideal of Pigsty. We are not angry; Artists will despise us for being too secular, unexpectedly, we knew nothing about elegant music, painting and literature. We were still calm because of our congenital deficiency, but we would never complain about our parents. Without them, we would not have our lives, today, our existence is impossible. What reason do we have to complain? Politicians will look down upon us and think that we are a group of foolish people who are driven only by them. We won’t feel sad, because we are so small that we have no status in the society, even these simple happiness that ordinary people despise may not be able to own, because our fate is often blown to nothing by political storms, but we still kneel down and kowtow to God kindly, even kneeling in front of the statue devoutly, burning incense and praying, looking forward to the coming of peace and prosperity, we can live a good life. Therefore, we care about politics, but we don’t have the ability to control politics. We can only be led by politicians. If we are lucky to meet a peaceful and prosperous time, we will be amitov. Even thank God, we are grateful. Happiness is relative. Beggars who plug the Sun are happier than rich men with endless troubles; Sparrows are happiest at the moment when they take food back to feed their children; Bachelors are happiest when they marry their wives; Thirsty land is nourished by water and very happy; the migrant worker was very happy to receive the salary he earned with sweat, because he didn’t meet the black-hearted boss; The Wanderer felt very happy to have a home, because he had his own home; I was very happy, because I am healthy, have a stable life, have a calm mood, have no desire, and feel very contented! Maybe people who don’t understand my view of happiness think that I have done nothing and ridicule me for mediocrity, but for me, I have tried my best and I don’t regret it because I have tried hard. People Ah! Don’t feel discouraged because of hard work and no return. You know, our efforts and efforts are enough. Don’t care too much about the result, because hard work itself is a process, it is enough for us to participate. Focus on participation, no need to pay back! If you can think like this, all troubles will be eliminated. The key to happiness lies in your mood. You can feel happy. Don’t care what others think and say. Your happiness is your feeling. Every day I live in happiness, because I participated in it; Just like writing, I wrote a lot without much gain. Some people asked me that I wrote so much, how much did you earn? I feel very ridiculous. It is not necessarily happiness to earn money, but not happiness to earn money. I feel that I can have such a calm mood every day and write down what I think and think, just express my thoughts and feelings. It doesn’t matter whether I earn money or not, because I still live a good life without making money. Writing is just a hobby in my life, I didn’t try to make money with this hobby, so I still write every day, because I feel that only writing can enrich my spare time, and it is enough to have spiritual sustenance! Happiness is like this, what is the demand for recovery? Like (prose editor: Ke Er) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Mengxi of bearing

I will continue to stay with this city in another way I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Live and understand yourself.

Last year, I met a miss sitting in a karaoke bar by chance. On that day, after dinner with friends, one of them proposed to sing K. When they arrived at KTV, their manager asked their friend if he wanted to order songs. He said yes. Next, the foreman brought in a group of women with heavy makeup and exposed clothes. They were the miss sitting on the stage as people often said. We four men and two women, and we asked for three people. From the dim light, I noticed a woman standing at an inconspicuous place near her. She had long hair and didn’t wear such disgusting heavy makeup. At least I could see what she looked like, what is her true face. A pair of big eyes with a hint of delicate temperament flowing from the brow, about 168 tall, and the temperament emitted from the whole body is completely different from others. I pointed at her and said you would stay. She came over and sat down, smiled at me, then turned around to talk to her friend. The other two women were like birds that had been found to eat, and they chatted happily. She just sat there quietly, watching others playing. She was totally incompatible with this box full of ambiguity and passion. I drank a glass of wine with her and motioned her to come over to my side. We started chatting. I said that you look different from them. Do you feel particularly hard to do this job? She said yes, she felt very tired, but she had to do it. Every day, you have to think about how to please the present guest and earn more tips. I said why do you have to do this? There are a lot of jobs that can be done. Although you earn more money than this, at least you won’t feel tired. You don’t have to look at other people’s faces. She smiled. I used to be innocent before. At that time, I was a little girl who just left home and worked as a waiter in a restaurant. I could always see bald old men with big bellies carrying young and beautiful girls one by one. They are also always accompanying smiling faces. They have famous brand bags, famous brand clothes and cosmetics. Once I accidentally spilled vegetables on a female guest, and she asked me to compensate her clothes. The fur she wears is more than 20,000. How could I afford it? Finally, the boss came forward and paid her seven thousand yuan, but I would use my salary to offset it. The boss wrote an IOU, which was very clear, and then I signed it. Since then, I have been disappointed with this society. Without money, you really think you are nothing. I began to degenerate and contacted with entertainment places. But my character can’t blend in there all the time. Speaking of this, I can understand her very much. I used to work in a bar, and I know the noise and mess there. It can really change one’s mind easily. If you haven’t changed, you can only say that you are not suitable there. I that is the way. Maybe I have watched too many TV plays. I always feel that every lady has a special experience. Or miserable childhood, or family burdens. In fact, it is wrong. These are just imaginary in people’s hearts, which give them a mysterious and melancholy color subconsciously. It was all money that hurt these people. They couldn’t find a direction or a future. I just can’t help myself immersed in the colorful life. There is another kind of woman who is actually admirable. Under the temptation of colorful colors, she firmly adheres to her own principles. Sometimes she is confused when facing loneliness. They even began to doubt their own principles. So I wanted to indulge myself, but finally failed. They want to find a way to kill loneliness. They usually make themselves exhausted and then fall asleep. Gradually, they become vicissitudes and haggard. Loneliness is as addictive as opium poppy. It can’t be quit or dumped. Therefore, I became numb and corrupted. Night show is actually the epitome of society. All ugliness and impetuousness can be seen there. It is the place where the truth, goodness and beauty are truly reflected. Every person who has a bright appearance in the daytime, at night, when he is alone, who knows what kind of person he is? Who knows how many masks he wears? People always wear colored glasses to see those people in the entertainment circle and call them miss. Sometimes, they are really much better than us. Look down on others’ cynicism, be proud, beautiful, walk your own way with smile, and let others say it. Go your own way and let others say that you can do this. You are not easy. I respect every profession and never despise anyone. Because I know I have no qualification or power! In the seductive moment, especially girls, don’t sell yourself for money. To learn to look down on fame and money, everyone has a gap. Some people are destined to be a rich second generation when they are born, and they are destined to inherit family business or heritage. Some people are doomed to be miserable and poor all their lives when they are born. God has given us unequal identities, but people should live their own pride and personality alive. No matter how good yours is, I don’t envy you. No matter how bad mine is, it has nothing to do with you. That’s it. You really don’t have to envy anyone. You don’t need to explain your proud life. Just be yourself. On the road of life, if you want to take a shortcut, then you must be ready to change the route. After all, the road is too easy to take you anywhere. There is still a long way to go in the future. I don’t want to leave any regrets and bad memories for myself. Therefore, my choice is still plain. Be an intellectual and beautiful person from the inside out. To live, you really don’t have to be too serious about who is better than who. If you understand yourself, your life will be more than half successful. Like (prose editor: Shu Kuang) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Homecoming

The coming of life is like a storm, which makes me step into a year of confusion, while the past is like a storm, which can not be reflected in front of my eyes without my thinking. In my childhood, all kinds of sports penetrated into everyone’s life like a tide, and I was no exception. It can be said that I was also a victim of all kinds of sports. At least in the days of the great revolution, our study was equivalent to receiving labor education, and schools were useless. In that era, even Mandarin can’t be learned normally, which is a foreign language? I can only say reluctantly that my childhood was like running water, flowing casually. One year, two years, three years when I was young, I became a member of millions of farmers, sweating like rain, the days with faces facing the loess and back facing the sky were the main melody of life. At that time, that was all. People forgot the pain in their hard work, because too many crying made people numb their nerves, also because everyone is experiencing pain, everyone is not easy to say pain, but just melt the pain into silent work. Spring goes and spring comes again, and the beautiful Shaoguang flashes like a nightmare. When I was young, under the persuasion of my relatives, I learned tailor in the way of half-apprentice and half-self-study. Maybe I have seen too much bitterness and helplessness. I vaguely remember that it was at that time that I became silent, all the pondering and meditation were carefully woven into clothes one after another. I believe that only through hard work can we witness the history. It was also at that time that I realized why Lu Xun also sank into ancient books and couldn’t help himself. When the ideal contradicts with the social reality, I can only concentrate my hesitation in a thin stitch. The past hits the door of my memory. Every time when the night was quiet, the sound of erhu in the neighbor’s house came from each other as if it were broken and continued. The bitterness was low, and it seemed that the night had calmed down. It seemed that all the stories went through the hearts of the players and listeners, that kind of loneliness that goes deep into the bone marrow is eternal for me who is introverted. Perhaps it was because of my loneliness that my father made me step into the second turning point of my life to get married. My wife was an ordinary woman with a melancholy brow, there are also some elements of destiny vaguely. Unconsciously, I experienced the path of rural youth: getting married, raising children and building a house. The hardship and joy in this period are intertwined, and it is difficult to define it as bitterness or happiness when recalling it up to now. Perhaps the most important thing in life is the process of experience, rather than the sad ending. I think that life may be just a cup of light tea. When sipping life, you should give yourself a tranquil mood. Why worried in month full moon lacks? Why Feeling life hardships? Why care about the desolation of the sunset? Let the flowing years take away everything in the past and let the quiet life wipe away the slight sadness. No matter how many times I suddenly look back, my heart is still the same. Thousands of sails are over, and faith remains unchanged. Like (prose editor: Dielianhua) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

wu yue small poly

In May, we will pay tribute to the youth that is about to pass away. It is very rare that everyone can spare a day to get together after being busy and talk about our own lives and dreams. Whether we stick to them or not, it is enough to be pleased. Because, in the days above life, there is too much silence, and the comfort given to the soul is relatively scarce. Our youth, walking too fast, had no time to imagine the future, then fell in love with memories. However, now that belongs to us, we either continue to struggle behind our dreams, or we are willing to be plain at the moment. However, it is difficult to make a choice, and most of the time what remains is entanglement. Perhaps, every era has its own characteristics, while those born in the 1980 s cannot catch up with the calmness of 70 s, nor can they have the courage of 90 s. We often think that we can’t continue to let our characters go. Restraint and hiding have become the themes of our study. Freedom and youth seem to disappear overnight. We don’t have the capital to be presumptuous, and we don’t have the courage to bear the loss. Reality like this is extremely precious compared with worldly wisdom in the workplace. There is no need to hide, no need to restrain, very relaxed, very natural feeling, must love this group of like-minded friends, otherwise, when separated, will not have the courage to turn back. I like the bustle when we get together, but I am more afraid of the silence after that. The loneliness belonging to a person became more and more sad against the backdrop of prosperity. I tried to make myself busy to fill the blank in the days, but I couldn’t control the sentimental feelings in my heart. Later, simply sit on the platform, fly those thoughts that cannot be named in the starry sky, and place those thoughts that come out with joy on the quiet starry sky. Raise your head and stare until your heart gets peace. Many years later, we were still the group of children in those years. We lived far away and our hearts were still so close. A group of big boys, together with two little girls, jokingly and jokingly thank God for giving us such a fate, giving our hearts a place to return and leaving a innocence for life. No matter what kind of days life gives us, we are brave to undertake, striving for a calm loss and a safe gain. Just to make yourself and the people you love better. Here, we commemorate the lost years that will always belong to us. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…