Repression

Day by day, people are changing day by day. I don’t know what’s going on. Life becomes more and more depressing, maybe it’s tired… Do you still remember that song? The reality of our life is too depressing, and we urgently need a scene to release the pressure. The heavy makeup at night reflects the red wine and green light. I want to forget all the cross-flow material desires, there is a word in my heart that I want to tell you, which makes me confused, but still makes me different. There is stimulation in my body, that is, alcohol is paralyzing, bitter and gray memory, truthcare, noonecare… Yes, our real life is too depressing. In fact, repression means that individuals unconsciously suppress some impulses, thoughts, etc. that are not accepted by themselves into unconsciousness, or exclude painful memories from memory by actively forgetting them, so as to avoid the influence of motivation conflict, tension and anxiety. However, why am I depressed? Let me talk about it: 1. Social pressure: in the wild universe, over the long river of time, I was born in this era, impartial and unhurried, and was born in my 21st century. In the fiercely competitive commodity society, the low tide of work or job tiredness is nothing new. They are like high and low notes on the staff, always lying in the mood of work, waiting for the opportunity to move. For example, your work department is about to be reorganized, and you are overwhelmed by unreasonable workload. The interpersonal relationship in the office is like an arrow in the string, or you can’t get promoted without salary increase, which may make you fall into a gloomy cloud and mist. And I am the victim of the competition. I don’t know what will be waiting for me in the future. Although it is very depressing, I think I will adjust my mentality and gradually integrate into the big dye vat of this society, speed up your pace and keep following the fast pace… 2. Life pressure: People, crying and shouting, run to this world, and the primary problem they face is survival. If we want to survive, we must encounter competition; If there is competition, there must be pressure. Therefore, as long as you choose to live, you are doomed to bear all kinds of pressures brought by survival, such as entering a higher school, employment, promotion and so on, which are numerous and numerous. There are thousands of roads in life. Only by doing what you can, can you not always suffer from the failure to achieve your goals. People live for an ideal life. However, for me, what can I bring if I live in this world? I am deeply reflecting… 3. Mental pressure: The Room of the soul will be covered with dust if not cleaned. The dusty heart will become gray and confused. We have to experience many things every day. Happy and unhappy all settle down in our hearts. As soon as there are more things in my heart, it will become disordered, and then my heart will follow. If some painful emotions and unpleasant memories are filled in the heart, they will make people depressed. Therefore, sweeping the floor and removing dust can brighten the gloomy heart; Only by clarifying things clearly can we say goodbye to troubles; Throwing away some meaningless pains will make happiness have more and bigger space. No matter what happened yesterday, no matter how embarrassed, helpless, and bitter I was yesterday, it was all over. I would not come again, nor could I change it. Let yesterday take away all the sufferings, all the tiredness and all the pains from afar. But today, I have to clear up my mood and start again! 4. Emotional pressure: How long does a relationship last? If you want to forget or feel light, you basically need to double the duration of this relationship. Although no matter how hard I tried to forget you, you broke into my life from time to time. Why? I can’t find the answer. All I can do is to look at you from afar, bless you quietly and change myself slowly… I hope that in my world, you were the happiness I passed! 5……. Too much pressure, I have no time to take care of, now I just think that I have slept a lot, now I wake up, everything is gone, I want to turn pressure into motivation, today is another new day, a new beginning, forget all the unhappiness, and find the goal of life again… Like (prose editor: dancing alone with rain) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Creek drips water

The North Wind stayed on the north bank of the small river. The North Wind was about to cross the river and reached the South Bank. It was blown back by the wind from the South Bank. Xiaohe should be kind to the south wind, and show a little coldness to the north wind. Throughout the winter, the river was covered with a layer of armor-like ice. The North Wind swept the villages and fields like a sword, and sometimes it blew freezing rain and snowflakes, which made the river cold through the heart. After all, the river could not be frozen. It arrived in spring with freezing rain and Canxue in its arms. Xiaohe hated the north wind because a group of egrets pecked the ice with sharp beaks at dusk in winter, and there was no fish pecked. The egrets flew to the sky whining, and their wings struggled to beat the North Wind and disappeared in the twilight. The river didn’t know how far the white birds could fly and whether they could spend the cold night. Xiaohe still cares about that group of egrets. It was always the warm spring glow from the south wind, the river melted with ice, and the fish were like happy songs, rippling the ripples of musical notes on the green water. The south wind to the river is like a bow touching the glittering silver strings. The south wind blew across the river to the north bank, with the breath of the river. The leaves of the big leaf poplar fluctuated like spray. The Moo of the black water sounded like thunder exploding beside the haystack. The gray magpie was frightened, arrows are generally shot into the air from the back of cattle. I know that the South Wind likes to go to the north bank of the river in this way. The wind blows the grass stack, and the black water thinks that whoever fights with it for the forage, then suddenly makes a roar. After a while, the South Wind will go back along the original road to rest in the willow forest on the south bank of the river. In the farmland by the river, the wind and rain blows on my face all the year round. I am destined to live with the river around me in this life. In the womb, It surrounds me like the umbilical cord that makes me breathe. I came to this world and grew up day by day, eating soybeans and rice irrigated by the river. When I understood the meaning of rice and water, people and rivers, I stood by the river, looking at the river flowing from the dark green mountain like cotton thread, it was so quiet, distant and long. My eyes are always so wet. I am a leisurely person, bending his waist to sow rice and grass in the rice field along the river. The farmland is pure. My Yun straw knife scraped weeds at the root of the green grass. The water was very turbid by my moving feet and the Yun straw knife moving back and forth. In the turbid water, the weeds appeared white roots. The river is tolerant, which not only moistens the grass, but also nurtures weeds in the field. Between the grass and weeds, I can only care for the grass and destroy the weeds. Because. It is too hard to cultivate a green seedling into a rice with ears. A golden millet is almost the freehand brushwork of a drop of blood and sweat. I was in the field of sunrise and sunset, holding a sharp straw blade, doing the work of cutting the grass to the root. However, the grass is still as luxuriant as before. The south wind blows the village on the north bank of the river. The village girl’s hair is as smooth as the south wind, the river is as clear as the south wind, and a window with yellow paper paste makes a sound of table tennis in the wind. A pair of kindly and melancholy eyes looked at the river through the window hole. It was my old grandmother who lit a wisp of smoke to call me home. The smoke from the kitchen was very light and blue, just like the flowing river, with a cloud floating over the river. The smoke from the kitchen faded away from the river, and the sunlight emitted dazzling light on the river waves, several waterbirds were chasing and playing among wild rhombus. What I saw was only these. I couldn’t tell whether I was bored or helpless. Sometimes, I gave a roar to the wild grass, and the grass quietly turned green without any response. Only the Morning Glory beside the ridge quietly looked around at me. On a snowy morning, I went up the river with my Scyles and hemp ropes and villagers to cut firewood in dozens of miles of mountains. The way into the mountain is like a small river winding, the peaks turn around, my eyes are pulled by the river, and the sound of feet is twined by the sound of running water. A group of people were walking silently with Scyles hanging on one end of the pole. The cold light of the blade was taken away by running water. Straw shoes stepped on the grass and withered leaves on the gravel and marched towards a certain point far away from the village, the village was far away, and the barking of dogs was far away. The Haystack by the river looked back like a small dome of straw hat. When I bypassed the river bend, everything in the village disappeared, the river took me to a strange place. The River led me into the mountain. The intersection of mountain passes is the branch of several rivers, and a broad river presents majestic momentum in the steep mountains. For me, I have no intention to find the source of a small river when entering the mountain. I watched the first line of water flowing to my village, filled with gratitude for the river. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Rain

I will continue to stay with this city in another way I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Wrote to text

One I am a person who believes in feelings because of words. For literary creators and characters, their feelings are just like people. When I first read the text, the feeling of the text is the reader’s feeling of the author. When I started to write words, I would imagine what my readers would feel after reading my words in the occasional gap. I will fantasies. If my reader is a girl, when her eyes are gently staring at my words, the breeze blows gently, and occasionally there are a few birds standing on the branch, occasionally, a few petals fell on her shoulder. Occasionally, she would laugh intoxicated or cry moved. Under the setting sun, words and her, what kind of scenery should it be. If my reader is a boy, and sweat slips over his face after exercise in the morning, he will find a place quietly, sit down, or lean against the basketball stand on the basketball court, when the first ray of sunshine in the morning shone on the words in his hand, what kind of elegance should the words and him be. Of course, this is just the happiest moment for me and my words. Second, I have fallen in love with words for many years, but for many years, I have not written many words. Every time I write, my heart is deeply touched. I won’t write unreal stories, because I can’t outline the subtle feelings brought by subtle plots to readers. Therefore, my writing never takes fiction as the theme, which is not without desire, but just not good at it. Third, I once appreciated a kind of writing, which was very beautiful. That kind of beauty is the shock of soul caused by shallow words. Sometimes there are countless plots flashing in my mind, but unfortunately, my words will not appear like plots. After passing through my youth, I am no longer intoxicated in the sadness of splashing tears. We live in this world. Reality is cruel and growth is hard. I hope my words are strong, kind, real and full of upward power like a ray of sunshine, though subtle, but it can bring warmth to people who come close to me. Like (prose editor: prose online) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Metamorphosis

Metamorphosis

Yu was born in a peasant family, not a scholar family, nor a noble family. However, I liked reading when I was young! I tasted the four famous works of the Red Tower, Journey to the West, Water Margin and the Three Kingdoms on the 15th and 16th, and I still love the Red Tower. In 2017, I read books such as “Four Books and Five Classics”, “New Sayings of the world”, “Strange Tales of Liaozhai” and so on. My eyes were wide open and I knew people. I should know benevolence, righteousness, loyalty, filial piety and morality, can be established in the world! On the 19th of the year, Yu studied in Lanzhou at the self-examination Association, and stepped into the secular path. At first, I knew that human feelings were warm and cold, and the world was hot and cold. However, Yu Bing had the virtue of loyalty and integrity of his ancestors, and he was well aware of the way of Confucius and Mencius. He claimed that people should treat things with loyalty and filial, this is what a gentleman do! If so, there has been no ambition for dozens of years. Piganlidan, do Gongcheng, elders for children, strong and the weak. Everything must be good, and you will suffer from hard work, but you will never say anything! However, the world is unpredictable and changeable. Looking at the deeds of people in this world, or being naughty, Or the chicken and mouse belly, or the calculation and framing, people speak in front of people, ghosts speak in front of ghosts, Laughing Buddha on the face, hiding sword in the heart, you can send your fingers sincerely! Yu Su was honest and frank, and he couldn’t bear the flying shadows. He was the target of public criticism. Yu Xincheng was also sad! Renxinbugu, moral decay, thinking cone heart! There is no big day. Recalling the past and looking at the present, I am not deformed but unable to stand in the world! Then follow Kang and Liang, hard choices and swing cardiopulmonary, yue hepatobiliary, in order to new! If so, it is for metamorphosis! Qin Yu remembered the autumn night of July 15 in Gengchen Like (prose editor: dancing alone with rain) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Take some time for yourself

I have been busy for half of my life and haven’t finished the work. I won’t finish the work even when I die. Therefore, I should spare some time for myself for my health. This morning, I finished filling out a list and sent it to the office. My eyes were blurred. Early in the morning, I started to fill out the form at work. I had to read the materials and input them. I was busy until more than ten o’clock, it’s time to have a rest. I think I can’t finish my work. Why bother me. I went to the park. On the one hand, I wanted to walk and exercise. On the other hand, I could breathe some fresh air. People who were there could also have a rest of their eyes. After going out, I walked in the park, feeling very good, there are many elderly women and idlers, old people playing cards, women chatting, young people listening to songs and children playing, which really make people envy their leisure and freedom. I think, if I come here for a while every day, it will be better to exercise and relax, and it will not take long, this is a beautiful world, so close to our office, why didn’t I find such a good place? I have been here before, and I am come with others. It is not as good as today because we just indulge in chatting, I didn’t find the beautiful things here. Today, it’s great to find beauty alone. I walked around a small garden for ten circles in a row. After looking at it, it took only twenty or ten minutes. It was still early. I think today is the first day to explore experience. That’s all, I was going back to my office and saw a travel agency in Hanzhong promoting the summer camp travel route. I went to know about it and asked for a leaflet. I went back to the park and sat down to study it carefully. The routes were all good, the price is also cheap, but it is a pity that only for students, we adults have lost the qualification to enjoy. I suddenly feel a little regret that I have missed these conditions when I was young, my child is already older, and there is no such opportunity. What a pity and regret. However, if you know it for reference, you can also have a goal and plan if you have the opportunity to go by yourself in the future. It’s just to spend more money. It’s nothing. Work at noon when online see the good article, entitled “stocks skills 8 strokes” actually fit any application, from which summed up the three successful experience, meaning towards some kind of desire, one is to have long-term goals, the other is to have sustained enthusiasm, and the third is to have the determination to stick to the end. Yes, I think the same is true for fitness. First of all, it is everyone’s wish to keep healthy. Don’t talk about anything without a good body. Second, you should have a passion for active exercise, don’t want to exercise, don’t want to act, want to have a healthy body, is a fantasy. Thirdly, we should have the determination to stick to the practice. Fishing in three days and basking in the net in two days are in vain and fail to reach the expected goal. I think the park is a training ground given to me by God. Why don’t I make good use of it? I can easily finish the plan after taking dozens of minutes a day. Work and exercise are both right and wrong. Thank God very much, this park is really close to our office, which is separated by a road, and the park and office are just across the road. Like (prose editor: Ke Er) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Town atmosphere

There are two streets in the vertical and horizontal direction, which are not regular crossing. The main ones in the middle are markets and commercial streets, which are like a big belly bulging out of thin clothes, and then the limbs are gradually slender and slowly hidden in the endless crops around. It is such a small town. Although the road surface is paved with asphalt, patches of all sizes are stacked layer by layer. Even so, it is still a little bumpy, scattered stones, which makes it more and more embarrassing. Anyway, this place is still the administrative center of exchange and trade within dozens of miles. If you go to the native place and live in the countryside, you must come and go frequently. After a long time, the visual senses gradually become familiar with and accept, unexpectedly, it became a little friendly. From this point of view, people’s adaptability didn’t need to be cultivated. After a long time, the discomfort would be resolved and there was no need to search for any knacks. Let’s call it Town B. In the southwest of China, my hands, my feet and my heart are carefully approaching to accept it. This is a brand new experience, not just a surprise for the new arrival, there is also a look at the local conditions and customs. We may be full of expectations for unknown things, of course, good expectations. But if the curtain is opened, everything is far beyond your imagination. I think, whether good or bad, cheers or frustration are just expressions. Then we still need to adapt slowly, go deep into it and complete another page of life record. Only in this way can we have no defects. When I get up in the morning, if the sun is shining outside the window, a burst of pop songs will drift around on the road in front of my home. One thing that makes me feel interesting here is the motorcycle with sound system, generally, it is 125#, the wind is from far to near, and the music is the same. It roars with the motorcycle. The driver sits with his head held high, with no one in his eyes, and his spirit passes. At first, I was very curious and felt very rustic. It was so flamboyant that I felt relieved after getting used to it. What do you like? Do you still need to comment? Sometimes I also ride a bike, following a song, all the way is charming, but it is not lonely. There was a noodle restaurant at the crossroad. There were several kinds of noodles with different tastes, including steamed stuffed bun porridge, hand-wrapping, small door face and no plaque. The landlady was small and quick. I like the beef noodles cooked by her best. The soup is thick with thick flavor and smooth noodles. When I was passing by, I sat down at the table in the open air and shouted: two or two beef noodles. In a short time, a large bowl of delicious noodles will be served in front of you, with several pieces of beef and small pieces of bamboo shoots, A few green vegetable leaves, red soup, white noodles, eat carefully, you can also have a bowl of noodle soup, clear and refreshing stomach, touch the stomach, really full really enjoy. Sometimes you can see her husband taking out the newly wrapped steamed buns from the inner room, putting them on the stove in front of the door, or packing the bowls and chopsticks on the table diligently, and then hurriedly entering the inside, that was a thin tall man with fine skin and tender meat. It seemed that he didn’t say much, unlike the landlady, he was just a rough voice when he saw people. What to eat? Bowls? Again ha! Laughter can float on the street. I like those old and old ladies who sell vegetables with burdens most. I always go to find them when I buy vegetables. One is planted by myself, and they seldom take medicine, the other is cheap, and the other is old people, it is not easy for me to take care of their business. Just on the roadside, all kinds of fresh vegetables were neatly arranged, many of which were bundles of vegetables without weighing. How much was a bundle of vegetables, and they were paid to take them away by themselves, very convenient. There was an old lady who had bad legs and feet. She always sold only one vegetable, leek, fat and fresh. Often I only needed two bundles, and she gave another bundle diligently, it was originally two yuan a bundle, she smiled and said, take an extra bundle, three bundles and five yuan! Every time she answered her, she smiled as if she was victorious. She looked at you kindly with a pair of eyes. She was very happy, which made my heart warm. There are two drugstores in the town. My father is in poor health, so I often visit their stores. One is a chain drugstore, which mainly sells Western medicine, and there are also some proprietary Chinese medicines that can be swiped by card, one is a Chinese medicine shop of a time-honored brand. I will choose which store to enter according to the prescription. There are two women in the western pharmacy, one is older and the other is a little girl, like a mother and daughter. My mother has obvious experience as a doctor. She knows what medicine you need and then brings it to you, tell you how to take precautions. The little girl looks very beautiful. She was fifteen or sixteen years old. She was either playing with a mobile phone or looking outside with her cheek. The customer knocked on the counter, and she was suddenly shocked and smiled shyly, I walked over lightly. Chinese medicine stores are in another situation, with antique plaques, wooden counters, rows of small drawers of medicine racks, An old man, dressed in white and beard, looked at you spiritually. Is there any prescription? What medicine do you need? You take out the prescription and give it to him. He looked at it carefully and reported it out one by one. This is teacher xxx’s prescription and there is no mistake. Then, open the drawer in the same way, take medicine, weigh it, put it in an iron plate with a gap, finally, put the prepared paper bag at the gap of the iron plate, and lift it with your hands, just poured out from the gap, his fingers flew over, wrapped it up, took the abacus, compared with the prescription, and said something in his mouth. His hands did not stop, scratching, the price came out. The most professional thing is that he will write down at the head of the prescription, how to fry it, how long it will take, how to take it, what to pay attention, What is taboo, very detailed. I like to watch the moment when he was calculating, his fingers were light and he flew up and down without hesitation, which was impossible without years of effort. I’m afraid few young people nowadays can learn it. If you want to know about the situation of one side, a cursory glance must be just an approximate impression. It is another feeling to blend in after living for a while. People who depend on many conditions in the town like local people are closely related to them. Walking around the crowd, listening to their dialects and feeling different cultural customs, you will gradually understand the joints, and at this time, you can live your own life naturally and easily like a local natives. I understand these, and I like them very much. Time flies like a shuttle, experiencing and learning slowly. The small town is already a part of my life. From strangeness to familiarity to pleasure, this process is the basic requirement of life and survival. Walking on the street of the town, some acquaintances will greet you slowly: are you on the street? Have a cup of tea? You can smile freely and respond loudly: Yes! Buy something. Don’t drink anymore. Let’s have a drink later! They laughed at each other and passed. I like this state, no matter whether I leave or not in the future, this kind of memory should be indelible. Lovely town. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…