There is a kind of collapse called No comfort

It is true that I am in a bad mood. I said it was inexplicable, but I knew it clearly in my heart. I just didn’t want to describe it in words, which would accelerate my collapse; Or I dared not to tell anyone the reason, fearing that those who didn’t understand would make me more painful. Therefore, if you ask me, I will always say: nothing, just feel in a bad mood for no reason, and it will be fine after the past. Then, at the moment you can’t see, you will quickly wipe off the tears that you have endured for a long time, forced to smile with you; Or simply disappear, and completely collapse in the place you can’t see. I can endure anyone’s turning a blind eye. I can pull down my face and ignore everyone. I can hide at home and watch TV and eat crazily to prevent bad emotions from being mentioned, I can also find an opportunity to have a big fight with some unlucky salesman who said something wrong. Anyway, I won’t cry until you ask why I am in a bad mood, no matter where I am, what am I doing? I will collapse. This kind of collapse is called no comfort. I always knew that I was a timid person without perseverance, and a vain and cowardly person, but I never knew that I was the most uncomfortabl person. When I was young, I accidentally fell down. First, I saw if there were any people around. If there were, I cried loudly. If not, I got up obediently. Therefore, adults always like to ridicule children, saying that this child is really a ghost. I also have such a memory that when someone is around, he will cry very exaggeratedly. At that time, I really wanted to gain sympathy and care on purpose. When I was older, I didn’t want others to see tears, so I always pretended to be strong and fell again for fear that others would see me. I never cried in front of others, only felt ashamed, find a place where nobody can cry secretly. Because you don’t think everyone will comfort you like when you were young anymore. Now you care more about maybe someone will laugh at you, or someone will complain about you, or someone will not understand you, so you are more willing to leave your grievance to yourself. After a long time, you will think that you are really strong and know what appropriateness is. You feel that you no longer need comfort, but you completely collapse after a greeting. It turns out that you are not so strong, it’s just that you won’t expect so many people any more, but you still can’t pretend to be the one you really care about. Therefore, some people will be said to be at home. She was so soft that she played tricks at home. In fact, she was not ignorant, but her vulnerability could not be concealed by the people she cared about, so she changed her way to resist her collapse. Everyone will seek comfort when she is sad, but the fact is that if she is still seeking comfort, then she is not too sad. People who are extremely sad will not seek any comfort at all. They just want to shrink in the corner silently. Because she thought she knew all the truths very well, and she knew all the things. She was just so painful that she couldn’t speak, so that no matter how much comfort she could touch. In fact, no matter what the situation is, everyone needs comfort, but she does not dare to face it. Therefore, she will not dare to reply comfort messages, answer home phone calls, and do not want to continue the topic about why, because the other end of the screen has already collapsed. When you ask her what’s wrong, she will wipe her tears and smile and say to you: the story in the movie is so touching. In fact, it is just her disguise. Some people are watching others’ stories, but they are crying. The more seemingly strong a person is, the more he can’t stand comfort. So. May I pretend to be strong so that my sadness will not affect anyone’s mood. 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Listening to music at midnight: Saying goodbye should not be in autumn

In this quiet midnight, I leaned against the screen and listened to a song “Say goodbye should not be in autumn” sung by Li Yaxin and Prince Yue men and women hand in hand. Saying goodbye shouldn’t be in autumn it’s our first meeting lovesickness the warmth like spring you will always say goodbye shouldn’t be in autumn how sad the fallen leaves are how many days and how many years can we get used to it you are not around me autumn leaves fall into pieces heart is broken into a little autumn autumn wind blows heart is also sad break up separate points constantly miss you emotion say goodbye really shouldn’t be in autumn I don’t know when it rained again outside the window, the ticking raindrops knocked on the window lattice wantonly and gently fastened my heart. A loneliness and sadness arose spontaneously. The wind and rain all over the sky and the sad melody stirred the depressed feelings in my heart, and also aroused deep feelings of missing. Life runs for dreams, and soul stands for love. Half a lifetime of vicissitudes, waiting for the whole life, in order to walk into your dream of thousands of years. Once I had, it was also a kind of happiness. Looking back on the days when we got together, my heart would be sweet. You and I once had a wonderful time and had a sincere feeling for each other. There are your whispers and chants in my ears; Your care and attachment are left in my fingertips; Your tenderness and lingering are left in my lips, my life is engraved with your mark. I have no regrets for falling in love with you in this life! Life is so fast, beauty smile, finally not worth the time. Yesterday was still tender, but today it is on one side of the world. Love each other but can’t stay together. You come quietly and leave quietly. I can only stand at the dock of memory and wave goodbye to you, watching you go far away. Just like this, we met each other, and a deep-rooted memory passed away. You left, leaving in such a hurry, leaving me endless missing. You know? The day I said goodbye to you, my heart was so painful. My unpeaceful thoughts were like floating dead leaves. Although it was only a few days since you left me, I began to miss you. Your vigorous figure always walks into my dreams with the moonlight, and your appearance appears in front of my eyes again and again. The feeling of missing you is very beautiful, and the feeling of missing you is also very bitter, because I know that it is missing without returning. It is not clear whether we will shake hands again and draw a circle again in the reincarnation of the world. Since then, you and I have become strangers, and our love has gone away, leaving me alone to stay alone. My deserted heart has been scarred. With hopeless expectations for you, I have been lingering on the other side, wandering alone in the world of mortals. I dare not expect the future any more, but only watch in this silent night, face the screen blankly, and write the helpless feelings with the keyboard! Saying goodbye should not be in autumn, which is the attachment of people. Although it is just the beginning of early summer, it is already the autumn of life for me, and autumn is a sad season. Pieces of fallen leaves, scattered all over the floor are my sadness of departure, which has ruined the prosperity of my life. I feel the beauty of the two lovers at the beginning, and the sadness at the other time is so confused and melancholy. The world of mortals is rolling, love and hate are long, I sigh with emotion and feel helpless! How many years are in a hurry, how many feelings are, how many thoughts are. I stood alone on the long road of life, leaving a true feeling in my heart and a missing in my dream. Even though the years are gone, some people and some things are still the most beautiful in their hearts. 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Just say something to yourself

I am really grateful for the happiness life has given me; But I also stubbornly resist, perhaps because I am not capable enough in my heart, and I am stubborn in the society. The ordinary people belonging to me and my strong ones were so incompatible that they grieved my life, entangled my thoughts and felt melancholy for a long time. I don’t have a bright family. Want to get what kind of life, take matters into our own 1.1 point to strive for and struggle, enough pay in exchange for a little bit of progress, which burdened with number of grievances and tears, only in the dead of night can I admit that some happiness can be shared, while some sadness can only be hidden. Before I was thirty years old, I was single, carrying the name of a migrant worker, dealing with the upper class, dragging my pursuit with my dream and continuing with difficulties. However, the hardship brought by this seems to prove a fact that my ideal bright future is slowly walking away pale, just like a dream in a dream. In the passing of time, my soul is blown away by the wind, so there is nowhere to find …… I am really tired. For so many years, I have grown up alone in a mixed environment. The more I experience, the more sad I am. I don’t want to face the unknown tomorrow alone when I grow up. Maybe, when I was not ready for how to continue, the years quietly crossed the eastern sun, and I walked behind it, chasing after it, confused all the way. A girl who has no rich background and is not the lucky one loved by God. She has gone through the rainy season and experienced separation, but she is still stubborn. Holding the childhood dream, she refused to let go. She believed that once she let go, the past efforts would return to zero and she would lose herself from then on. I don’t know how long I can hold on, but I still have the strength to continue, so I smiled at myself. It’s just …… the bonsai in front of the window is green, and it’s time for spring to bloom…… Like (prose editor: Shu Kuang) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…