Affection and memories

The screen of the mobile phone lights up again, the three-digit family number flashes in the center of the screen, and the mother on the other end of the phone is concerned and attentive. Family affection is the same as this number, simple, remember it by heart. Since I came home, my mother had been persuading me to change my mobile phone number. She said, “Call your provincial number to ask for money, and you can also ask for money if you allocate it to others. You can use the local number to enter the family network, and it is convenient for me to call you. I thought about using two numbers, and there was a broken mobile phone at home, but because I didn’t have money to raise two numbers, I gave up. I don’t know this, and that number is already overdue, but it is still within the credit limit. Every time my mother said it, I just perfunctory and tried every means to avoid this topic. Mother shook her head and walked away, with a little disappointment in her eyes, and soon recovered to nature. At that moment, my heart was pricked by a needle, and the pain aroused my guilt of ignoring family affection, but I still couldn’t resist that persistence. However, I was also confused, how long will I stick to it. Later, my mother compromised and asked me to keep the old number and open a new one. I didn’t want to increase my monthly expenses, so I said that I would change my number next month. My mother’s eyes were full of expectation. Her old face and eyes were bright, as if the number of the new card was floating in the air, which would be found after a piece of work. Perhaps, only maternal love can compromise with women again and again. I picked up the phone and flipped it aimlessly. That old card was the only visible and tangible souvenir left to me by that place. I opened the card holder and arranged the neat and intimate titles. I don’t know if I was just written down that boring full name in someone else’s mobile phone? Or do some people even remember my full name wrongly? These days, mass text messages came in every day to advertise my new number, and then I saved it truthfully. I really hope that I am the last one to change my number. Maybe I was waiting. I wanted to know if anyone would suddenly think of me after a long time of news. However, things often go against my wishes. I have already been used to this kind of slight sense of loss. Perhaps, it was because my four years had been too poor for fame and wealth that I had been completely ignored. I thought that if I didn’t fight or win, and didn’t have any conflicts of interest with anyone, I would have a good friend. I don’t have many friends, but in fact, I really hope that many people can go out with me. I always don’t care about awards, money and love. Maybe what I call indifference to fame and wealth is just what others care about, and I just don’t care about it. However, the fact proved my naivety again. If you don’t fight for it, you will become a passive living by accident. If your parents are far away from home, there is no way to worry about it. It seems like what is sung in “childhood”: it is always until the exam that I know that I have not read the book I should read. Although it was lucky to cram for several times, it was certainly not good-looking in the ranking. I accidentally heard that the top six classmates mentioned me, saying that I was like a child and stupid. A child’s heart is the easiest to get hurt, but it is also the fastest to heal. Adults like a child are also easy to get hurt, but the difference is that the wound is difficult to heal. In all, it is also a happy thing to be completely like a child. If you are afraid, you are afraid of being incomplete, because it is more painful than being completely different. No wonder it is always written in martial arts novels that it is more dangerous to solve half of the poison than to understand. Stupid, indeed stupid, I ignored that there is also a kind of interpersonal relationship based on interests. Every time I make comments at the beginning of school, a group of people squeeze their heads and pull relationships everywhere. Is it because I see fame and wealth too thoroughly? I actually thought that was ridiculous. It was just passing by. It was good to get it, but that was all right. It feels like they are holding a gold digging competition in the desert with the symbol of dollar in their eyes. Those who have won the ranking have both money and trophies. Perhaps, in other people’s eyes, the funny person is me. In the past four years, a certificate of merit has been counted down every year. I am not ashamed of the end. However, it would be a pity if people ignore me because of my shame. Perhaps, many years later, everyone will think of me who once got nothing. When you are tired, you may think it is good for me to live like this. Until today, I finally made up my mind to buy a new card, and then sent mass messages like everyone else, and received much more responses than I imagined. I felt relieved and thought about it. Memory in my heart is memory. What can a dead object represent. At the same time, I also saw the joy on my mother’s face, as if my dream had come true. It turns out that what adults want is very simple. As long as they can see and contact their children at any time, they will be happy. Memories are always there. There is no need to stick to them and ignore the closest people around you. Calm down, recall the warmth, and pass the warmth to everyone around you who loves you. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. 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Perception mahjong

On weekends, I was too lazy to get up on the bed. I wanted to make a race between sleep and time. The lazy sunshine penetrated the curtain and poured down on the silk quilt, and the cells hiding on the lazy body began to be active, forcing me to sleep, I had to withdraw troops hastily in reluctance. Dragging his shoes, he finished several necessary classes, opened the computer lazily and hung up QQ. Soon, greetings from netizens came from the conversation box! One of the netizens asked: the weather is good today, why not go out to play? I seldom go out! I think you are the same, and you often surf the Internet! Now computer and internet are my best friends, almost becoming most or all of my life! It is said that it is virtual on the Internet, but in my opinion, it is more innocent in virtual! Yes, it is both true and false, and both true and false. I also think that the Internet gives people the feeling of freedom! Why don’t you want to go out and rub it? I really don’t like this kind of game! Oh! After finishing a dialogue, my mind was like a broken kite. Don’t I like mahjong? I am don’t I really like mahjong? Insincerely speaking, why don’t I like mahjong! I can’t leave anything exciting, such as cigarettes, wine, tea, pepper and so on, so I naturally like mahjong very much, why don’t you really like it now! Is it out of fear of wasting time? I don’t dislike mahjong because it consumes time and youth. For me, an ordinary and robust person, I have plenty of time and youth. I used to stay up all night in order to drill a table, it is far from reaching the height and state that people imagine to rise to the issue of time. I don’t like mahjong for other reasons. I don’t know when to start, if you rub the linen together, you will always add some colorful heads. However, I can’t beat my boss, neither my subordinates, classmates, friends, nor my relatives and family members, and I’m sure that strangers will not play together. In this way, the only thing left is losing. Naturally, I don’t like losing the most. Of course, in theory, there is still a situation that neither wins nor loses, but any good thing is unexpected. Sometimes I would play mahjong with my friends, which turned out to be uncomfortable for I am to win or lose. Only if you don’t win or lose can you feel at ease. Therefore, I finally found that the reason why I didn’t like mahjong was that I didn’t like the winning and losing with colorful heads derived from it. Imagine that if you win, there will be someone who will lose. If you compare your heart with your heart, the heart will be the same. The loser will definitely not feel comfortable. When I see others feel uncomfortable, I will feel uncomfortable indirectly; if you lose, it is not an indirect problem, but a direct sadness. This is probably the so-called “advance, retreat, and worry. Getting together was originally a good thing, but it often made people unhappy. Therefore, I had to start to feel sad for no reason, sometimes even for several days. I will sigh that I am always too soft-hearted, too soft-hearted, and feel that I can’t afford to hurt, really can’t afford to hurt. From then on, I started to dislike mahjong against my will. Just in this way, the circle of friends becomes narrower and narrower, and the radius of walking becomes smaller and smaller. Sometimes I even feel that there is only one computer left. Fortunately, I can be regarded as a person who can endure loneliness. I can often stay out of the house for two days during my double break. Because I still have some netizens to communicate with and some words are willing to accompany me. Of course, when you are tired on the Internet, you will inevitably feel a little lonely and sit beside the computer in a daze. So I began to feel nostalgic again, and I also wondered why people nowadays couldn’t play chess, play cards and play that kind of happy game together as before, but we have to engage in such activities that people are happy and worried! Why does everything have to be hooked with money, even leisure and entertainment have to fight against each other? Can’t there be anything else between people except interests! Why the truth, goodness and beauty we firmly stick to appear so powerless and helpless in front of the impact of the naked values of Western capitalism! Especially when seeing the traditional and beautiful things, they were subverted by a group of monks with crooked mouths who had read the foreign scriptures for several days, and put on the label of what is just like the reform with a thick face, then they rushed into the rampage, when I tossed the great rivers and mountains of my motherland into a mess, but the interest groups turned a blind eye to it, I had to pack up a broken heart and look around at it blankly. Next, I will start to feel suffocated and hate myself. I hate why I have a sensitive heart, so that I can’t stand many things at present! And I am often confused by this noisy world, sighing that I don’t know whether this noisy world has eliminated myself or I don’t adapt to this world originally, I often have to be angry for my failure to join the society and bored for my failure to join the society. I don’t know that people’s emotions are like magnets. What kind of magnetic field is attracted and what kind of magnetic object is naturally. When you are happy, you are full of kindness to the whole world, and all the beauty will naturally come with you; However, when I am pessimistic and decadent, I feel that nothing is wrong, and all negative things will be reported one after another. Therefore, in this noisy era, too many people who are bound by material desires can gain peace and tranquility only by controlling their emotions well and learning to be calm and calm. However, it is hard for me to calm down, and I often feel distressed because I can’t control my emotions well! In fact, people in this world should have been like this, but their own requirements are too beautiful. I don’t know. Once a person labels himself as aestheticism, idealism and perfectionism, from then on, what accompanies you is either loneliness or silence. In the face of flowers bloom and fade, in the face of prosperity and ending, in the face of peaks and valleys, they are either decadent and helpless, self-pity and self-admiration, or quiet and detached, happy and free. Of course, there will also be a process of transformation. Once loneliness breaks the pupa, it can turn feathers into silence. But I can’t find the way to change all the time. I often feel suffocated because the continuous threads are binding me more and more tightly! Maybe all of this is what people say is due to the nature or character, but I really have no way, just like the kind of pure and friendly between people in that old age will never forget! It is said that people who like to keep some trifles and pursue the back are destined to live a lonely, self-centered and pure life. Although I don’t know when the complexity started between people, I still stubbornly licked the silence. I always try to have so many friends without too much. They have a feeling of knowing each other, a feeling of cherishing each other, a sincere and pure friendship, which has nothing to do with utility, wind and moon, and vulgar. Although this is a little naive, light and ridiculous, sometimes people are so strange that they often insist on drilling in those hutongs that have obvious hints and have no exit, I have to figure out a clue. The delusion in my heart is that I don’t believe that I will hit you with such a dilapidated South Wall! Maybe this is the so-called one-track track in the legend! Just like today, I must have been wandering in an alley where I couldn’t find an exit again. I knew that terrible word called loneliness had already haunted me. But I am still naive, light, ridiculous, and looking forward to peace and tranquility. 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