Rain thoughts

Leaning against the window, looking at the rain, I did not move. It has been a long time since the beginning of spring, but the sunshine has not shown any trace, and has not stepped forward, ignoring our expectation. Quietly listening to the sound of raindrops falling, ticking up the music, watching the string of raindrops blowing in the spring breeze, continuous and countless. The fine rain fell into the water stain lightly, rippling again and again, spreading to the weekend. On a relaxing day, you can sleep beautifully until you wake up naturally, you can do what you like to do at will, you can sit in the sofa and knock melon seeds, watch TV plays, enjoy the happiness of traveling with your family, accept the invitation from friends, and feel relaxed, spend this wonderful day happily. But the lingering rain disturbed my mood, and the inexplicable melancholy and annoyance also floated with it. Since taking office as the manager, the invisible pressure was like a high mountain pressing on my heart, even breathing reveals the rapid smell. This kind of life was not what I longed for. I was a simple and clear woman, ignoring the complexity of society and cheating in the workplace. I simply live a life of my little woman, work hard, listen to songs and write words in my spare time. I went to work on time, safe, calm, ordinary and ordinary, keeping my quiet heart and relaxed thoughts! Standing in an ordinary position, I have a broad ideal, no decadence, no fear, and bravely step forward to the high-level field. Finally, I realized it. Behind the tears of joy, there were endless scars hidden. This kind of life was just beginning, but I was tired and weak, and I lost myself again, I have to find my tenacity again! In the morning, I hid in the bed and listened to the ticking rain outside the window. I was touched by an inexplicable thought in my heart, and what flashed in my mind was just a bit of work. Finally, I failed to resist this concern and got out of the warm embrace of Jia. Facing the mirror, I combed my hair very carefully. The little woman in the mirror showed a sense of pride, stretching her frown and relaxing her depressed mood, I am no longer that naive and ignorant simple woman. I have been in business, and I should think and face problems with maturity. I fell in love with black dress and went to mature dress. In just a few days, my changes were astonishing, which made me confused for a time. It seemed that I suddenly stepped into the adult world from the mentality and life of a 16-year-old girl. Standing at this cross port, I was a little crumbling and missing. People around said that Juanzi was mature and beautiful. The simplicity of that little woman had faded calmly when she was dealing with her affairs, showing the demeanour of a female general when she raised her hands and gestures. For these changes and comments, I should really be ecstatic and toast to celebrate my growth. Entering the quiet office and turning on the computer, emails and short messages rushed to me. Clicking to check made my eyes gradually blurred. I didn’t have the habit of drinking coffee, but let me be in a pile of files, I used to pick up the coffee cup. The strong smell filled the space instantly. The crisp sound of knocking the keyboard and the heavy rain outside the window made a moving movement for my busy weekend. Looking at the crowd coming and going, the wet ground, inexplicable thoughts came into being. I really wanted to find myself, return to the innocent past, and put down the hard-won honor, I really want to slow down the pace of chasing, and I really want to live a simple life, such a life. However, isn’t life struggling and striving hard? The steps taken are just like the flowing river, which can only be rushed forward bravely. No matter how bumpy the road ahead is, if you choose, you have to continue! The rain is getting heavier and heavier. The sky after being baptized by the heavy rain will be brighter and clearer, and the ground washed by the rain will be completely new. The thoughts disturbed by the lingering rain will surely find the way to stretch. Facing the continuous rain, I made a promise in my heart that the world was not in my control, but the fate was in my control! Like (prose editor: Ke Er) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Buddha

Buddha in the distance! Are you blinded by the dust, the people in the field, the heart blinded by the eyes has been spent, why do you want innocent lives to send precious hearts! So I look forward to the pure sky, holy Buddha, devout heart and pure sky! Pure Heart! Buddha! Buddha! Whether you lost your eyes, lost your eyes, went in the wrong direction, found the wrong way, kind people, and your heart was blinded by your eyes! So I look forward to the middle, buffer, buffer, continue, buffer, pray for the devout Buddha, the devout heart, wake up soon! I hope it is the True Buddha and the universal heart! Like (prose editor: dancing alone with rain) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Remember, think carefully

Light years have been lost, and time has been wasted. I have been wandering through countless prosperity, Temple streetscape and high platform. My heart was quiet all the time and I never stayed for anyone. Looking at those wildly noisy days getting farther and farther, there was little wind left in my youth. I thought it was like this, one day in the vast sea of people, when I look back and meet you who can accompany me, how long is your life, the road of life, so hesitating and wandering, how many flashy turns in these years have passed away, after the heavy rain, spring mud protects flowers. After the fallen leaves, someone said, if you wander, I will accompany you. We make a wish. Although I can’t grow old with my son for five or ten years, I am willing to hold my hand and keep it with my son. Like (prose editor: Shu Kuang) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Lost

It seems to be a little rotten, and it seems to begin to decay, what a vicissitudes of life. Counting the fleeting years at your fingertips, a reincarnation has been unknowingly for more than twenty years. Ask yourself what you have done or gained these years. This is a mystery that people can never find themselves. Such a long life, gradually sliding from March to June, can’t help sighing the rush of time. In addition to being uneasy or uneasy in the bottom of your heart, sometimes you will laugh at yourself. What on earth are you entangled with, what are you uneasy about, and you are wandering in your heart. It is like a blooming tea, with a shallow edge in the heart, longing for the opening of the heart. Touch your heart on your hand, and keep your eyes fixed to wait and see, as if you have passed away. Pick up a summer flower, convert to the world of mortals, and see flowers in the fog like dreams. Dial the happy shell, only empty dust. Remove those lonely scenes, forget those meaningful thoughts and sorrows, greet the unchangeable emptiness, and be willing to sink into its cape. It sounds so helpless that you can’t change all of these. It’s unsightly, but you hide in a quiet place and cry with words. The boundless silk rain is as thin as sorrow, which is linked in a thread, melancholy and moaning without illness. Nature is full of vigor and vitality. The rain in June was like dew, falling on my face, slowly immersed in my skin, light and bright. Sometimes there are ripples, just like feelings in my heart. In this way, involving yourself into the sorrow of the world, even if it is a road of no return. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Notes on illness: life and survival

Notes of illness: life and survival every year I would lie on the bed for several hours, so that the doctors and nurses in the hospital became familiar and kind to me. They used the fastest and most skilled movements, which made me lie peacefully on the bed covered with blue and white checks. I felt the cold infusion slowly flowing into my blood from the rubber tube in a daze, I don’t know how long it took to flow into my life. A doctor came to my bed and asked: Are you better? I opened my eyes slowly and said with a smile: much better. Thank you. If not, I will change the dressing for you. But then you will always have to go to the toilet. He said slowly. I am so familiar with this voice and tone. Don’t. So well. I knew that he was always thinking of me and would never take medicine easily. He would never use higher-level medicine to treat me whatever ordinary medicine could do. He said: The virus also keeps upgrading with the level of drugs. The simpler the better stayed for a while. He walked slowly. I was the only one left in the ward. At this moment, I couldn’t tell whether I was lonely or numb, I feel like a body without soul. Several flow charts are posted on the wall opposite the bed, from vague to clear: flow chart of recovery first aid, flow chart of shock first aid, flow chart of heart, brain and lung first aid, circulation System first aid flow chart, respiratory system first aid flow chart and so on, maybe these first aid flow charts awakened my mind, I began to hear my heartbeat, and the sound of breath and breath at this moment, my mind started a soothing journey, touching every annual ring of life. Many ups and downs of the prosperous world, like a long scroll, unfold from far to near. Plain-looking and pure-looking, without any whitewash, clearly outline the original appearance of each event, and only in this way can thoughts truly understand the essence of life. I don’t know, why can I always peep at things deep in my soul in the hospital bed? Completely peel yourself off? And at the moment of pain, you will understand what you stick to in your heart? I even don’t understand why I always learn to give up something that I once couldn’t give up in the hospital bed? Why do you always know how to cherish something you didn’t care about when your life was ups and downs? Maybe the sickbed gives me a space for thinking, or maybe the steps of life have been tired, but let me temporarily stop in a certain Harbor and see clearly the direction of moving forward? Yes, only in bed can we think about life, because we spend almost all our time thinking about survival. Survival makes us too busy to take care of the feelings of life, so that many people sigh when the building of life collapsed at all costs for survival, life is so fragile and hurried I have a female classmate who has no skills after being laid off and can only be a cook in a certain market. She had stomachache and didn’t want to ask for leave. She insisted on taking medicine. Two months later, she couldn’t bear the stomachache and went to the hospital for examination. The result was advanced gastric cancer. Just for the salary of 800 yuan and for her son to have a house, she ignored the alarm of life. When we went to visit her, she, lying on the hospital bed, smiled and said to us: this time I got well, I won’t go to work. From now on, if you have any discomfort, go to the hospital quickly to avoid serious illness. She had no idea that her life was coming to an end. A few months later, her life finally came to an end. I remembered one thing my daughter told me: A person died suddenly near their school, probably because of too much work pressure. In fact, this phenomenon of early death is no longer news. The fast-paced and high-load competition makes people who are tired of work work work hard, just like a perpetual motion machine, even if their bodies are abnormal, she was also sick because she was afraid of deducting money and losing her position and insisted on working. Fortunately, her daughter met the teacher in the most critical period of her life. When her daughter was eager to finish the work at all costs in the shortest time, this teacher gave the most sincere advice: about time, two months or three months, it is originally an estimate. Personally, I think it will take 3 months. Of course, if you can finish it in advance, you can also go back to Shenzhen in advance. But I hope you don’t set a short deadline for yourself, so that you will be tired and the learning effect will be reduced. Work is a life-long thing. You should keep flowing. You can’t do it immediately and hurt yourself. The saddest thing for a man is that he is dead, and the money has not been spent yet. This is the game between life and survival! Fortunately, at the same time, I planted a sense of gratitude in my heart, life and survival, which are two completely different things in essence, but also two completely interdependent things. Life is very simple: one breath and one breath is life. However, it is very difficult to survive: competition, struggle, pain and all of them lack their mind and energy, which support the prosperity of the building of life. In other words, the way of survival determines the color of life! Is it the magnificence of the mountain? Or the flexibility of water? Or the lush pine? Flowers and charming? Grass of simple? Thinking over and over, I am just a grass, a grass growing quietly in the desert. Since it is grass, it is like grass to survive. I think, after the dust is washed away, what remains must be simple and quiet simplicity 2012-5-16 Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Life Story “two”

Today’s life is really realistic, which makes people helpless and speechless. Opening your mouth and closing your mouth is money, money and money. Regardless of what you are doing, the first problem is the white silver. However, life is also like this. You see, why are corrupt officials greedy? Robbery why robbery? Prostitution why prostitution? Why is it so revealing to wear in public? You said it was for hype! Then why is it hyped? After all, it is not for brother Kong. Speaking of this money, it is really a good thing. It is difficult for you to leave it. If nothing else, which one can leave only in daily life; Which one does not need brother Kong to take the lead? Let’s talk about the reality and romance in life. There is nothing wrong with reality. Is romance wrong? Especially love lacks romantic passion, which is the dry reality; Is this kind of life still interesting? Rigid following the rules three meals a day, work, eat and sleep again and again; Don’t think about anything in the rest. Dude, I asked weakly: Don’t you watch TV series? That’s all written by lunatics who are a little romantic and neurotic. Do you know that if they follow the rules as you do? Even if you torture him seventy-two times, he can’t write a word. How? You don’t believe? I think it should be like this. Because I am such a humble graffiti person, not to mention the great scriptwriter and director! The rich have the romance of the rich, while the poor have the romance of the poor. The romance of the rich is to offer 99,99 roses to the person he loves and take her to Hawaii for vacation. The romance of the poor is to present a red rose for the person they love and take her to the suburb to watch the sunset ending. In fact, it doesn’t matter whether you are poor or rich. What matters is whether your love for her is sincere and infatuated? If love is measured by money, what a bleak ending will it be? On the other hand, can’t love without bread last long? There is no food in the belly and frequent singing of empty city plans. Where is the beauty and warmth of love? Hey! How many people sigh: life and love are really a mess, and the entanglement and contradiction are suffocating! Love bread bread love, which is more important? Life should have been colorful, but why should I bear a heavy burden for myself? If a person has no heart to pursue utility, and no intriguing calculation and harm; How unrequited and undesired it will be! Who can achieve this state? Is you? Is I? Or him? All the people were there shouting loudly, calm and calm. However, all the people subconsciously wanted to be promoted to a higher position and gain both fame and wealth; They all wanted to live a happy life for a long time. Things go against one’s wishes. The supreme authority of time dominates all people’s lives; If you have money, you will die as well as if you have no money, and if you have no name, you will die as well! In that case, why not unload the heavy cross and live happily? Learning to love yourself is also an attitude in life! Some immature words are just words as you wish. Everyone has his own view of life, and everyone is experiencing a different fate from others. Because of this, no one has the right to judge who; No one has the right to blame who? No one is qualified to tell others what to do? Follow your own feelings, follow your own heart, happy or not? Pain or not? Only you know it. Why point fingers at others? Like (prose editor: prose online) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Single thinking

I have always been used to thinking alone, and I like running around the football field one after another until I get tired! I met many troubles during the day. Even though the sky was drizzling, I still ran to the playground alone. In college, I don’t even know what I am doing or what I can do in college. More and more people think that there is no need for universities to exist. Even if they are not in universities, they can still learn what they want to learn. Now in universities, things we don’t want to learn are forced to learn. Some people say that universities are to transform us into socialization. Perhaps a bit. In college, some people and things I met sometimes had to make me feel that it was just like a small society except buying milk powder and paying back the mortgage. I asked my classmate to do something for me the other day, but he didn’t tell me until today that I forgot it, sorry! Khan, I’m sorry, just a word of sorry, then what should I do if I haven’t finished my work? I didn’t know who promised at the beginning, rest assured, promise to help you do well! I was tricked again and again, which made me more and more afraid of these so-called friends. Back then, in high school, there were several brothers who took the blame for you and made troubles for you. In the fifth lap, the legs were just mechanically picked up and put down, and ran forward when picking up and putting down. Now in college, everyone is used to getting up and going back to the dormitory to turn on the computer to play games. They all know that they live a decadent life, but they are still numb. I think, before going to college, everyone must have told themselves how to study hard in college. At least, I thought that I once said that I needed to learn another foreign language besides English in my freshman year, but now my freshman year is almost over, and I even didn’t learn English well, let alone another foreign language. When I was very young, my father told me that you should study hard and take an examination of a good university in the future so that you can have a better life in the future. I remember I nodded seriously at that time. However, I let my father down after a college entrance examination, even though my father said that it would be better if I tried my best. However, I know my father is still very sad, as if it was him who failed in the college entrance examination. When filling in the volunteer, he said that he would apply for two books, study hard in the university, and then he would take the postgraduate entrance examination in the future. In the eighth lap, I finally lost my strength and fell on the rubber track. It was still raining at this time, with sweat mixed with rain and some tears on my face. I don’t know why. Every time I think of my current situation, my parents feel like crying. I hate myself more and more. I took out the phone and dialled my mother’s phone number. I didn’t call home for a while. My parents must have missed me again. On the phone, my mother always asks me whether some money is enough or not. Don’t suffer from your life and study hard. And I always report good news instead of worry. I don’t want my family to worry about me. Just like in the days when I was seriously ill, I never told my parents. I knew it was useless to say it, it only worries them, I don’t want. When I was very young, I left my parents and went to boarding school. I learned to bear some pains by myself. After all, I always have to learn to face some things by myself and deal with some things by myself. People will gradually become mature. It was already ten o’clock when I finished the call. I went back to the dormitory and talked with my roommate happily for a while (gradually I learned to pretend to be happy when I was unhappy, because no one would pity you, and I didn’t need it either.), Then I took a bath and went to bed. Have a good dream and tomorrow will be another day! Like (prose editor: Ke Er) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…