Amber

The one who often walked in the corridor was a water deliveryman in his thirties. His back bent for a long time, and his temper naturally became soft. He met a picky hostess, maybe he had to squint and complain that he stepped on the dirty floor. Besides explaining vaguely in an incomprehensible dialect, he could only turn back and forth, the little daughter who came to the door respectfully was still waiting for him at the door, so the girl couldn’t imagine the scene in the room. Through a door, he finally held his dignity as a father. What is waiting for them is the next stairs and the next door. This kind of story is still being continued, but don’t give away the overwhelming sympathy casually, because we are used to misinterpreting others’ happiness as humbleness or even pain wishfully, unconsciously, I ignored the expression of love wrapped in a rough coat like sand. The girl is very happy, isn’t she? There will always be a tall guardian in such a big world. Even if he has to bend down to make a living, his father still protects his daughter’s self-esteem with his self-esteem, which is the reason for his father’s self-esteem. In the law of love in nature, male animals’ emotions seem to be labeled as dull and dull forever, like semi-finished products lying alone in the corner. Father is not understood, so we can only yearn for the sentence of Beidao that you call me to be a son, and I follow you to be a father, but I can’t really fight with him; Father is stubborn or even extreme, as a result, we can only see morbid numbness from “medicine”, but we can’t reflect the heart of the son who is almost crazy. Sad parents, give birth to me. After giving us life, father played an awkward role in family life. The daughter got worldly wisdom from her mother, so one day she began to criticize her father’s bad habits; The son got tenderness and thoughtfulness from her mother, so one day I got tired of my father’s silence and irpatience. When eulogizing maternal love becomes a habit, we also naturally freeze father’s love. But Father, willing to be an ornament and decoration, whether you love or not, he is still there, whether you are sad or not, no matter you accept or refuse, his love is still there, neutral. Rilke wrote a sentimental sentence in Duino’s lament: Father/after drinking a sip of my life/your life became so bitter. What father hoped was not only the connection of blood relationship, but also the inheritance of spiritual world deep in his heart, which was the soul education beyond his mother’s life philosophy. Therefore, starting from the encounter with the little life that needed to be guarded, father hid his sadness and weakness, letting his emotional illness exhaust his life little by little, and did not change his independent and strong nature. Protecting the weak is father’s instinct, and there is no word showing weakness in his dictionary. I was wondering whether it was the day to say goodbye to the world that my father could really unload the heavy burden and get some relief. Maybe, he still couldn’t. Because father is always father, how can he be tired and vicissitudes when he shoulders everything silently. However, my father will be old after all. As if yesterday, the person who lifted you over his head proudly, today, he can only climb the stairs awkwardly under your reminder. Time cut the memory into confusion, leaving no chance for father to recall. Maybe it was from that moment that my father stepped down from the altar and became ordinary and fragile. He will start to take care of your plants and the color of your clothes, as if the rough sketch has been reprocessed, adding expressions and clothes; He will start to review the letters in his youth, unfold the yellowed letter paper over and over again; He will ask all kinds of strange questions like a child, and he will love you more, because your youth continues his youth. However, we are stingy and unwilling to share and give. It was us who laughed at father’s cowardice and dullness. It was us who messed up his treasured verses. It was us who blew away his memory of later youth. At last, The Age hastened father’s aging. When we began to confess, the outline of father became clear gradually. At this time, all the abundant withered, and all the arrivals would go far away. My father became the most colorful one in his youth. He also had a lovely side under his steady maturity. Even if he did something wrong, he would cry. We woke up from the old photos, I found that I also became the father or mother of another life. Father’s smile was fixed at the most beautiful moment in each other’s life. There was no estrangement, no suspicion, no regret or sorrow. We hugged at the end of the last bus, one forward, one backward., there are always some people, in the process of almost delay, condensed into a glittering amber. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. 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Years still warm

At the intersection of traffic, I strolled slowly, and the autumn feeling passed quietly, looking at every hurried figure running on the edge of the autumn night, the neon lights in this familiar and unfamiliar city seem to lose the exquisiteness and charm of the past. The autumn is bleak, and the world has been experiencing joy and pain for more than 40 years, I have also gained success. When everything is concentrated in my memory and drops in the coldness of autumn, I suddenly feel that I cannot find the direction to move forward. Wandering in the noisy world, the ups and downs of thoughts are silent and sentimental. Time passes by, and what passes away in the indifferent calendar is your smiling face, it was the clear Lake when we met, but I understood that only memory was a quiet paradise, I am willing to run aground in this world which only belongs to myself, the disturbance and complexity of the world. The evening breeze blowing on my face was occasionally cool, and the familiar music sounded along the road, which was the song that you and I always liked. Every beating note lifted my thoughts. Buddha said: There is nothing in the world, just too stupid; Love is mercy. Walking through the breeze and drizzle for dozens of years, every detail picked up hand in hand emerges in this autumn wind blowing night; The wind blows and leaves dance, flowers bloom, the scenery passed by all the way, and what deepened and deepened in my eyes was still the first tender I saw, and what the pen tip recorded next time was still the touch after the combination of articles and chapters. The interlaced flickering of neon lights reveals the sadness hidden in my heart. The years behind the prosperity seem to have changed. The memory is like the water flowing in the palm, quietly settling down, silent dry air once, I was silly to regard the companionship of every day and night as everlasting, and the struggle hand in hand as eternal happiness. However, I suddenly felt how mysterious and fragile the relationship was, everlasting is such an extravagant and demanding demand; The immortal oath has evolved into the engraving on the Sansheng stone. I am not greedy, but I just don’t give up the thousands of years of looking back, I just don’t want to meet when my youth is full of flowers and fragrance, and the infatuation that begins day and night flows across my face quietly with tears. A burst of coolness goes through my heart to see the hurried pedestrians, the strange faces may also record stories of different scenes, plots and feelings. Yes, whose eyebrows touched his heart, whose love disturbed his feelings, who cared about whose sadness, who loved for whom, who really took who seriously, who is who who has gone through the vicissitudes of time, is still empty to come, those faded sweet words, seems to be wandering in the past Chinese years. Looking up, the light in the distance has already been dim, and every window and shadow is shining with the warmth of gathering together. Maybe happiness has nothing to do with the person in my heart, and maybe only a long stream of water can really see through the scenery, and who is that, maybe we will always try our best to allocate in the boat of life, crossing our common past and drifting with the waves in the long river of life. The strong wind in the night makes the elegant Autumn Wind take away the sadness in the helpless night, hold every touching moment in my heart, and believe that the years are still warm. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Mu Mu breeze

The sky slowly pulled up the curtain, and a black bird back to the nest rushed over his head. The light and shadow falling on the water were crumpled by the wind, shaking people’s eyes. I stopped walking on a soothing slope. The grass beside my feet grew thick and fluffy, showing a smile on my face. Sit down gently, as soft as a sofa, with the palm pressing on the grass tip, crisp, warm and full of texture. An eight or nine-year-old boy lay beside me with his hands resting on the back of his head, looking at the sky affectionately, stretching his body and feeling full of comfort. There was a pool of clear water in front of me. I looked at the sparkling pool, and it also looked at me brightly. We looked at each other crazily, silent to each other. A breeze came from the foot of the mountain, behaving gracefully, as if wearing a long dress, with floating feet, elegant and affectionate. I saw the breeze passing through the fields, through the pine forest, across the lake and coming to me. The breeze blows through the skin, just like a woman’s hand gently stroking, faintly hearing the soft voice: the breeze is like a song! I like the breeze, spring rain and so on. Recently, I like walking along the river, which is the return of the soul and the longing for nature. Whenever the soft light of sunset slanted into the balcony, I stopped all the things to be done, pulled my daughter, pushed my wife, and went out to walk along the river. When I went out of the community and saw the continuous green mountains, the ravines of my heart were filled up. We walked on a pavement made of floor tiles. The dense shade of the incense tree blocked the running night wind, and the branches and leaves shook their heads as if they were drunk. I walked in front, my daughter and wife laughed and murmured behind me, and became a happy twilight song with the birds singing in the branches. Walking out of the shady path of the fragrant trees, I looked up at the western sky, and the tight heart was pulled away at once, and an open artistic conception rushed to me directly. I jumped up and wanted to embrace the sky! God, it’s really big! After saying that, I laughed at my naivety in my heart. My daughter stopped and looked at the sky and said, “Yes, it’s really big! I felt sad inexplicably, and my daughter hadn’t looked at the sky for a long time! At this time, there was not a trace of blue in the sky. The dim Western Sky was covered with dust, and several idle clouds were stagnant. They were too lazy to twist their bodies. My daughter jumped while saying: there are fish scales in the sky, so you don’t have to turn over when you bask in the valley. Dad, what is a common saying? As the saying goes, it is widely spread among the masses. Generally, it is a convention that I talk endlessly. You are in class again! Wife snapped. I’m sorry, and quickly crossed the road with my head covered. On the Baihua Bridge, a river of clear water dripped quietly under the bridge. I threw a cavity of dust into the center of the river and let it drift with the waves. On the Baihua Bridge, people came and drove, and a panic sparrow flew down from the lamppost, I want to stop on the willow branches along the river. Suddenly, the sparrow changed its direction and flew towards the opposite Billboard. Due to the low end and the hasty flight, he almost crashed into a galloping red car. At this moment, a little gray dog groaning in pain ran into my mind. That night, when my daughter and I were walking on Fengle Bridge, a little greydog suddenly ran to us, raised his head and looked at us curiously, with excited and lovely eyes. The little greydog heard several barking on the opposite construction site, so he ran across the road to find his companions. The owner called Here. The little greydog looked at the construction site and the owner, hesitating. He trotted a few steps and walked onto the bridge deck in panic. At this time, the traffic was fast, and the light like a pillar shone on the face of the little greydog. I was scared. The little greydog was in a very dangerous situation. Just in my flash of thought, I heard bang! The little greydog was hit by a car and flew by the roadside. After several deep whining, the little greydog lay there without any sound. I couldn’t help feeling pity. Not only me, birds, little greydog, but also all lived in Panic! I came back to my mind and trotted all the way to catch up with my wife and daughter. There was a stream of people in the square. The Fountain jumped out from the bottom of the slate and rushed up as if it was suffocated. The light is like the day, and the music pavilion is full of melodious songs. Adults may stroll, sit down, or gather together, and children may play endlessly. At this time, I sat down on a slope. The breeze came and the light twisted my waist on the water. At this time, I remembered the end of the article “live your life as a part-time job”: Please slow down your steps, take a rest as much as possible, and enjoy the happiness in the sun. Sitting in the breeze, I whispered softly in my heart: Live in the present and enjoy the breeze! Like (prose editor: Ke Er) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Double whammy

Once one crosses the pass of forty years old in one’s life, all kinds of diseases which have been lurking for a long time will come out from time to time, making waves and being extremely rampant. Recalling the youth years before this, some kind of pride came into being. At that time, although the body, which was known as the capital of revolution or work, was not as strong as a cow, at least the things involving frequent contribution or continuous staying up all night could still stand up to what he could afford. The usual work seems dull, but the hard work and sweat which are hard to be known are hidden inside. During the six consecutive working days (that was the case at that time), everything was going on step by step. Every link needed the setting and implementation of personnel, and every lively life needed the care and care of personnel, every tiny detail needs the insight and care of personnel, and every soul with unrestrained emotion or perverse behavior needs the communication and comfort of personnel. Even in the dead of night, it also needs special consideration or special comfort. The staff here became the synonym for me and us. If we had good health, we wouldn’t fall behind people when we needed to rush ahead all the time. No matter how busy you are during the day or how tired you are at night, you will still climb up the next day to accept the baptism of a new day. After working, we can always catch the gap of free activities and gallop with people of different ages on the crude but vast playground to exercise as much as possible. The days of being single are free, and the basketball court is always a happy land with sweat! Basketball activities in memory are often conducted in an orderly manner. At dawn, our boss shouted next to the door. A few minutes later, eight or nine sleepy sports enthusiasts came to the playground one after another. When the queue was in line, the leader stood in front of the queue and began to run around the playground, called warm-up. After a few rounds, most of them were already exhausted and exhausted; If they had a good body, they would naturally stick to the swordsman to the end. After the warm-up, start a decent confrontation exercise. Although the intensity is average, it will be too much for those who are in poor health for a period of time. At this time, those who are slightly stronger do not feel too hard. I remember one thing that happened in the middle 1980 s is still unforgettable. After dinner that day, the sky was still very bright, and suddenly I thought of playing badminton. There was a fat man among his colleagues who had deep myopia and looked vigorous when walking. But when playing badminton, he immediately shook his mind and was in high spirits, as if he had changed a person. After they made an appointment, they came to a flat and hard field under an abandoned water tower. We didn’t do any pre-match activities and entered the competition state immediately. The two swung hard and hit badminton, causing a wave of fever. Although there is no net in the middle, there is no scoring referee, let alone tactical arrangement or strange tactics, it is only enough to enjoy the benefits brought by sports in the process of badminton, only in the cry of more and more audiences can we obtain heartfelt joy. The wonderful scene in my impression was nothing more than the fact that badminton flew in the air for dozens of rounds without landing, and the audience were a little infatuated. It is true that a ball was hit, leaving a smelly sweat, but the comfort and pride left were also high! It seems that having a good body is an indispensable hardware for both work and sports. But the later development was not as good as people’s wishes. As for the hidden feelings, I will not repeat them. On March 15th, 2012, the unit did a physical examination for all the staff in the First Affiliated Hospital of the ancient city, and got the physical examination form at the beginning of April. The physical examination table shows that in addition to the known trend of mild fatty liver developing to moderate, several new diseases such as overweight, increased blood pressure, increased blood sugar and so on have been added, because several data are obviously on the high side. Although I consciously pay attention to it at ordinary times, I didn’t expect that the wolf really came! The planned reexamination also aborted for some reason, but the problem of left thumb was found out unintentionally. In the recent period, the left thumb always has a faint pain, the joints are quite tangled, and the pain increases after the movement. After a busy filming examination, the conclusion is: there is no obvious distending pain in the left thumb, tenderness in the metacarpophalangeal joint, no obvious mass, aggravation of thumb movement; Peripheral blood supply and feeling are normal. The diagnosis result is: narrow tenosynovitis of left thumb. The disposal method is to give a dose of sealing needle to the soft tissue of the left thumb (one dose a week if necessary) the feeling of needle injection is surprisingly similar to that of taking anesthetic before pulling out the nail cover in the same department last year! Does this fulfill the ancient prophecy that never goes wrong! There is a saying that the body is one, and the rest is zero! Today’s lurkers scramble to show their faces, and tomorrow’s lurkers don’t know when to debut! (2012.04.12) Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…