Tremble for life

Maybe as people grow older, their nostalgia becomes stronger and stronger. They are busy every day and rush to work and get off work. They often feel inexplicable troubles and disappointment, and they always feel empty in their hearts, it seems that something is missing. What on earth is lacking? Think calmly. Compared with the previous days, what is lacking is calm and calm, and what is lacking is no time to enjoy the sunset clouds and morning bells. The fast pace in the city made me become a machine to tighten the spring. When the alarm clock rang in the morning, a carp stood up and washed hastily. Sometimes I even couldn’t take care of the breakfast and ran downstairs, riding a bike or riding a car, rushing to the company, fortunately, I was not late, sometimes I had to be criticized for being late, and the good mood at the beginning of the new day was destroyed; After work at noon and afternoon, he rushed home like this, thinking about the children and housework in his heart; After lunch, it was rare to have a few minutes off. Sometimes I have to work overtime at night, and I don’t even have time to watch TV. So in such high-speed wear, we ignore too many things. We are full of rules and disciplines. We haven’t seen a spectacular scene of the Sun blooming in the morning for a long time. We haven’t enjoyed the brilliance of the sunset glow for a long time, I haven’t seen the brightness of the stars for a long time, and even didn’t notice the changing of the cloudy and sunny day one morning. I didn’t even notice that the flowers on the roadside were green. We ignored many details that cultivated our temperament, ignoring the many gifts given by nature, people become machines running in hollow machines, Those delightful scenery are getting farther and farther away from us. Every day is just a cycle in order. Without the breeze and bright moon belonging to ourselves, it begins in mediocrity and busyness, ends in mediocrity and busyness, and the days are pinched, it turns out to be dull. Can such a incomplete day not bring unprovoked troubles and losses? People’s desire brings about progress or regression. Even if there are gains and losses, when we pursue the so-called better environment and better work and life, I don’t know what I got and what I lost. When working and living in the countryside, there are also various systems and constraints in the unit, but I always feel so calm. When you go to work in the morning, you can walk and watch the scenery all the way while walking. You can pass by wheat fields, streams and forests, see Green or golden wheat fields, and hear the gentle birdsong of gurgling water, sometimes you can take a nap in the woods, and you can enjoy the cool under the big tree at noon in summer, washing your face and feet beautifully in the stream. Even in winter, you can also feel the emptiness and clarity of the world and see the snow-covered wilderness. The evening is more interesting. You can sit on the top of the mountain, watch the sunset slowly go back, watch the sunset glow reflecting on the red sky, and the birds hide into the woods, Let the night breeze stroke, the insects whine. Even if you have to go to the night shift, you can smell the fragrance of the wheat field while walking, and walk beside the woods, which adds infinite fun to your work. The scenery of the Four Seasons is different, and there are different fun and feelings on the way to and from work. In calm and tranquil, enjoy the true meaning of life and create the vitality of work. Sometimes I am confused. People often say that the environment is created by the heart. Maybe what changes is not the environment but my own mood. Even so, there is some truth, but the environment has indeed changed, those natural and beautiful things are gradually moving away, coupled with the distortion of human nature by system, power and so on, the self-ignition of human beings is increasingly suppressed, and servility and helplessness are expanding, I was sweating all over my head in this headless circle of life, and I didn’t know who else would gain mercy and sympathy. Maybe no one would save myself, pity myself, and it was almost impossible to save myself, then take a look at the morning sun, the grass along the road, the clouds in the evening and the stars in the night sky while you are busy! 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A aimless travel

Walking on the way back, I suddenly remembered that my father had left me for two years, and I had not left this place for two years. Calm and plain two years, just like drinking boiled water every day. Suddenly I made a decision to go out for two days anywhere. So I simply cleaned it up and rushed to the railway station. When queuing to buy tickets, I still don’t know where to go. I bought the same ticket as the previous uncle. It’s a bit ridiculous, but I don’t feel confused at all, but it seems calmer. For the first time, I was so aimless that I didn’t know where to go. Although there was a destination on the ticket, that was not what I wanted to go. Let him go. Just get off when you want to get off. When the train left the city, it was not late autumn. I saw leaves falling out of the window, but like a girl wearing a skirt in summer, who was at a loss by the wind, I don’t know where to cover my two hands. The same is my thoughts. However, after all, it will still fall. It is just from the bustling and bustling place on the tree to blend into the infinite loneliness of the Earth. Perhaps there are thousands of unique styles hidden in the mess blown by the wind. People always say that it hurts spring and sorrows autumn. This is more what we imagined, and then we spread this idea. Because people always think that autumn is just like our twilight years and will leave, so what we are sad about is not autumn, but the life that we will leave sooner or later. So we don’t have to sigh bitterly at the withered and yellow leaves or even the declining grass. When they live brightly, they never see you look more. When they are dying, why do you feel so hypocritical? They also don’t need your sympathy. What’s more, you use their solemn and stirring to express your sadness. And I also think that those early leaves were just lonely dancers who were not gorgeous when they were alive, so they committed suicide. Only then did someone know autumn for commemorating a leaf and became famous from then on. And are those poets and scholars who committed suicide so? I think going between the heaven and the Earth, loneliness is like an equation that cannot be solved, which is the most important factor for them or their suicide. I always think: keeping walking is the highest posture of life, while suicide is the most ideal way to end life. At least when someone sitting on the train was watching the leaves Dancing In The Lonely dark world outside the window, I am thought so. The leaf of Zhiqiu may be thinking, what is the meaning of staying in the same place for the whole life, and arguing with many similar people here for the end? Why bother to be sentimental? Why not die earlier. So no longer absorb the nutrition provided by the trunk, and finally go with the wind when the first autumn wind comes. I also always hope that one day I can decide the way and time of death, but it is not the right time. So we can only live, no matter how hard it is, we must live. Sitting in the car, I suddenly miss a senior sister in college, a very cheerful and generous woman. She said to me, God gave everyone a glass of water, no matter what kind of difficulties and confusion people encountered in life, as long as they picked up the cup full of water and drank it, they would put all the unhappiness in their hearts, the sufferings in life are washed clean. I smiled and said, “others give me a drop of water, but I want to return others a glass of water, so my water is always not enough to drink, and I am always thirsty. Maybe it is just like this that I always hope everyone can understand love and gratitude. I am eager for it because I can’t get it. However, it just shows the narrowness and selfishness of my love. Maybe the idea of the kindness of dripping water being reported by Yongquan is wrong, and usury in emotion will make you more suffocated. It is a more appropriate way to throw a peach and repay Li. Just like doing business, even if you are cheated, you will not owe too much, so you will not die of thirst. I think most people who like words are sensitive and suspicious, and I am certainly no exception. Sensitive and suspicious people naturally have endless troubles. Just like when I kneaded the words like rubber clay, it also dislocated the joints I kneaded and made me confused. I am still young, and I have not cultivated to the realm of being born, and I will not see through the world of mortals. Therefore, keeping walking may be the best way to untie the knot that wrongs my heart. I have to go to a wider space, which makes it easier for me to accept the world, including all the bad things. Where there is light, there must be darkness. And I must learn to accept and face it. Until facing ugliness and injustice, I can smile calmly. Maybe I can compete with those self-righteous mature ones, so as not to attract their sarcasm. Only in this way can we live well, not like the leaves of suicide in autumn. The carriage was full of people, lively and bright, but why did I stare at the endless night outside the window? Maybe this is the root of my constant pain. There is never something meaningless in this world. What exists is that you are not interested in it. Hey, where are you going? Turning around, I saw a man across the street asking a girl next to me. No matter what the purpose is, it is better than me who has no purpose. It seems that I should also find someone to ask where I am going and where should I get off? Maybe most of our lives are decided by others… Getting off anywhere is too ideal… And the ideal things are always ethereal… Like (prose editor: dancing alone with rain) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. 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