Eden of prickly heat

On June 1st, before the hot sunshine came and penetrated through the row of lush and dense French phoenix trees at the school gate, I carried my luggage. At such a comfortable moment, I should sleep till I woke up naturally. Simple and convenient replacement clothes; Small bottles of skin care products and shampoo; Perfume sent by friends to cover the usual smell of dirty sweat in the carriage; Sun hat; Books, diaries, Chargers, put all my head into my black backpack. Rui said I was traveling, even going home. Well, I don’t deny that my childhood, which was full of creative posts, could not expel my instability with palpitation when I became more and more sensible later. At 09:30 in the afternoon, the car started and sat down against the window. There were thin silky clouds in the sky, which made people restless when the sun was baked. Looking at the diary about childhood published by my friends and the mood of youth, I can’t recall those beautiful things that I should have, or I admire them or have never existed. I doubted and confused. Dark green leaves, long roads, high clear sky, I tell you, do you believe it? When I was four years old, I knew that people could live with hatred in their hearts, and once I lived, I would live for a little while; When I was seven or eight years old, I knew that parents could favor children without finding reasons, just like love, there is no legendary reason to love you. I only know that he (she) is what you are looking for. When I was ten years old, I knew that I was not only hurt all over my body, but also the pain of my mother in the rest of my life, I hate her repeated nagging about her experience about me. Living in her hand is like a rag, fading and crumpled; I sobbed at the horn of the door when I was thirteen years old, crying to the dark night my life, my despair, my distant and unclear dream. I started to escape when I was fifteen years old. At the age of seventeen, I began to fear. I hated that I couldn’t escape even though I walked far away. I began to miss him at night, thinking about the home that couldn’t give me stability and the old-fashioned wooden bed that I had slept, thinking about that small yard, I miss the small stool I have sat in the sun, the miserable woman. At the age of eighteen, I only told myself, dad, my daughter will be very strong, and I will try to make up for your regret for your children as a man. At the age of twenty, twenty-one and twenty-two, I knew they loved me until they died. I convinced. Twenty-three years old, I want to love a stranger, you say it exists, you come out to worship, you say Love Me Love… Under the Sun, the leaves were silent, and the sky was still very high. My childhood girls were very naughty. I don’t expect anyone to feel the same. I am enough alone. I dredge all the dead corners, what I see, what I can’t see, let’s go through the wind and the sun, my constant pursuit. Duras said that she was old and eager to read the Bible more and more. However, no matter how many times she read, she still couldn’t become a Jew. She regretted that she was not a Jew. The Garden of Eden, human childhood, childhood, my garden of Eden, creeping my fear and temptation prickly heat, it is hard to separate… Eden of prickly heat Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Dream seeks him thousands of Baidu

I will continue to stay with this city in another way I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Should I give up?

I will continue to stay with this city in another way I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Stay calm, and never give up your youth

I found that the bright smile was brighter than the summer sunshine; I found that the kind eyes were more gentle than the water-like autumn waves. In youth, there is a wind without sadness. Text/clear sky of outlying islands (1) sing and sigh lightly when the first ray of sunshine shines into my window, when the first sound of bird singing comes into my ears, when the first ray of autumn wind blows my cheek, I am amazed at the wonderful world. When the dust is removed, my eyes are no longer hazy rainy season, but full of the beauty of the world and the pleasure of watching the scenery. The space I lived in was so broad, but now I really saw its beauty, which shocked my heart. I appreciate the beauty of the scenery because of the favourable feelings in the scenery. Sometimes the audience see not only the scenery, but also a peaceful and state after experiencing vicissitudes. With the book in hand, I feel free. I haven’t been so indifferent for a long time. Now when I review these literary words, I feel like three autumns. Appreciating Nalan’s collection of words “If life is just like the first sight”, which is appreciated by an yi ru, immersed in it and unable to get out of it. Nalan’s grief was complicated. In the era when people admired him and the Stars held the moon, who could know his melancholy and sorrow? He didn’t walk out of his siege, trapped by love, and died of depression. Although it was like a meteor falling on the horizon, it left pieces of sincere lyrics, which were presented in front of people’s eyes. How long can life be in the world? Why don’t you walk freely? In this society full of information, it is inevitable to see the unfairness of the world. But don’t complain about the world. There is no absolute fairness in the world. When we feel that we are so powerless to change the world, we might as well let go, enjoy life and adapt to society. Keep the peace and indifference in your heart and live calmly. (Ii) drunk recalling the heart of childhood is like a piece of white paper, spotless; Like an elf who is not familiar with the world and does not understand the world. Because of this, I missed my childhood. Somehow, I remembered Gorky’s childhood, which was the mark of an era. They didn’t enjoy the innocent childhood that should belong to them, and the age that should have gone crazy, laughed and played together. By contrast, I am so lucky. Before the rebuilt Square, my friends and I played hide-and-seek under the banyan tree, plucked corns in the field, challenged the difficult rubber bands together, and went shopping far away from home. At that time, I didn’t feel lonely. I didn’t know loneliness. There were fairy tales of Snow White and innocent smiling faces. Things are different from people. Seeing children nowadays, there is always a trance feeling. I haven’t grown up yet, and I am still the child who will cry and be naughty. Recalling the past years, although I couldn’t go back, the memory I stayed in was like a locked shackle. Once opened, it drifted away arbitrarily and intertwined with each other, which warmed my body and mind and made my room fragrant. Memories, like a tactful song, make my feelings ups and downs. (3) youth is invincible and I come back to reality. I recognize the current situation step by step. My ideal is very full and the reality is very skinny. There is not so much time for me to sigh and indulge in the past. I can’t forget the eyes of parents with affection and expectation, the declining appearance of teachers, and my powerful oath. Because I can’t forget, I have no choice but to move forward bravely. I responded with a smile to the piles of papers and the helpless individual choices. How can I see the rainbow without experiencing wind and rain? I accidentally saw pictures of former students in the corridor of the school. The students in the picture have confident smiles and run with the wind as much as possible, which makes me emotional and shocked. Bird for goofy first wings, people self-motivated first reading! Every morning that never dances is a failure to life. Young and young, high-spirited. Wearing a sun hat, stepping on a bicycle, shouting out youth without regrets! How can you feel the beauty of life after losing and recovering without suffering pain and pain? Because I have endured and been strong, I cherish the present. Laughing at the bright moon and spring breeze, a cup of bitter tea is happy to meet. Please cherish what you have and don’t give up what you don’t get. The world is so long that you can walk in peace. On the road of youth, we will never say defeat. Postscript: I was very calm when writing this article. Quote a lyric to live for a dream, die for a dream, the sky is vast; How to choose, as long as you are happy, there is no mistake. Come to an end. On the road of youth, we will never say defeat, and stay calm and walk with words. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Notes about

We are young, and there are always countless imagination. Either on a whim or considering carefully, there will always be the longest persistence. I once made my first wish under the boundless and blue sky. What is already blurred, I just remember that day, the sky is very blue, the clouds are very white, and the wind is very light. I have seen the small pool on the beach that cannot melt into the river, and I have imagined the little turtle that cannot climb back to the sea, the ending is nothing more than being shattered and vanished. Thinking in the long dark night and thinking about how to stand proudly in the cold wind like Mei. I can always find a bright moon in the depth of loneliness for myself to enjoy and enjoy it. Then maybe I fell in love with the decadence of the night and indulged in the world opposite to white. Thousands of lights always dazzle the accumulated black and give a little intoxication to this world which is different from white. Maybe I am confused. I always feel that this should belong to me. The Willow tip on the moon, holding a brocade face fan in hand, leaned against the fence to overlook the gorgeous hazy. Absentminded look out of a long journey, past and present. I sighed leisurely, whether it was the bitterness of the man or the helplessness of myself. I couldn’t understand whether I could wear it or not. The Floating Light is broken, after all, it is young and frivolous. Years lingered, after all, it was leisurely and young. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Is a rice dumplings years fragrance

I will continue to stay with this city in another way I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Don’t regret the missed scenery

I went to pick up my daughter, and she said to me, Mom, there are two news to tell you today, one is good news, the other is bad news. I asked, what is the good news? She said that she got more than 90 points in the two Chinese tests. What about the bad news? I asked her again. Mom, if I told you, don’t be angry! Don’t be angry, just tell me. I said to her. Mom, I’m going to regret it. It would be better if you attended today’s parent-teacher meeting. I sent a new schoolbag worth 88 yuan, and some even got 300 yuan! Oh, it turned out to be like this! It doesn’t matter. I am busy comforting my daughter. Of course, this is a good opportunity for you, but we didn’t catch it! This blames others. Things have passed, let it pass, accept the lesson, everything in the world is like this. For you, this event is a missed scenery. Mom hopes you don’t feel sorry, sad and cry for the missed scenery. Besides, the new schoolbag and 300 yuan are all the same! Anyway, they are all your classmates. My daughter nodded and said, “Mom, I understand. It turned out that there was a hand-in-hand activity in my daughter’s school, mainly to help those children who didn’t have local registered permanent residence to go to school here. The teacher chose her daughter, but she felt that my father had broken her feet and had a rest at home. I wanted to take care of him, so she refused, saying that my mother had no time to come, or let Zhao Yang’s mother participate. From this matter, I can see that my daughter is still very sensible, knowing that she loves her parents. My daughter told her husband about it when she came home. Her husband’s attitude was the same as mine. She comforted her and said, since she missed it, let it go, don’t affect your future life. In fact, we in our life will always shed tears and regret for the good scenery we missed. Right! I know a girl who looks pretty and has a good family condition. The boys who pursue her have to line up, but she always thinks that there must be something better than this. So at the age of thirty, I am still alone. Under the urging of her family and friends, she had no choice but to marry a man who had no education background and little ability. Every time she mentioned this, she would regret it very much. Thinking about those excellent and handsome boys who pursued her at the beginning, now all of them have a successful career and a happy marriage, she can only sigh that her life is not good. However, if you know this, why did you have it! Even if the intestines regret green, what’s the use! The same is true in life. When we buy a piece of clothes or things, we always feel that there must be something better behind, but when you walk all the way, it may not be better than what you saw before. You regret that when you want to go back to the original place to buy, you have already been sold by the merchant, and there is no clothes suitable for you to wear or something you can use. We always live in regret for everything we miss. However, in addition to making you more sad and sad, regret is useless. It’s better to cheer up and find the most beautiful scenery that belongs to you among the things you have. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Books · women · Reading

I often compare books to women, but I also often wonder whether this metaphor is appropriate, because everything is relative. Looking at men from the perspective of women, is that man also a book? Don’t worry, let’s talk about books first! When I went to the bookstore last month, I saw a prose classic written by Zhu Ziqing. After only having a glance, I felt a little fondle admiringly. This was the legendary love at first sight. I have read almost all Zhu Ziqing’s proses through various versions, but this collection is from her not gorgeous binding: there are only a few pieces of covers scattered with red leaves and green leaves, it is this elegance that attracts me deeply. The book was bought back. I was not in a hurry to read her. Under the light, let her lie quietly on the desk and slowly appreciate the serenity and serenity. You will find that, it is so harmonious and serene with everything here. Except for a pen, it is so lonely, so cold, so bitter. There is even a slight sadness. For a long time, I was infected by this kind of mood. I couldn’t bear to try it on and gently rubbed the smooth cover. That kind of smooth feeling was like touching the tender skin, which would strongly fill your palm, your hearts. When I opened the book, the title page was not blank. There was a faint portrait of Zhu Ziqing, which was not clear but clearly revealed his thin and angular face. I didn’t know it was the master’s masterpiece, so that readers can understand his ill-fated life and his meaningful and exquisite beautiful articles at a glance. The book is colored pages, sometimes with white characters on black background, sometimes with black characters on light green bamboo background, sometimes with red clouds all over the sky, sometimes with water towns in the south of the Yangtze River, sometimes with moonlight in the lotus pond, and sometimes with European-style classics. Throughout the page design of the book, it is like a woman’s life experience, which is colorful and beautiful. Jia Baoyu in A Dream of Red Mansions said: her daughter is made of water. I just thought, what kind of water is that? If it is the rain of spring and autumn, it should be gentle and romantic; If it is the water of mountain spring, it should be pure and sweet; If it is the water of small streams, it should be graceful and joyful; the water in the lotus pond should be quiet and graceful; The water in the lake should be quiet and noble; The water in the canyon should be roaring and domineering; it is the water of the ocean, which should be bitter and deep, or it may all come down from the sky and step by step to the sea. During the whole life, the process has already been less important. Books can be colorful, and life should be more colorful, let alone women. Reading, a good book, I have a bad habit, seldom read in order. (In addition to the novel, I still hope to know the fate of the protagonist at last), always start from the topic that attracts me first, until there is no choice. Usually, I will read an article several times to find the author’s thoughts, beauty and enjoyment from the lines, even if it is painful. A good article is not perfect for every word, every sentence and every paragraph. Sometimes, there may be only one Jin Dian in the whole article, but this is enough to make the whole article alive; sometimes, there are even failures, but this will not hide the flaws. There is no absolute perfection. Sometimes incomplete beauty is the difficult scenery. A book, no matter it is a good book or some flaws, and no matter how you read it, it takes days, weeks, or even years to finish it. It can be understood, but a person, A woman wants you to understand her and cherish her all your life. Evening of 2012/4/15 Like (prose editor: Dielianhua) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…