There is a kind of collapse called No comfort

It is true that I am in a bad mood. I said it was inexplicable, but I knew it clearly in my heart. I just didn’t want to describe it in words, which would accelerate my collapse; Or I dared not to tell anyone the reason, fearing that those who didn’t understand would make me more painful. Therefore, if you ask me, I will always say: nothing, just feel in a bad mood for no reason, and it will be fine after the past. Then, at the moment you can’t see, you will quickly wipe off the tears that you have endured for a long time, forced to smile with you; Or simply disappear, and completely collapse in the place you can’t see. I can endure anyone’s turning a blind eye. I can pull down my face and ignore everyone. I can hide at home and watch TV and eat crazily to prevent bad emotions from being mentioned, I can also find an opportunity to have a big fight with some unlucky salesman who said something wrong. Anyway, I won’t cry until you ask why I am in a bad mood, no matter where I am, what am I doing? I will collapse. This kind of collapse is called no comfort. I always knew that I was a timid person without perseverance, and a vain and cowardly person, but I never knew that I was the most uncomfortabl person. When I was young, I accidentally fell down. First, I saw if there were any people around. If there were, I cried loudly. If not, I got up obediently. Therefore, adults always like to ridicule children, saying that this child is really a ghost. I also have such a memory that when someone is around, he will cry very exaggeratedly. At that time, I really wanted to gain sympathy and care on purpose. When I was older, I didn’t want others to see tears, so I always pretended to be strong and fell again for fear that others would see me. I never cried in front of others, only felt ashamed, find a place where nobody can cry secretly. Because you don’t think everyone will comfort you like when you were young anymore. Now you care more about maybe someone will laugh at you, or someone will complain about you, or someone will not understand you, so you are more willing to leave your grievance to yourself. After a long time, you will think that you are really strong and know what appropriateness is. You feel that you no longer need comfort, but you completely collapse after a greeting. It turns out that you are not so strong, it’s just that you won’t expect so many people any more, but you still can’t pretend to be the one you really care about. Therefore, some people will be said to be at home. She was so soft that she played tricks at home. In fact, she was not ignorant, but her vulnerability could not be concealed by the people she cared about, so she changed her way to resist her collapse. Everyone will seek comfort when she is sad, but the fact is that if she is still seeking comfort, then she is not too sad. People who are extremely sad will not seek any comfort at all. They just want to shrink in the corner silently. Because she thought she knew all the truths very well, and she knew all the things. She was just so painful that she couldn’t speak, so that no matter how much comfort she could touch. In fact, no matter what the situation is, everyone needs comfort, but she does not dare to face it. Therefore, she will not dare to reply comfort messages, answer home phone calls, and do not want to continue the topic about why, because the other end of the screen has already collapsed. When you ask her what’s wrong, she will wipe her tears and smile and say to you: the story in the movie is so touching. In fact, it is just her disguise. Some people are watching others’ stories, but they are crying. The more seemingly strong a person is, the more he can’t stand comfort. So. May I pretend to be strong so that my sadness will not affect anyone’s mood. May I pretend to be strong so that I can stay simple and no longer have any tangled encounters with anyone, may I pretend to be strong enough to keep accompanying me and never collapse. So, please don’t comfort me, please don’t let me collapse. Like (prose editor: Shu Kuang) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. 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Dream

Recalling your past is like watching an old movie. The protagonist in the plot cries or laughs, ups and downs his mood and many stories that are hard to forget, I will never get tired of playing it over and over again! What you want to remember is somehow forgotten, while what you try to forget is firmly imprinted in your heart. It is true that everything can’t meet your own wishes. Everything can only go with the flow of nature. There is no need to force it, no need to carve it, treat it normally, calm your mind and relax your mind! Life seems simple, but in fact it is complex. Life seems stable, but in fact it is ups and downs. I seem deep, but in fact it is simple and clear. Very few delusions, only random thoughts, few regrets, only sigh with emotion! I never feel lonely and bored, and I only regret that I have too little time! The pace is fast and the days are tight. Although going out every morning, there are still traffic jams on the spacious Road, and car owners will feel helpless. It is not as good as me, riding a small self-help to come and go freely, shuttling back and forth in the crowded street, also very leisurely! The smell of spring is getting stronger and stronger. Beautiful girls wearing fashionable clothes sketch out the most beautiful scenery in spring. Looking at the beauties in the past, I would also sigh with emotion that my youth was gone long ago, and my beauty had already faded quietly with the flowing years, leaving only the wrinkles of my forehead and the crow’s feet at the corner of my eyes, countless vicissitudes and confusion! Everyone is living in a mysterious life. It seems that only I am still staying in a simple life. As I get older and older, my life circle becomes smaller and smaller. Previous not too busy to with good friends shopping Go supermarket, now live with a community of good friend half are a rare meet. Am I lazy? Or is everyone crazy? There were only a few friends around, and they wanted to find a friend to complain, but they found that they couldn’t turn out a phone number with the hand holding the phone. Is time changing people, or do people simply want to keep up with the pace of time? It is said that the years are ruthless. If you slip away, you can’t find the previous breath. Only the memory hides a faint shadow, leaving only the shallow memories, lingering in your heart! True and False, beauty and ugliness, good and evil, happiness and annoyance, life is a never-ending game, and in the future, it will all become the past. There is no result in forcing, and extravagant demand is more helpless. Those who should come can’t hide, and those who shouldn’t come can’t. Sometimes people live just a kind of state of mind. In the days without complaints or expectations, they walk leisurely and gently day after day. Don’t interpret too many emotions, don’t chase the memories that are far away. Big things, small things, everything is annoying, only things in mind have fantasies! Yesterday, Today, I am busy every day, but tomorrow still has extravagant hope! No one can tell what tomorrow will be like. The future is the same vague and unpredictable for everyone. Hope in illusion, imagination in expectation. The wish in expectation, the thought in expectation. Right and wrong, right and wrong, love and hate, joy and sadness are intertwined in the interlaced time and space. Some people are born to love painting and give them talent! Some people are born to sing and dance, and they are vivid! Some gift for poetry and painting, not scholarly family! Some people are full of literary cells in their hearts. The words typed randomly under the keyboard can be combined into beautiful words and sentences! It turns out that it is not only those who have read classics or are talented that can explain the words beautifully. As long as the written words are permeated with aura, with life and soul, they are beautiful articles. Recently, I wrote something messy, but I can’t understand it. I always hold the flag of sticking to SJ quotations as a cover to deceive my soul. In fact, it is really pathetic and self-deceiving. Really, sometimes I really want to change myself, but I am always struggling in the raowen game I have compiled. I can’t figure it out! Therefore, I fell in love with dreams and gorgeous dreams. I am relaxed and happy in my dream! I have my own and gain in my dream! I hope and miss in my dream! There is my world in my dream, which is as blue as the sky and as pure as white clouds! I am beautiful and quiet in this world! 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This year, my third year

In this way, I was a junior, so hurried that I didn’t leave any time for me to breathe. I was unprepared. When I came back, I stayed in Yanzhou for a day and lived with my brother. Yanzhou was indeed a small town, but it had a concise and ancient flavor, roads or buildings seem to tell him that he has a very long and beautiful past. Maybe only people like me who are full of emotions and do nothing can have such leisure feelings to observe and tell these things. I don’t like big cities, such as Jinan. I hate being a tutor at night. From Quanfu to Dongcang, there were only a few scattered people in the empty BRT-3. The road was so wide and the surroundings were so quiet. It seemed that I was left alone in the corner, that kind of dispensable feeling makes me feel horrible. I am surprised, where are those people in the daytime? Have you all gone home? Well, I’m going home. Put on the headphones and turn on the sound. I am not good at singing and the art of music. I just want to try my best to prove my existence, but everything seems to be useless. By contrast, I like small cities, such as Yanzhou, sunshine and Lanshan. I like the real feeling of being surrounded by real people, warm. Neon lights need not be too dazzling, roads need not be too wide, there are not so many expensive speeding cars, and there is no need for bustling and luxurious shops. Just like liking a person, it is because of his story, not his handsome appearance. It is also true that I like a place, because what kind of people I met here, what kind of things happened, and what unforgettable memories I left. At home, my mother asked me where I would go after graduation. I said I could go anywhere, but I wouldn’t stay here anyway. Then my mother asked me, where are you going. I will talk about it later. So far, I have not gone there first. In other words, where can I go without returning to sunshine. I still remember this time two years ago when I was dragging my luggage and sitting on K8284, watching the small town which had raised me for 19 years drifting away, it was so painful that I leaned against the window, quiet cried. The mother aside said that going to school was not married there. There was nothing to cry. It has been two years in a flash. How can time pass so fast. Two years ago, in this strange city, I was full of curiosity about everything. Qianfoshan, Baotu Spring, Heihu Spring, Hero Mountain, Daming Lake and Quancheng Square secretly entered Shandong TV station with my classmates, then the staff found out that they walked out awkwardly and walked to an art exhibition hall on youth East Road. Two years later, I couldn’t afford any spirit for these places any more. Is more miss home, think that a little dirty a mess right of Wanpingkou square, Miss Arashiyama archipelago, even miss that seems no Quancheng Park 1/3 large hai qu gong yuan, Miss Heiner that piece of haunted house, I even miss the Lanxi ecological garden near my home. There are only some flowers and plants, and several mu of tea garden can make me so nostalgic. I wonder if I am the only one like this? On the first night of school, Liu Liu in the dormitory said she missed home, and the elder sister also said she missed home. The third sister also said she missed home, and the fourth sister didn’t come back until the night of school. It turns out that everyone is like this. In junior year, everyone seems to be more stable and wise, and they all become more homesick. What’s more tragic is that I caught a cold as soon as I got back to school this time. I was so strong at ordinary times that I was so weak that I couldn’t handle it. I didn’t want to attend classes, get up, do not want to do anything that I didn’t want, I am too lazy to move even when eating and drinking water. The worm has been in the dormitory all the time. In the corridor, there are people who move and press the network cable. Every day, the sound of punching holes, pulling wires and making expansion wires is repeated. The miracle is in such a busy occasion, I can sleep without scruple. Maybe everyone is vulnerable. Now I really don’t want to move at all. Maybe it’s because I slept all afternoon and had a full sleep, lying there and doing nothing, he got up and put some words on the code. This is my favorite thing to do. White paper and black words give me a particularly real feeling, compared with those small touches that are colorful but vulnerable in front of reality, they can give me a strong sense of security. After seeing these, someone will certainly laugh at me, laughing at me for writing nonsense again without a head or a tail. I have to admit that my ability to control words is really not equal to one tenth of his ability. It has been a few days since the beginning of school, and it is time for the freshmen to register again in a few days. It is also a group of freshmen who are full of curiosity, longing and yearning for the city or mountain teachers. Who knows what is waiting for you? Is it satisfaction, disappointment, or the gap that varies from person to person determined by subjective factors? The charm of the future may lie in this, because she is full of all kinds of unknowns and all kinds of variables. What I am sure of is that opportunities or luck will always favor some people who work harder and are more prepared than others. Strive to become strong and make everyone feel that you are very happy. This is not hypocrisy, let alone affectation, because there are always some happy people who like to chew others’ misfortune from time to time to enhance their happiness. Because there is such a small group, because there are such a few people, it is more beautiful life, in addition, no one can be strong for you. University is indeed a very magical place. Some things will be polished round and smooth by time and all trivial matters, while some things are more colorful and domineering in the repetition day after day, and I show off my teeth and claws. There will be another period of time when we are trapped in a dead end. Everything is looking at you with teeth gnashed, pretending to be a winner, blowing beard and glaring to declare that you are wrong. In those days, don’t think too much or do too much, because in that situation, we are easy to make mistakes and make some irrational and wrong decisions. In those days, the best way was to read some books quietly, some unimportant books, and then let the imaginary enemy leave quietly. People say that university may be the most beautiful four years in one’s life, I don’t know. Because there is still a long way to go, I can’t predict what will be waiting for me. There is no comparison, so I can’t know. Cherish the time, cherish the things, in a word, do and cherish. It has already been autumn, and some branches of walnut trees in front of building 3 have been repaired, which makes the front of the building look particularly desolate. One autumn rain and one cold, the rain a few days ago also made the campus colder. Autumn is like this, half bright and half depressed is coming. The arrangement of the Four Seasons in Jinan is particularly unreasonable. Autumn is very short, just like the Spring in Jinan, especially like sasuan. Putting it on the head is like a matchmaker, especially deformed, the tail of Xia was twitched gently, and came hurriedly, then the meaning came to an end. Another month is the Mid-Autumn Festival, with 11 small long holidays by the way. I haven’t figured out what to do yet. According to my character, she should be fully arranged. Then, when winter comes and winter goes, it will be another year…… If the days passed quietly like this, it should also be called quiet and comfortable…… Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. 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