Notes on illness: life and survival

Notes of illness: life and survival every year I would lie on the bed for several hours, so that the doctors and nurses in the hospital became familiar and kind to me. They used the fastest and most skilled movements, which made me lie peacefully on the bed covered with blue and white checks. I felt the cold infusion slowly flowing into my blood from the rubber tube in a daze, I don’t know how long it took to flow into my life. A doctor came to my bed and asked: Are you better? I opened my eyes slowly and said with a smile: much better. Thank you. If not, I will change the dressing for you. But then you will always have to go to the toilet. He said slowly. I am so familiar with this voice and tone. Don’t. So well. I knew that he was always thinking of me and would never take medicine easily. He would never use higher-level medicine to treat me whatever ordinary medicine could do. He said: The virus also keeps upgrading with the level of drugs. The simpler the better stayed for a while. He walked slowly. I was the only one left in the ward. At this moment, I couldn’t tell whether I was lonely or numb, I feel like a body without soul. Several flow charts are posted on the wall opposite the bed, from vague to clear: flow chart of recovery first aid, flow chart of shock first aid, flow chart of heart, brain and lung first aid, circulation System first aid flow chart, respiratory system first aid flow chart and so on, maybe these first aid flow charts awakened my mind, I began to hear my heartbeat, and the sound of breath and breath at this moment, my mind started a soothing journey, touching every annual ring of life. Many ups and downs of the prosperous world, like a long scroll, unfold from far to near. Plain-looking and pure-looking, without any whitewash, clearly outline the original appearance of each event, and only in this way can thoughts truly understand the essence of life. I don’t know, why can I always peep at things deep in my soul in the hospital bed? Completely peel yourself off? And at the moment of pain, you will understand what you stick to in your heart? I even don’t understand why I always learn to give up something that I once couldn’t give up in the hospital bed? Why do you always know how to cherish something you didn’t care about when your life was ups and downs? Maybe the sickbed gives me a space for thinking, or maybe the steps of life have been tired, but let me temporarily stop in a certain Harbor and see clearly the direction of moving forward? Yes, only in bed can we think about life, because we spend almost all our time thinking about survival. Survival makes us too busy to take care of the feelings of life, so that many people sigh when the building of life collapsed at all costs for survival, life is so fragile and hurried I have a female classmate who has no skills after being laid off and can only be a cook in a certain market. She had stomachache and didn’t want to ask for leave. She insisted on taking medicine. Two months later, she couldn’t bear the stomachache and went to the hospital for examination. The result was advanced gastric cancer. Just for the salary of 800 yuan and for her son to have a house, she ignored the alarm of life. When we went to visit her, she, lying on the hospital bed, smiled and said to us: this time I got well, I won’t go to work. From now on, if you have any discomfort, go to the hospital quickly to avoid serious illness. She had no idea that her life was coming to an end. A few months later, her life finally came to an end. I remembered one thing my daughter told me: A person died suddenly near their school, probably because of too much work pressure. In fact, this phenomenon of early death is no longer news. The fast-paced and high-load competition makes people who are tired of work work work hard, just like a perpetual motion machine, even if their bodies are abnormal, she was also sick because she was afraid of deducting money and losing her position and insisted on working. Fortunately, her daughter met the teacher in the most critical period of her life. When her daughter was eager to finish the work at all costs in the shortest time, this teacher gave the most sincere advice: about time, two months or three months, it is originally an estimate. Personally, I think it will take 3 months. Of course, if you can finish it in advance, you can also go back to Shenzhen in advance. But I hope you don’t set a short deadline for yourself, so that you will be tired and the learning effect will be reduced. Work is a life-long thing. You should keep flowing. You can’t do it immediately and hurt yourself. The saddest thing for a man is that he is dead, and the money has not been spent yet. This is the game between life and survival! Fortunately, at the same time, I planted a sense of gratitude in my heart, life and survival, which are two completely different things in essence, but also two completely interdependent things. Life is very simple: one breath and one breath is life. However, it is very difficult to survive: competition, struggle, pain and all of them lack their mind and energy, which support the prosperity of the building of life. In other words, the way of survival determines the color of life! Is it the magnificence of the mountain? Or the flexibility of water? Or the lush pine? Flowers and charming? Grass of simple? Thinking over and over, I am just a grass, a grass growing quietly in the desert. Since it is grass, it is like grass to survive. 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