A person’s Halo

After autumn, my enteritis recurred, and at the same time, my myocardial ischemia became more serious. Every day, my belly gurgling and singing, flustered and palpitation, and I couldn’t rest for a moment. These terrible and boring diseases always accompany me all the time. At the age of my age, I had already attached myself to aging in advance and struggled with disease. I smiled helplessly, but there was a smell of tears flowing underneath my heart. I locked myself completely in a piece of land belonging to myself, regardless of spring, summer, autumn and winter, that person is a person. The expression is always in a trance, everything seems to be a nightmare, always a nightmare that is not awake, entangled. I completely indulged my selfishness, and I completely forgot the idea that I didn’t live only for one person. I abandon all the connections about myself that are public and completely controlled by the social environment. I just feel that I live only for myself and for myself! What a terrible mood this is! However, I turned a blind eye to it. I still lived the life I created as before and coordinated my ideology. I will build everything I have, fight alone, and do my own thing! I only know that moving forward like this is my choice and my idea. No one can stop, no one can disturb, I just stumbled forward towards the entanglement full of nightmares! At night, I always suffer from insomnia. I turned on the light, and in that dim halo, I checked myself and examined myself. I tortured my soul and tried to correct my poisoned thoughts. But everything is always in vain and in vain. In that Halo, I only saw my fragile and pale shadow, a weak heart and a gurgling stomach. And all of these are closely related to me. I won’t let anyone understand that in that Halo, I don’t want to be noticed, I just want to forget. Being completely forgotten and buried by the world in his own halo is the call of freedom and happiness, the monologue of a person in his halo or his eulogy, deep eulogies that no one can understand! The autumn wind rose, and pieces of yellow leaves were falling. I don’t understand what autumn actually gives people? Mature? Harvest? Sad? Lonely? Lonely? I don’t want to know, nor do I want to explore. I just want to stay in my halo, comfort my body with recurrent enteritis and myocardial ischemia and my bewildered soul by the warmth of that halo. I just want to warm myself and know myself in that halo. At midnight, the abdomen was causing trouble again. Sleepy eyes, holding a flashlight, went to the toilet a mile away. It was another lonely Halo, dragging a lonely and long tail. I saw my weak shadow and vulnerable body, in that Halo, confusion, wandering and trembling. I could feel my pale face, like a white paper soaked in water. In the Halo with its tail dragging, I was in a hurry, but there was no expression. In the halo, it is just a dim little-known symbol, yes, it is just a symbol! In a person’s halo, a person is just a strange symbol of himself?! In many days in autumn, I turned off my mobile phone and all the communication. I am not willing to open a certain road to the outside world. I am just willing to talk with myself or monologue in my halo, whenever and wherever. I am willing to express it voluntarily or a way to escape from the troubles of the world. So don’t disturb me any more, and don’t destroy my halo, my mind! Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Who can understand me?

Morning, silent. Under the hazy moonlight, I tried to stare at the stars and let the warm morning breeze Kiss My Face lightly. The soft music accompanied me to the night sky alone in this silent morning. Bored, turn on the computer, looking at a familiar and strange avatar on the screen, stunned in a daze, thinking about the short brilliance of my life. I haven’t written for many days. Recently, facing the screen, there was a blank space. Those square words jumping on the paper seemed to be so far away from me suddenly. When I read the countless heart words I once wrote again, I seemed to see another Self, who had gone through countless years in decadence. In a short period of more than two years, I felt a lot tired, more like I had gone through most of my life. However, who can really understand the contradictions and struggles in my heart? Suddenly, I found that the steps in these two years were stumbling, and the walk alone for many days was shuttling between the lines. In recent days, the seemingly plain life has actually made me feel more. It turns out that no matter how deep the emotion between people is, it is still very fragile. Occasionally passing by, or smiling, can pull two people together. However, unintentional actions, careless words and even doing nothing can further distance each other. I thought that if I chose to leave the internet, I could leave a wonderful memory for everyone, but I didn’t expect that since I left, I lost a netizen and a little girl like this, and I felt a lot of emotion in my heart. I never thought that the unbreakable emotion between Meier and me would bring any trouble or embarrassment to myself. When we wrote articles for each other and put the most sincere feelings in our hearts into touching words, we also aroused some people’s jealousy at the same time. Because of knowing your own sensibility, you don’t want to be a captive of the Internet, wasting time in space and chatting windows, which leads to scars, and you don’t want to hurt anyone. Therefore, I had to make up my mind to close the space, and never thought that a girl would mistake me for deleting her. She, who was kept in the dark, may have been hurt by my actions. I don’t know whether her eyes were shining with tears at that moment? One day, I received an email reply from a little girl. When I opened the email, I suddenly saw a slight bitterness filled in the lines. I complained that I treated her as an ordinary netizen and that I was indifferent and indifferent. After reading, I was speechless and filled with grievances. I could only see tears in my eyes, but I tried to bury that grievance in my heart with the toughness of seeing it calmly. In fact, no one can really understand my reluctance and contradiction. The constant rotation of the Sun and the moon never stops. No matter how I beg, the years are still moving forward indifferent. The clouds are rolling and the clouds are Shu, The Wind Rises and falls, the treetop leaves support, the Moonlight droops, and time goes by in the contradiction and struggle day and night. On Saturday, the sky was very blue, and the ruthless sunshine sprinkled the warmth of the room through the curtains. Even the cold floor at ordinary times exudes layers of heat. Bored, I sat by the window as always, letting my thoughts fly. The noisy city looks so far away from the window on the 27th floor. The road was full of traffic, and the sky was clear. Only a few clouds floated slowly, but they could not cover the suffocating heat. My heart is full of many contradictions and helplessness, and I am always entangled in my heart. Wandering on the edge of time, wasting a lot of time, I still feel confused. Looking at Ruoer’s emotional illness deteriorating day by day, his chest was always like a blocked water pipe, and he was worried. As a father, I tried many ways to stabilize my child’s mood, but I also rose and fell with her mood. Every day, every night, my wife and I spent the helpless years trembling. Rouer’s temper was just like an unpredictable volcano, hiding the unknown fuse. If he accidentally touched it, some sparks would be wiped out and burned into wounds. The eruption of the volcano made us cry at a loss, and even made our spirits close to collapse. Family ugliness should not be spread out, and we can only bear every time silently. No one can really understand the heartache that took her to the counseling center of the mental hospital for treatment every time, which is hard to say. A few days ago, I accidentally saw Xuehua’s car driving in the parking lot of the company for several times. Unexpectedly, I dared not to get off the car. I was afraid to meet her, but I was speechless. The old friends meet now, just like strangers greeting each other. The awkward atmosphere suffocated me and made me unable to adapt. Therefore, I had to choose to avoid. I was always sitting in the carriage, unwilling to face the fact that I was betrayed by friendship, and even unwilling to face my guilt for her. Looking at her back from the back mirror, I disappeared in the elevator, I dare to step out of the door. The real friendship is so false to me now. All the efforts and the past attachment have disappeared without a trace like the wind blowing away. This woman who was betrayed by her husband still lives a firm life till now. Every time I saw her, the smile on her face was still as bright as sunshine, but nobody knew the pain hidden behind every false smile. Her free and easy, more showing my cowardice, is so ridiculous. I feel sad about the lost friendship. A fallen leaf passed by with the wind, reluctantly separated from the branches and stirred up the ripples in my heart. Seeing the dead leaves fall on the green grass without control, lying still with numerous dead leaves helplessly, waiting for rebirth, thinking that people themselves are like a grain of dust in the world of mortals, it is too small to change the world even if you are born or die. The Earth is still turning and the wind and rain are still changing. When the footsteps go away quietly, the speed of time will make people forget the past in some corner of their hearts quickly and never lift up. Once there was a green leaf about to wither breaking into my life. I watered it with my heart and gave me the most sincere friendship. However, when sincere friendship turns into selfish emotion and gets into the boundary of love, this life is doomed to end with tragedy. I remember the last time I saw her, I gave her the paper crane folded by myself. No long talk, no greetings, just a plain thank you. She poked in outside the window of the car, stretched out her hand, received the gift, and hurried to the meeting. Looking at her back, she gradually moved away with tears blurred, but never really collected her back well. That night, I received the cruelest reply: “I am not so free! Your persistence really disgusted me! “I was speechless, and never shed a tear, as if the salty spring had dried up. Now, when I recall the past, I unexpectedly find that I can’t remember her back clearly. Two years ago, sitting alone in a coffee shop waiting for Rouer to finish class, his hands folded paper stars to leaves without stopping. Each piece of note was attached with my deep blessings and sincere emotions, which were carefully folded into stars overflowing with tenderness, and then put them into bottles and gave them to her. The diners around me all looked at me with strange eyes. Why is a decent man folding paper cranes in public. Who can understand me at that time, a tender feeling, but also a heartache. The night faded away gradually, and the lazy morning light seemed not to rise. On the same day, the fish belly was raised ceremoniously, and a piece of morning fog rose from nowhere. Outside the window was a piece of gray scenery, gray buildings, gray streets and gray passers-. In the dim light, what I couldn’t see clearly was that the road ahead was straight or straight, and I couldn’t see clearly whether the future days were smooth or bumpy. However, I know that even if no one can understand me, the road still has to go. A pain in your heart; An unspeakable love; A friendship that cannot be repaired. Therefore, family affection, love and friendship intertwined into an invisible net, binding me. It is said that the Northern Sutra has entered autumn. I had never walked through the four seasons, and suddenly I really wanted to fly to the north country to live for a period of time, to personally feel the bleak rope from spring to autumn, and to feel the deep romance of autumn. Who can understand that in fact, deep in my heart, I still care about every time I spend suffering with me? Who knows that there are many unspeakable grief, joy and even emotions hidden in my story? And I don’t want to understand anyone, nor do I expect anyone to understand me. But I always hope that those who once intruded into my life can understand and understand at least every decision I made 2012.08.29 Like (prose editor: dancing alone with rain) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

I listen to “the fate of this life”

One day, my good friend recommended me to listen to “the fate of this life”. I was glad to hear it for the first time: I felt that there were few musical elements, gentle tones and single meanings. In summary, it is plain and light, and there is nothing special. Just because my friends like it and miss it, they listen to it occasionally. Every time they listen to it, it is just an extension of emotion. But today I listened again, but somehow I couldn’t help myself. Tears flew down, but I couldn’t stop. I wet my clothes silently. Playback over and over again, melancholy. Maybe I understood the lyrics and composing, and the voice of the singer resonated with him? Maybe this song, this word, this song match my mood at this moment? In short, in the song, I heard the singer’s helplessness: destiny in this life will also be discrete, and the only way is never to forget; In the lyrics, I read the singer’s sadness: this life is like a dream, and the only way is to forget worries and wounds; In the Depression, I feel the melancholy of singers: This life is destined to be vicissitudes, the only way was to pass by with tears and smiles; When repeated, I touched the sadness of the singer: If you get drunk in this life, you will have no worries. Is this the interpretation of the hard people, the annotation of the frustrated people, or the pouring out of the Drifters and the shouting of the struggling people? No, I think it should be the moonlight in the desert. The bluestone on the Gobi stands reflects the clear glow as hard as iron in the desolation; It is the Qiang flute outside the Yumen Pass, and the Running Wolf in the snow field, choked in the loneliness, the song of brotherhood. There are one thousand hamlets among one thousand readers, with different angles and emotions, and the ganxin they appreciate may be completely different. Listen again, I said to myself. When the song rang, sad tears overflowed again. I really couldn’t tell for a moment. Why did it fall? It’s just very sad, maybe for those who are separated from each other, or for those who have gone through hard work, or for those who have left their homes, or for those grassroots who are drunk and accompanied by brothers, perhaps the little sadness complex that I can’t understand is winding. Attachment: Today’s fate (lyricist, composer, singer: Chuanzi) we are destined to live on the road. As long as we never forget our friends, let’s firmly remember them together. Don’t care about those worries and hurt friends. Let’s firmly remember them together. Don’t care about those worries and hurt us in this life. It is destined that the vicissitudes of life are crying and we will pass by with a smile. Friends, let’s firmly remember our brotherhood in this life. Long friends, let’s firmly remember our brotherhood in this life. Long friendship in this life, we are destined to be on the road. Never forget friends with each other. Let’s keep in mind together. Don’t care about those worries and hurt friends. Let’s keep in mind together. Don’t care about those worries and hurt. Our life is like a dream. Why don’t you be drunk with you, friends? Let’s keep it in mind together. After all the dust, there is no concern for friends. Let’s keep it in mind together. After all the dust, there is no concern for us. This life is like a dream with you. If you are drunk, what’s wrong with friends? Let’s keep it in mind together. After the dust, there is no concern. We are like a dream. If you are drunk, what’s wrong with friends? Let’s keep it in mind. After the dust, there is no concern. Care about friends, let’s keep it in mind together. No care after all. Like (prose editor: Shu Kuang) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Bread and water

This is what people say. Eating is a big event for our common people. People are iron and iron, and people are hungry without eating. I like the old saying very much, always showing the truth of guiding the country and life. Chatting with friends, when it comes to eating, the topic is naturally full of variety, where is the delicious food, what restaurant’s special dishes, all rushed to explain, let people feel that they can eat and eat, the diet culture of the motherland is too extensive and profound, and it is often numerous. When it comes to the truth of love, it is all coveted for several feet. After all, life is better than before. I was worried that I didn’t have to eat and there was no choice. Now, I am thinking about what to eat. It seems that the same belly has been keeping pace with the times and has become melodramatic. I remember that I read a poem in the early years. It seemed that I had learned it casually in my life, and I was satisfied with the coarse tea and light rice. I don’t know who did this poem come from. I bought a notebook at that time. There was a picture on the cover of The Notebook, which drew a brief outline of a Taoist who was unkempt and smiley, there is a bamboo shadow behind him, dotted with some stones, and a large coarse porcelain bowl on the stone with bamboo chopsticks. At that time, I thought that maybe it was from the feeling of some monk. I freely chanted the free mood, self-encouragement and persuasion… Writing here, I suddenly thought that I would go to check the source of this poem, so I went to Baidu for a while, and the result was as follows: [source] contentment is happy to speak out “: sin is more than desire, the disaster is greater than dissatisfaction; The blame is greater than desire. Therefore, it is enough to be satisfied. It means: sin is not greater than indulgence desire, disaster is not greater than unsatisfied; Fault is not greater than greed. Therefore, people who know satisfaction will always feel happy. Coarse tea and light rice are idioms, which mean simple diet and simple life. It comes from the preface to the poem of four monks written by Huang Tingjian of Song Dynasty: If you have enough tea and light food, you will have to have a rest, if you make up for the cold and warm, you will have to have a rest after you have reached the third level. Synonyms are common, coarse and hard food. Baidu is not completely aware of it, but it seems to have more profound meanings in the understanding of this poem. The coarse tea is light and the meal is full. No matter what is good or bad, if you are full, you can stop it. If you make up the cold and warm, you can stop it. The clothes are used to cover the cold. It’s OK to keep warm, and you are. Huang Tingjian (-), whose name is Lu Zhi, is from Shangu Road and Fu Weng in the evening. He is also called Mr. Yu Zhang Huang, Han nationality and from Fenning, Hongzhou (now Xiushui, Jiangxi). Poets, poets, calligraphers in Northern Song dynasty were the founders of Jiangxi poetry school which was very prosperous. Yingzong Zhiping four years (1067) Jinshi. Li Guan Ye Xian Wei, professor of Beijing Imperial College, School book Lang, work zuolang, Secretary Cheng, Fuzhou don’t drive, Qianzhou resettlement, etc. In Huang Tingjian’s identity, he could be regarded as a cultural official. He should not be short of money and food. What did he mean when he wrote it like this? Don’t tried of delicacies, like nowadays officialdom beings, changed to find some countryside stir fry, farm soil dinner already? It is not like that. The temperament of a scholar and the shadow of feeling and penetration emerge in it. Compared, I prefer the latter explanation. Living in the countryside, I have all kinds of thoughts to trace the details of life slowly. I am at leisure and quiet. It seems that there is no more enlightenment for people. People’s thoughts, it is a complex procedure of repeated comparison and constant updating, and it is very difficult to do it without Yunnan or greed. Fortunately, we still have time to learn and comprehend the many tips that life gives us. We can constantly revise ourselves. Cultivation is a key point in our life. As for whether we can get or not, we have to follow our fate. In fact, most people in ordinary families are still common. I think it should be similar to the coarse tea and light rice in the poem. It is not so particular and casual. It may be coarse grains or fresh vegetables, cabbage and tofu can fill the stomach, and the heart can settle down. Of course, if there is some wine, then the days will be warm. Cao Xueqin, the author of A Dream of Red Mansions, experienced the change of wealth and poverty. There was a dream of Red Mansions. From seeing his tall buildings to seeing his collapsed buildings, he finally realized that a bowl of coarse tea and light Rice could also be eaten, sweet and comfortable, the so-called less demand, the more happiness, may be roughly similar to this. For us, there may not be much implication in the coarse tea and light rice, unlike those sober people or those with elegant interests, who regard eating and drinking coarse tea and light rice as a kind of practice or life realm, we are just eating home-style meals, enjoying home or gathering friends, and living a simple life for ordinary people. It should be nothing to say. However, that’s not the case. It seems to be happy to have the gratitude and love for life from the coarse tea and light rice. Who is saying that it is great wisdom to live a simple life. There is also confusion and no confusion in the coarse tea and light rice, looking at you with a smile, like a universal Buddha. Stroking the satisfied belly and walking along the gentle country road, some villagers greeted you in their own yard: Have you eaten? Eaten. Such a peaceful morning or evening makes you more aware of your life. The life of coarse tea and light rice is the most primitive operation of the Sun and Moon. There is no cup on the wine table in the city, without the yangmou conspiracy in the brilliant lights of the hotel, you can be so relaxed and happy as you like. The afterglow of the sunset drew a circle of golden edges for people and objects from far and near. Poultry and livestock went home respectively. A pair of swallows newly settled on the beam chatted with each other softly. The grape shelf and the osmanthus tree in front of the door were as dark, you suddenly have no language to tell, and you don’t know what to say. In fact, needless to say anything. Are live. Like (prose editor: prose online) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Gossip

In the rural market, consumption is in direct proportion to income. The income is not much, and the money is also affordable. In recent years, some clothes of a little high grade have flocked to the countryside, and I don’t see its special features when wearing them on some people. One day, I saw a woman in her forties, with ankle-length shoes, leggings, covered shorts and a small suit. It was very fashionable, but it made people lose their appetite. Elephant legs, raised belly, fat hips, the front bulges and the back bulges, which is simply a shame on the clothes. I seldom buy clothes, which is related to my character. I also like some fashionable clothes, but I am reluctant to spend money if it is too expensive. Every time I need to add clothes, there is really no replacement. I have to decide to buy it. I also have a goal in my heart. I have a plan to buy it in the street, and I am absolutely satisfied when I buy it. Usually, I also like things with good quality and low price. I saw a lot of leggings at the temple fair that day. Working in the field requires squatting. The leggings are elastic and comfortable to squat up. The cheapest one on the market also costs twenty or thirty yuan, no matter how bad it was, two were more convenient than one, so I took two for twenty yuan. The next day, there was a table to eat, and there were a lot of people. I put on a pair of gray striped leggings. Although The waist shaping effect is not as good as jeans, I feel different when wearing it. Anyway, it is new, no one will see that it is cheap, and it is convenient to work directly after coming back in the afternoon. Who knows when I just went out, several people asked: This pair of trousers is very beautiful, where did I buy them? I don’t know how to lie, but nobody believed it to be honest. Until the explanation was finished, they were still sighing, why didn’t they see it? Even if they saw it, they could only see that I could wear it, so thin! I smiled, people are thin and small, which has become an advantage! In the new season, I bought spring clothes. My nephew got married and appeared in front of the crowd wearing the clothes I just bought. I also received praise from the crowd. I used to hear praise from others, but I just regarded it as a polite person, this time I didn’t agree. Now I have already believed in my own value, fashion, which has increased my confidence in chasing fashion. Dressing up is not expensive than famous brand, but it is good. Keeping figure and matching reasonably not only respect others’ vision, but also delight their mood and improve their taste. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

On the way, I always walk alone

On the way, I always walk alone

The smoke is dark at dusk, and it is quiet and cool. The lights cover the dusk, and the ink is recorded under the clear glow. Inscription Yang Muyun eliminates the wind and waterfall, the moon falls and the bridge smells cold. The amorous feelings of the night are everywhere with cool and refreshing strolling in this night which is woken up by the wind, there is a faint, wet and cool fragrance permeating through the back. Bathing in the breeze, I brushed the warmth of my face, closed my eyes slightly, and felt drunk. Calm down and listen to the murmured voice of the night as a frame of water-like scenery, and I, in the depth of the night, use the softest feelings to carefully experience the tranquility of the red dust pillow. The breeze blows gently, and the cold glow of the clear night devours the empty body. On the long bluestone, I saw a thin shadow floating alone in the soft wave like ink. In this way, alone, through layers of loneliness in the long streets and alleys. While I stood out and looked at those passers-by in a hurry, and stopped watching the scenes without trace. The streetscape with lingering lights and shadows is full of hazy and gorgeous light; The clear and water-like feelings in this chamber can detect the drifting and dust of the night. Through the wet breath, I once put the rhythm of silence into my heart, making a baptism of dust and tail for the running and labors of the body and the bleak soul. With a wave of two sleeves, the dust bounced off all over my body, return is a profound path. Gu Ying was far away from the sky, and the lonely stars in the sky flickered in the almost static clear night. At the corner of the street, the light makeup like fireflies gradually covered up the hustle and bustle of the world. Watching the noise quietly turned into a wisp of light smoke and fell asleep under the clear glow of the sky. Night, deep. The noisy voice faded with the dispersion of the crowd, leaving only the night breeze blowing, waking up a pool of recession. This city is so quiet, the surrounding is so quiet and cold, it seems strange to hear the heart tremble. Staring at, the light and shadow floating in the air are flowing, and each scene is clear, which makes my eyes feel sad, leaving a piece of coolness lingering in my body. In the distance, the trace of wind rising and falling is curling with tiny thoughts, and the uncertain scene is far away. The dream which was still clear in my heart was moored in the night with the boat of my mind. I asked every lonely cold star, calling for dawn and dusk. It fades its flashy, and gets used to a person who is drunk and sinking in the bright night, so as to irrigate his chest; Or use some prosperous and painful images between the lines, with the cold of the old love broken into bone marrow. Walking in the dilemma of life, I lamented that the past was falling with the wind. At first, the passionate and colorful dream was gradually annihilated by the disturbance of the world of mortals, and shed a lot of bitterness to accompany the annual rings passing quietly. In the smoke wave, I tried hard to imagine the charming scenery for the warmth of flowers. However, I finally made a wreath for it myself, leaving only a numb and cold heart walking in loneliness. There are Zen sayings, such as: the pure land does not need to be far away; Touch is the light of heart. I always tried to make myself say goodbye to many unbearable emotions, so in the grand fireworks on Earth, some people were rejected out of their hearts with indifferent attitude before they got close. Because I am afraid that those people and things that have been unforgettable will eventually disappear in the separation of life without trace. I finally have a deep understanding of the sadness that ends, the silent regret that cries, the heartbreaking pain and all kinds of extreme pains, as if I were a discarded child, so helpless. In the end, only being lonely and reluctant to leave, hanging on the chest wantonly make public, can’t be driven away by the dead skin. It seems that loneliness and loneliness always catch me tightly in my hand, making me suffocated, like duckweed, unwillingly putting my heart on the lonely ocean, listening to its singing and drifting with it, no to. Floating in the long river of life, it seems that there are only two endings, either crying and regretting, or facing with smile. As for how to choose, maybe no one can control it. If you ask me about my choice, then I will smile, even if my heart has broken the imaginary world, even if there is no breeze and the moon, at least there will be a long-lost feeling of sunshine. I have been recalling that carefree youth, smiling, happy and remembering happily, and drunk in it, for a long time, I can’t help myself. Time is like water, and I can’t help it. With the growing age, I gradually got used to walking alone, watching strange scenery and listening to lonely singing. In the cool days of time, there is a flowing dream, floating into the blue sky from the wind through the door, which can be a cloud, a sunset, or a poem, it can also be a nostalgic old song. Maybe when you are alone, you will not care too much about the harvest. In this way, there will be no loss or regret, and thus there will be a beauty of longing for the future, because you know, even if you try hard and keep chasing, life is not perfect. Maybe when you are alone, your heart can calm down, and your self-nature will be like colored glaze sublimating in loneliness, and you will realize prosperity from the smoke, and you will think about the meaning of life from afar. Then, calm down and write down the attachment in my heart and the life of tomorrow, which gradually grows into sweetness and a relieved smile in the clear brightness of the pen and ink, pointing to the fleeting year and spring, and looking back on the past. Under the eaves, listen to the surging wind and clouds; In the Cup and Cup, taste three thousand like a dream. Heart Tour between heaven and earth, pen drop Sujian, people watching, Book Passage. I only wish that I would not feel sad any more from now on, live quietly and restore the warmth itself. In the years like water, loneliness depends on each other and is accompanied by loneliness. From then on, those trifles are like giving up bad deeds. From then on, they will be detained at the end of the world without any reason. They will laugh at the world of mortals and watch the flowers. Lonely Night, desk light late. It seems that only this roll of ink incense can retain some fleeting streamer. All of a sudden, I was deeply touched. There were some roads that I had to learn to walk alone all the time, but I still had to smile bitterly, pretending that I didn’t think about anything and didn’t understand anything. Continue to smile the years with longing, smile and say that I will be very good, maybe there will be some loneliness and loneliness. In the past, the past will not say much; In the future, maybe it will be far away, maybe it will also be beautiful. Looking back for a few times, the rolling world is like a dream; Throwing a pen and throwing a word, no one understands the ink shortage Like (prose editor: Dielianhua) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Misunderstanding can isolate the relationship between people

Never thought I’s English Language Log, will I cause a misunderstanding, almost lost a net friend. If not that day morning idle boring, no objective to browse the web, in someone else’s space shuttle, will not find yourself one friends of space suddenly locked the door, let me eat denied entry. All of a sudden, thought into the wrong space, so, repeated sure I spoke with Meredith a word or two, on coming back to space, happens to to your buddy list can not find her name. A fear suddenly my heart, quickly search their own memory, ever clean space, not care of removing her, I don’t want to cause misunderstanding, more don’t want anyone to think I am so ruthless person. Set out to without undue her delete after, panic into melancholy, thinking, whether own aloof unbearable, as for drive her into the blacklist, from before her disappear. Many times, really doubt yourself interpersonal appropriateness, always feel was a lonely person. Never liked with others answer, especially cross-purposes colleague. Every day, with a false mask work, in addition to work rocking, I would avoid interact with other. For space communication, and I was often just silently watching so-and-dynamic, few in space stay in under a word. I rarely for talk about or article leave a comment, unless read after feeling makes me feel want to leave meaningful words. If after reading, do not know how to wording, I will quietly leave. Occasionally, I will choose in privately send message to QQ, not their care or worry, world all her. Even if someone give me a comment, I also only accept, rarely Reply. Perhaps this is my net friend not much reason. But, I always believe that friends is a kind of wealth, is your fine not expensive multi. Whether because of this, pal who will erased me, huh? With a open heart, and a lucky psychology, I searching in that friends QQ NUMBER, again add her as a friends. I was feeling a little stalker, and unwilling to unprovoked offend anyone, or lose a friend. Fortunately, she accepted my request. So, I carefully to her ask whose what happened. Eventually found, that is just a misunderstanding. That day, I wrote a English log, sensitive she thought I cede her comments, thus wrote her toffs log, not let her a message. What of it, a little ridiculous, but also got me thinking. A unintentional actions could, a not many people can’t read, but in virtually hurt a heart of docile. Relationship between people really delicate. Often as long as a look, a word, a look, a movement, even do nothing, people’s relationship is will from far and near, or from near and far. And world many beautiful myths, the squeal of the tragedy, also may start with some pinpoint move. Punks between because a look and created a sensation in between men and women because a smile and each other heart-to-heart; Couple between because a sentence non-senz yu split; Between friends and relatives because a an unintentional and enemies. But, when people sit down quietly look back, but will find that is just a misunderstanding, and even their own sensitive psychological as well as the damage. Some people, for dignity, would rather let misunderstanding continue not bow; Some people, servile, only in order to retain each other between a little relationship, but forget because of misunderstanding of slit, will always put in each other heart. My life, from kids, to juvenile, to now, also be have a lot of friends. Many friends in passage of time, gradually forgotten. And some, also for unintentional a word, or a move, from each other heart multi-The Invisible Wall, or heart of Thorn, separate ways forever. Years ago, I had a very good female friend, and I is confidante. We don’t mind rub shoulders we can unbridled verbal spasm. In each other eyes, we playing the most really yourself. However once, because of emotional problems, my sentence non-senz yu, but let me lost a can mutual spit mind friends. At that time, she fell into emotional disputes and made many male friends in order to anesthetize herself. She went shopping with different men day and night, but she couldn’t forget her boyfriend who had broken up. Looking at her day and night fall, I kindness comfort, results let she mistook I am talking her promiscuity, humiliate myself. So, she had left a word, ever in my life disappeared. In the market, you have to be more careful about your words and every move. Maybe you will make people think that you are a swordsman and a sword hidden in a smile. If you are not careful, you will be mistaken as a scumbag. Every day richuerzuo, sunset, we all in and different types of people, and tend to work on disputes overshadowed shameless been’favor’as. Even if do nothing, just hard do job, still will make people give wanna take away attendance bonuses reputation. So I had to reticence, just to avoid unnecessary misunderstanding. Also which earned a withdrawn been’favor’as. Someone once so tell me, survive understand adaptation environment, know how to tergiversate, impossible to isolate, let me hear the shudder. What sort of world, let I can’t tell who’s real and, who is leave. Especially, those who say this is a I trusts very much friends. Instant between, suddenly a little skeptical US whether also exist mutual use, insincere relationship. A chill by back rise. For my article English Xinyu, caused a terrible misunderstanding, unexpected. If I did not clarify, each other can be wronged, even if jumped into Yellow River and nothing can clear. Users posting and RE, explain my can feel her heart uncomfortable. In fact, I doubt of erring, never thought her any blame. For me, only one for unnecessary misunderstanding, but more let me comprehend some sense. After that event, I again remind yourself of that with his words and conduct; And. Although I forbear to camouflage themselves, but than innocent cast grievances. Actually, I don’t care how others see me, but if my every move inadvertently hurt anyone’s mind, not my heart hold with those who favor. As a saying goes, mouth, loose lips, I can deep experience this sentence meaning. I unready tongue, often will a kindness, considered] was being nosy, be seen as trampled personality, results I also from this and lose friends. From then on, I told myself, without another word. Helpless but found, original do nothing, can also cause misunderstanding. But I think, most importantly, how to clear the air, even if ultimately cannot tide, at least have followed my conscience and worthy world 2012.05.22 Like (prose editor: Shu Kuang) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…