Blind to think

I always want to write a diary, but I always have no mind to write it. I always want to calm my mood, but I am always sad, because I have too many things in my mind, so I have no time to scrutinize them, I quit my soul platform directly. Sometimes I asked myself where I was hurt, but I only felt a little loneliness. My sister said it was sad that I was not sad. Maybe it was true, after more than twenty years of self-anesthesia, we can’t accept our heartlessness. Maybe we are all of the same kind, so we can talk and laugh. I pretend to be sad, but my voice can’t tell a trace of sadness. I was shocked by myself and my sense. I could accept all the answers so calmly until I finally made a decision. Looking for a job after resignation is hard to say whether it goes smoothly or not. I just feel my disposition, no matter what is ahead, and I don’t know what kind of tomorrow I will be. I don’t know whether it is wrong or right, but my heart is confused and tight, always stretching strings, making my heart not idle all the time. I think so much, how can I have time to think about the wind, flowers, snow and moon? Who knows the secret in my heart, the secret of interpersonal relationship, and the complex in my heart when I resign again.. From the conversation that night to the next day, I decided to go to Xiamen. Now I don’t have the enthusiasm at that time and have more worries. Maybe this time it will be another farce,, maybe as Xiaoyue said, life needs tossing. Only when tossing, people will gradually mature, gradually understand, and no longer naive. I have already hated my innocence. Tonight, I came back from the train station alone and told the driver the address of the master before getting on the train. However, he went wrong because he answered the phone and took a detour to a place I didn’t know. I was very angry, I had nothing to say all the way, but I almost got off the car and talked to me. I didn’t want to talk to him anymore. After getting off the car, I gave him 20 and I withdrew. He also blamed me, anyway I Car Before told him 3 times address, more I can do for his no-sympathy of the, plus aboard, he himself dark enough of, also want to bring a guest, shouting for price is also shouting, I already hate him in my heart, so I don’t love him at all! If I don’t change someone else, maybe I will forget it, I think I am unlucky! Of course, he was also worried that someone was waiting for me, so he gave up. However, I hated him very much, very much! Unkind guys are always annoying, and now I still hate it when I think about it! It was said on the phone that Fuzhou was looking for me, but I didn’t know whether it was true or not, but I was about to leave Fuzhou, and something was wrong when I came. This child is very speechless. Speaking of this, there is nothing else to say. Hehe, it seems that a lot of people can’t say anything, but they are all pressed in their hearts. Many people don’t know what I am thinking, in fact, to be honest, I don’t know myself either. I told Yinglian that I was going to Xiamen, and her expression was very disapproachable. I didn’t know what she really thought, but I had no way out, and Fuzhou became less and less warm, and I am a person who needs friends. Without friends, I can’t live. I rely on a simple phone to support my life every day. I am helpless and helpless, no one can cry and laugh with me. No matter how uncomfortable I feel, I have to accept it by myself. It feels like I’m back to graduation, every day when it gets dark, I want to cry with a warm shoulder, but I know I can’t do that, because in this city, it doesn’t allow me to have such treatment. When I came back to Longyan, I felt every plain smiling face, and found that they were so simple smiling, and basically no indifferent shadow could be found on their faces, greeting each other may make you unable to see your eyes laughing. Looking back, this ordinary greeting is compared with the elevator taking event in Fuzhou public service advertisement, that is a pure natural civilization, without any whitewash. The most shameful thing is that many words in hometown dialect can’t be spoken out. You have to think about it before thinking about it or directly replace it with Mandarin. There has always been an idea that if Fuzhou can’t stay any longer, you can go to Xiamen or Longyan, I also believe that many friends don’t think I will leave Fuzhou, but my decision this time may really fall below their glasses. However, the fly in the ointment when I went home was that the weather was too dry, and my throat was always dry and dry, which caused a slight cold. I even had a fever on the 7th, but I really dared not to see a doctor, so I was afraid of injection, fortunately, I am in good health and it is expected that it will not worsen. But the biggest headache of catching a cold is my nose, which is the most unacceptable. In fact, I tried very hard to guide my spirit to the other side. Therefore, I think that only being decisive can I achieve myself. Mother-in-law will only make myself more cowardly, in the journey of human life, many experiences can become a test for myself, and I, in fact, have already passed that level, what is waiting for me will be the best treasure, pay and get! How to control these three is about to open. No one supports me, I don’t cry, no one comforts me, I can’t cry, no one accompanies me, I can’t cry, I must smile, this is me. I never like cowardice in front of outsiders, because our society will not give in because of your weakness, but only despise you because of your weakness! 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Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Gardening of another interest

Spring is coming, the sunshine is getting brighter and brighter, and the weather is getting warmer day by day. After a long and severe winter, I couldn’t help feeling relaxed and happy. You, me and all of us finally spent another cold and long winter. I welcomed the first spring when I was transferred to the county to work! I don’t know how much others love flowers. I love them since I was young. I always want to have a few pots of blooming flowers. I can water, fertilize, loosen soil and cut branches in my spare time every day. From children to adults, to adulthood, I have seen many flowers, such as chrysanthemum, peach blossom, apricot, pear flower, osmanthus, orchid, Lotus, clivia, Wenzhu, rape flower, even the white snowflakes, none of them can favor me and look at me with a serious eye. Until now, I even haven’t owned the simplest and most common flower alone! Life since busy study, work, living, for family three meals a day running around, always on the move, camped. It was not a dilapidated shabby house, so I lived in another place, depending on others, without a fixed residence belonging to myself. Until now, I finally lived in my own simple building and lived in a safe place! Every time I see others planting flowers and grass, my hands itch badly. When it comes to flower cultivation, as early as three or four years ago, after buying the house, they continued to spend spare money to buy or ask for from relatives and friends, and even picked up some flowers and seedlings abandoned by others from the garbage table. About twenty pots: Clique orchid, Kylin, tortoiseshell bamboo, golden branches and Jade leaves, bamboo, Scorpion Lotus, rich tree, cactus, diagonal Lotus, money tree, orchid, and several pots can not be named. This year, I lived in a new house and eliminated several pots of poor-growing ones, such as Dripping Guanyin, radish Haitang, phalaenopsis and so on. Every time I see other people’s Flowers in recent years, It is always vigorous and bright. If you raise it yourself, you will not be able to do it. If you raise it, you will not grow up. Some of them will even wither and die. I have been blaming my family for its low temperature in winter, lack of sunshine and poor growth environment of flowers and plants. Now it seems that it is because of three minds and two minds, which can not be persevered, single-minded and meticulous care. Deep down, I really love flowers. Because I have a relatively independent office at present (this kind of generous treatment is that I have to find a noble person for twenty-three years after I have worked, and I don’t know how long it can last), it is relatively spacious, I just want to raise a few pots of flowers and plants. On the one hand, I can decorate the office with a hint of green, bring myself confidence and hope, and change my extreme mentality of complaining about the world; On the other hand, I can stabilize my impetuous and proud mood, eliminate unnecessary restlessness and depression; Third, spend lonely, lonely and boring spare time by raising flowers. Therefore, I specially bought flower pots and flowers, planted a broad-leaf rubber tree, a pot of Orchid, a pot of clivia and a flower that I could not tell the name but thought to be more beautiful by feeling. Therefore, I looked forward to the four potted flowers day and night, taking root, sprouting and blooming. Of course, among the four potted flowers, the broad-leaf rubber tree is the favorite. Her leaves are as broad as green, quiet, luxuriant, with unique charm and glamour. However, it has not taken root yet, and I am worried about whether she can sprout and survive (too many disappointments and injuries have already made me pessimistic and desperate). After going to work every morning, see if she is more vigorous than the day before and whether she shows obvious green. I pray that she will wake up soon and grow tender buds as soon as possible, which will surprise me! I waited patiently for May Day, Children’s Day, Party building Day and National Day ——- I made full and long-term preparations, and insisted on it, and must be carefully cared and treated with true feelings, waiting for her to pull out the green leaves and grow new branches! As long as she can grow new branches and give me a little green every day, I think my career will make progress and achievements, I will take root in Kawaguchi, a strange and warm place, and spend the rest of my long, rich and wonderful life. I will no longer ponder over and over! It seems that flowers are not easy to be well raised. Only those who care carefully and regard flowers as their own lives can raise them well. I should cherish my own flowers that really belong to me! As long as the flowers grow vigorously and brightly, my life will burst into vitality, which will not delay the good times of my life and put my limited energy into the work I am engaged in, achieve fruitful results! Looking at my rubber tree, I think that loving flowers and appreciating flowers is actually the greatest respect for my own life. Why not do it! Like (prose editor: Ke Er) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. 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