Interesting childhood 14 jia yu

In my childhood, there were many interesting things related to fish, which were really countless. But there are some things that I can’t forget about my good friend who has been with me for many years, or the woman who has loved me. It is deeply buried in my heart, lingering. It doesn’t look like spring, it is also sunny. I also want to come out from my heart and bask in the Sun Online. Of course, I can’t restrain democracy if I like it. If you are willing to come out, just come out. It was in xinglongquan dam that I first began to get married with fish. The time should be in the summer of 1980, August, when I was eight years old. Now I still remember that little fish, an unfortunate and extremely lucky one, whose appearance is very cute, fat body, about seven or eight centimeters long, and it is a carp. How did this little fish get married with me? I have to start from the beginning. It was very hot that day, about 345 degrees, and there was no wind at all. The hot weather is like a big steamer, and people are like meat buns in a steamer. It is difficult to eliminate the summer heat, so I naturally want to take a bath. So at noon that day, my best children, Zhao erhu, Zhao Sanhu, Zhao Dezi, Li Lizi, Bi Hai and so on, and I went to xinglongquan Dam to take a bath under the leadership of Lord bentun. We were so hot that we were sweating all the way. Needless to say, when we arrived at the dam, everyone felt a sense of coolness when they saw the crystal water in the dam. Let alone how happy we were! Many children were impatient before they arrived at the dam. They took off their shabby clothes and threw them there. They jumped into the water to play with their bare hands. They and I were the same, jumping into the water and starting to play. Because of our young age, adults were not allowed to enter the deep water, and we dared not to swim in the shallow water near the shore. Xinglongquan dam was actually a natural bathing place at that time. The water outside was clear and shallow, and it deepened a little bit from the side without feet and neck. I knew that it was more than ten meters away to the belly of an eight-year-old child, the bottom is still sand, and it is very clean. We are playing in this area. The water inside is clear and deep, and the deepest part is seven or eight meters deep. That is the world of young people and adults. We children were teasing each other in the shallow water area and divided into groups to fight with each other. You tease me, and I splash at him, so happy. Sometimes they rushed to catch each other’s little brother. Tired of playing, we sat on the sand for a while. When I was sitting on the sand tired of playing, I felt that there seemed to be a slippery thing between my two hips. Since I was young at that time, I was rather stupid, ignorant and timid. I didn’t know what was stuck in my ass at that time. I don’t dare to move. After thinking for a while, the thing under the butt still kept drilling forward, but it couldn’t move because it was caught. It seemed that it couldn’t hurt me, and I gradually became no longer afraid. I think it should be a small fish, just use your right hand to catch it bit by bit. (Let’s briefly say that xinglongquan dam was a big fish pond when I was a child. Fifteen bungalows around the dam. It is 5 miles long from north to south and 3 miles wide from east to west. There are all kinds of fish in it, including blue carp, silver carp, grass carp, carp, fat head fish, old head fish, catfish, crucian carp, dingfish and so on. But due to the depth of water, people can’t catch it in general.) My hand slowly catch it, 1.1 point catch it gills. Because I have heard about the earmuffs of adults before, catching a fish requires catching its cheek, so it can’t get rid of you. I felt that when I grasped it firmly, I took it up from the bottom of my leg a little bit, and at the same time, my left hand also grabbed it. In this way, I will hold it firmly. At the same time, I also observe it carefully to see what it is. At first glance, it turned out to be a small carp. The less nervous heart was completely relieved. Came as a relief. I looked at it carefully. Its fat body was about two and a half centimeters thick and seven or eight centimeters long. At that time, I thought that this little fish was so unfortunate that it was caught by my ass all of a sudden. Really hits Qiao also no matter! How high should I be when I sit down and hold a small fish with my butt? If you are good at mathematics, you can calculate its probability. There are fifteen bungalows in the dam. How many fish are there? This little fish just swam here again, overcoming the difficulties of unknown factors, and then I sat down. I think the probability is about one billion. If I buy lottery tickets today, I will definitely win 5 million! But I also thought, why should I catch it? Play? I’m still taking a bath, so I can’t play with it; Eat, it’s too small! This is also a small life! I often heard from adults in my family that saving a life is better than building a seven-level pagoda. Today I’m going to let it go. Isn’t it also saving the life of this little fish? We won’t build a seven-level pagoda. It’s OK to build a layer! Thinking of this, I held it and let go. I thought in my heart, Xiaoyu, go home too, or your mother should worry! It is free to swim in the water. Now I think how lucky this little fish should be! This is when I met a kind-hearted person. Is it still alive for the second master? Although I look ferocious in my life, But I think I am kind and very kind. Now I still remember that when I just went to work, once when I was riding a bicycle, I was going to press a little chicken, and it suddenly slipped under the wheel of my bicycle. Under the circumstances at that time: I either ran over it, or suddenly braked and fell down. Of course I chose the latter. I would rather fall down on the ground and break my arm than press the chicken. After all, how lucky this little fish was released by me! Say who I am? Although I am not well-known now, I am just a teacher, but maybe how many years after my death, the latter will see that I have written so many novels in the Mordo poems, songs, essays and essays, make me a famous contemporary litterateur, poet and poet of New China! At that time, I would like to see this little fish once sat on my ass and had such close contact with me, a great world-class great man. I met each other sincerely, (I don’t know if its eyes can see anything) how lucky it should be? How many fish and people are dreaming of that? So I say it is extremely lucky! This is just like someone accidentally got van Gogh’s painting Sunflower. Van Gogh was down and out when he was not famous. Who would have thought that his dilapidated settlement would become the world-famous greatest painter in the world for many years to come. After I released the lucky little fish, I felt very pleased. I played in the water for a long time, and didn’t go home happily with my companions until more than 1 pm. It has been 32 years since this incident, but in retrospect, there seems to be a slippery feeling under the ass, which is unforgettable! Goodbye my little fish, my intimate little fish! I just don’t know where are you now? I am afraid that you have already made your greatest contribution to the healthy growth of someone! Goodbye, dear little fish, I hope you will always remember me in the spirit of Heaven, a kind child who may be the only one to let you live! Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. 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A song singing friendship

A song singing friendship — Bingwen in the flowing sand river of time, youth is a kind of beauty emerging and a kind of pure yearning. When we experienced a lot of ups and downs in life, the good times and youth gave us a new feeling and aftertaste. There was a quiet river flowing in the light years, and the smiling face of once immature youth was quietly covered with fine lines. Thinking of the ignorance and ignorance, every point of staying made me feel deeply aftertaste, I pursue the yearning of youth, that is, I keep calling myself happy. I feel the past time of you in my heart, the beautiful sweetness in my pure youth, and the love you once had, just like the evergreen flowers rooted in my heart and never lost. I have never forgotten that my arm was injured in the volleyball match in high school and went to the hospital. At night, you came to my home to see me. Only you start from small details silently and care for me until you visit me sincerely. After graduation, we often stay together. When the night comes, you come to me with a gun. What a pleasant thing it is when I follow you to shoot birds. The stars were all over the sky, and the cool wind at night accompanied us to move forward, just following you and playing with you. I don’t think much, let alone think much. I think friendship is precious. My sister told me to let me fall in love with you. I naively thought that we were friendship, not love. When I went to your house to tell you when I was going to get married, your eyes were so desolate and sad that you were lying on the bed calling my name and telling me that you were half a year late. The feeling at that moment made my heart tremble for it. Hearing your helpless voice, I didn’t know the visits and frequent contacts you had to me. It turned out that you liked me. You have such an idea. Why don’t you tell me in person earlier that you have always liked me? Do you think I am smart and can feel your heart? Actually, I am stupid. At this time, the feeling of ignorance made me feel uncomfortable. I didn’t know how to answer you, so I could only say nothing. This moment also remembers your every visit, every smiling face, and even the tone of every sentence. This moment also awakened my innocent and naive thinking, understood the subtle changes between us, and I will become the bride of others. You know, I want you to hug me once at that moment. When I was sent home, you were in front, I was behind, and I was speechless. Only the sound of footsteps accompanied us could feel the acceleration of my heart beat, banging sound, and my face was also warm, walking with one foot deep and one foot shallow, I kept thinking about it, It turns out that you have never left in my heart. Delivered to the door, you watched me enter the house. When I arrived at home, I was still thinking about whether I would go out to see you again and let you hug me once, but I didn’t. But there is such an idea in my heart that I want you, a man of the opposite sex, to hug me once. Like a dream, it has quietly and secretly hidden in my heart. Has not changed. You didn’t show up when you got married. It was the last time that you visited me in my new home. The true feelings of friendship are always flowing on me, and I always have good thoughts and feelings for you. When there is something at home, I don’t see you. Maybe if we don’t meet or contact each other, we won’t have any thoughts. But we had a happy trip and a visit to each other, and the unfettered happy moments we had together very early were still in our hearts. Time counts the fleeting years, and inadvertently, I have been too young. Although we are close at hand, we are not in touch, as if we don’t know each other any more. When we got together for many years, we talked and laughed with others, pretending to be unfamiliar. You and I are not each other in those years. The world has brought different scenery to each other. But did you notice it? Did you notice it or not? In the photos you left, you were so close to me that you could feel each other’s breath, and could you hold each other when you reached out. I met again unconsciously. When people sat together, my eyes saw you unconsciously. You were staring at me, nodding and staring at me, letting me know that you were caring for me, my heart is still listening to you. You call my nickname like a relative. I feel comfortable and enthusiastic when listening to it. Finally, I understand the reason for avoiding you. It turns out that when I see you, my heart will be soft, and my heart will be sad, and my heart will lose its sense of direction. Standing under the vast starry sky, is there a warm current filled with fragrance of nostalgia and intoxication? At this moment, I feel silent voice thinking of running away, afraid to face you. There was once a season when thoughts were flying, and those who were far away could feel soft, and there were shadows that could not be waved in their thoughts. Only by avoiding all the opportunities to meet each other can your mind be clear and fresh. You can’t say whether you put me into your mind when you are awake or half asleep, and I saw you when I was back in a midnight dream, and I don’t need to tell you. Only in this way can I feel silently, it’s just a little happy. Let me have a faint figure in my heart and walk all the way. Your friendship to me will quietly bloom in my heart, like a touch of faint fragrance encircling and moistening me, giving me a wonderful reverie feeling of nostalgia. Everyone has a beautiful emotional memory in his heart. Maybe in the sweet memory, the other party does not know it, but this brand has been deeply rooted. My heart is full of beauty, never leave, never float, never fly, the feeling that people can recall in their thoughts, my heart has been stranded for you, so true feelings and expectations, the voice that cannot be dispersed in my heart for a long time. For me, you are a memorable person in my life. It describes the age when I was young, but now what falls on the tip of the pen is the sweetness in my heart, it is an echo that you don’t know. Do you know to forgive me for being so dull and clumsy, even now. Do you know what I expected to embrace? Let my words represent my voice. Although there is no sweet talk or hug between us, even if the innocence of the past disappears between us, I hope what we gain is a memory of friendship, family care. For me, that is a sweet memory and a happy wish. Whether you can let the pure emotion continue, face each other now, whether you can talk and laugh like others, is it the mentality that you never let go in your heart, or my arrogant heart is causing trouble. Let’s not dare to face each other when we meet, but look at each other. It is true smile, friendly contact and eternal blessing. Let friendship sublimate into kinship, which is a kind of selfless love. The story in my heart is left to my aftertaste. How many years have passed, and it is still sweet in my heart. Youth has already passed, but the memory of youth is surging repeatedly, layers of layers, ebb and flow, is recalling youth, a heart unwilling to age and loss, a flower unwilling to fade and fade. Let love shine on me every day like the bright sunshine of four seasons and gallop like rivers. Wish my relatives happy everyday. 2012 nian 7 yue Like (prose editor: Shu Kuang) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. 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Tonight no rain

When the Twilight came, the night in the mountain village seemed very quiet. Sometimes a few faint barking came from the distance, breaking the empty night and the breeze blowing. There is no rain tonight, but I am waiting for the coming of rain here. The orange warning signal of rainstorm in recent days tightens everyone’s heart. There is no rain tonight, no patter rain, and no poetic rhyme which is in tune with the rhythm; Thoughts are wandering aimlessly, and what touches the bottom of my heart is the trace of time washed by time. No rain tonight, my heart is like a mirror, a person’s world, a person’s elegance, a person’s emotion, a person’s care concentrated in the fingertips on the keyboard knocked down the words belonging to me, my life. Some people say that life is recorded by words, one horizontal and one vertical, one painting after another, and simple lines outline the elaborately carved years; Time is wasted, looking back, it seems like a lifetime, unconsciously, we have experienced decades of ups and downs. We have walked all the way, just like a full-length novel, with ups and downs, sadness and happiness. There is no rain tonight, and there is a crescent moon in the sky, rising in the breeze. I just want to close my eyes gently and recall those memories hidden by myself slowly, sweet, painful and happy, no matter how helpless, tough or angry I am, I can’t forget these episodes, stories and experiences in my life. There is no rain tonight, I think, after all, I am still not strong enough to sigh the passing of time in this rainy night, and I can’t hide my inner panic. In fact, we have no choice for many things, but since we have no choice, we have to face it and face our life with a common heart, as long as we have a slight common heart, there must be a faint but not boring life. There is no rain tonight, but I am waiting for the rain here. er 0 yi er nian July 13 Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Bright depression

The sophisticated world is in the world, only to move forward with the footsteps of the public. It’s just that the past of a woman who lost her virginity is sad. I still remember the past, thoughts and moods, nostalgia is not the reason for sighing, I am just inexplicable sentimental. How many changes do God want me to make? In addition to bear can only carry. I am too poor to have a graceful and luxurious dream, but only a melancholy heart can hide my exquisiteness. The bitter dream was broken, and the bitter smile could no longer be squeezed out from the corners of the mouth. Fate is not fate, and spring is like smoke; Love is not love, and the sky is not perfect; Love is not love, love is not debt, heart is not heart, turmoil to this day. Residual spring and tears, light gone like water; Who does the flower fall on? There is no return at the end of the world. Seeing the past falling gently, tears slipped through my heart. The same vain streamer, different confusion and panic. This year’s injury is not because of dreams, not because of illness. I am still so young, but I already feel that life has no hope. I am alone, thin, pouring out, complaining, crying, miserable and enduring by myself…… Even if the Sijia loses its bones, it can only cry secretly; Even if it is tearful, there is no way out. Even the dream was lonely for a lifetime, and even the road was in a trance. I had always been like this. I couldn’t see the sunshine in my bright eyes, and my affectionate expectation couldn’t wait for hope. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Road, when Tianya

It seems that I have been walking for a long time, but I still don’t know where the end of the road is. Although some roads are indeed straight, they always feel that they have no direction. Because of such a straight road, I have to go on and have no other choice. Who knows where this road can lead me. Road, sometimes is a kind of confusion! Second, I tried my best to associate what was at the end of the road. After turning a corner, can you meet her/him in your dream? Is this the end of the road? In fact, its end lies in our heels. Passing by, passing by, you will always miss passing by, and your heart will be settled. People are far away. There are all kinds of roads in the world, such as waterway, land Road and Sky Road. The boat will pour on the water and blossom beautiful spray, it may end up sinking to the bottom of the sea forever. Birds give all their love to the blue sky, but in the end, the huge sky is reluctant to make room to embrace the sad bodies of birds! The road is sometimes cruel. It is also a little hard to figure out why. There is a grave on the fourth road, which is not the end of the road. Although there is indeed a coffin waiting for us at its end. There are flowers at the end of the road, which is not its end. Although there may be a wreath of victory at the end of the road. What is at the end of the road? We have to wait and see. But your first step often determines your future. Five gently we walked on the road, leaving hearty laughter. But when we look back on the road we have traveled, the road has already wiped everything clean. Maybe it regards the beauty left by US as the traveling expense and hides it tightly. We are not allowed to relive that warmth. Sometimes the road is quite annoying. Sometimes it even spat greedily wrapped with dust. It took away all the beauty, but abandoned our sadness alone. What makes us look back is not a smile, but a drop of tears. Sixth, is the heart too wide or the road too narrow? Sometimes I always feel that I can’t pass a lot of things in my heart. -Mix of good bother! Seven roads are everywhere. As long as you step out door. If you have no doubt, the road is right in front of you. So, don’t say there is no way out! There are many roads on the eighth Earth. The best way to go is the road to the door. This is not because I am very familiar with it. Just because no matter where you are, home is always so close to me! Nine has also gone through many roads, including failure and success. I still walking. Looking back again, I am delighted to find that I will not regret taking this road! Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

My humble place (the other one)

Last night, I dreamed of my grandmother, who was very peaceful and warm, as if it was not a dream, but a reality. My dream is always full of sadness and tears after my grandmother just passed away. Later, it turned out to be fear and fear. Now it is as kind and real as daily life. When my body and mind are extremely exhausted, I fall asleep at night, and I will be comforted by fragrant dreams. After a long journey, I finally lived in a narrow hotel after a hard and difficult running. That night, I fell asleep as soon as I touched the pillow. That night, I dreamed of Grandma again. Therefore, I knew that it I am time to go home. Grandma, I’m tired. Grandma, let me go home with you tonight. It turns out that family affection can really surpass the boundary of life and death, convey love and hope to the living people, and give us the power to move forward. Once you say something about your missing, you will inevitably feel a little melodramatic. However, when it falls on paper, it will always feel superficial. Only silent in the former emperor, buried deep in the memory. It is the safest and most reliable existence. (Ii) my humble place the general appearance of life is not poverty and desolation, but wealth and abundance on the contrary. It is even an absurd luxury. Therefore, we always make our appearance bright and bright to cover our inner humbleness. Only primitive people agree that they are an animal and have the souls of leopord, Tiger, Eagle or lion. Primitive people combined themselves with nature, and they never wanted to conquer things. I just hope to live in harmony. As for their books, lions are spirits, Tigers symbolize reason, leopards symbolize life. I dare not tell my humble points easily, just as I can’t tell those beautiful things. Indeed, how many people dare to look directly into their hearts? We want to own, but we are afraid of losing. We want it, but we are afraid of giving. Human beings always suffer from gains and losses in this way, and suffer from the ups and downs of life. But you can’t watch the beauty of all living beings like birds, and have a vast heart like the sky without planting or accepting. I like wind, clouds, trees, lakes, grasslands and mountains. I live in nature and feel my humble places one by one. When I was lonely, my humbleness was even more exposed. I am afraid of loneliness. No one will like loneliness except God and beast. Some loneliness is wrong to say, and some loneliness will cause trouble if it is broken. So we can only keep silent, in the infinite time and space. I look down and look up for a lifetime. Smile and meditation solidified into a stone statue, between sadness and comfort, between dream and wake up, between you and me, fall, fall, falling whenever you look at the back of those people you once believed deeply, or hesitate to the indifferent attitude of the people you love deeply. You can try to put aside depression and think about this sentence. All people are an independent individual. Repeat this sentence in my heart twice, three times, or even more times. In fact, everyone is lonely. Time runs counter to memory, and the deep thoughts drop into tears. Looking back at the previous life, we will meet each other in this life. It will take several rounds and several rounds of kowtowing wishes to make Lotus a happy ferry. And every sentence I wrote down is not a confession of my mind. Every tear I shed is not the vibration of my heart. I dare not tell my humble points easily, just as I can’t tell those beautiful things. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Mind and hear what

I will continue to stay with this city in another way I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

There is a kind of collapse called No comfort

It is true that I am in a bad mood. I said it was inexplicable, but I knew it clearly in my heart. I just didn’t want to describe it in words, which would accelerate my collapse; Or I dared not to tell anyone the reason, fearing that those who didn’t understand would make me more painful. Therefore, if you ask me, I will always say: nothing, just feel in a bad mood for no reason, and it will be fine after the past. Then, at the moment you can’t see, you will quickly wipe off the tears that you have endured for a long time, forced to smile with you; Or simply disappear, and completely collapse in the place you can’t see. I can endure anyone’s turning a blind eye. I can pull down my face and ignore everyone. I can hide at home and watch TV and eat crazily to prevent bad emotions from being mentioned, I can also find an opportunity to have a big fight with some unlucky salesman who said something wrong. Anyway, I won’t cry until you ask why I am in a bad mood, no matter where I am, what am I doing? I will collapse. This kind of collapse is called no comfort. I always knew that I was a timid person without perseverance, and a vain and cowardly person, but I never knew that I was the most uncomfortabl person. When I was young, I accidentally fell down. First, I saw if there were any people around. If there were, I cried loudly. If not, I got up obediently. Therefore, adults always like to ridicule children, saying that this child is really a ghost. I also have such a memory that when someone is around, he will cry very exaggeratedly. At that time, I really wanted to gain sympathy and care on purpose. When I was older, I didn’t want others to see tears, so I always pretended to be strong and fell again for fear that others would see me. I never cried in front of others, only felt ashamed, find a place where nobody can cry secretly. Because you don’t think everyone will comfort you like when you were young anymore. Now you care more about maybe someone will laugh at you, or someone will complain about you, or someone will not understand you, so you are more willing to leave your grievance to yourself. After a long time, you will think that you are really strong and know what appropriateness is. You feel that you no longer need comfort, but you completely collapse after a greeting. It turns out that you are not so strong, it’s just that you won’t expect so many people any more, but you still can’t pretend to be the one you really care about. Therefore, some people will be said to be at home. She was so soft that she played tricks at home. In fact, she was not ignorant, but her vulnerability could not be concealed by the people she cared about, so she changed her way to resist her collapse. Everyone will seek comfort when she is sad, but the fact is that if she is still seeking comfort, then she is not too sad. People who are extremely sad will not seek any comfort at all. They just want to shrink in the corner silently. Because she thought she knew all the truths very well, and she knew all the things. She was just so painful that she couldn’t speak, so that no matter how much comfort she could touch. In fact, no matter what the situation is, everyone needs comfort, but she does not dare to face it. Therefore, she will not dare to reply comfort messages, answer home phone calls, and do not want to continue the topic about why, because the other end of the screen has already collapsed. When you ask her what’s wrong, she will wipe her tears and smile and say to you: the story in the movie is so touching. In fact, it is just her disguise. Some people are watching others’ stories, but they are crying. The more seemingly strong a person is, the more he can’t stand comfort. So. May I pretend to be strong so that my sadness will not affect anyone’s mood. May I pretend to be strong so that I can stay simple and no longer have any tangled encounters with anyone, may I pretend to be strong enough to keep accompanying me and never collapse. So, please don’t comfort me, please don’t let me collapse. Like (prose editor: Shu Kuang) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

A letter from a strange woman

In countless sleepless nights, I stared at the night with my eyes wide open. Anxiety and fear covered my eyes. Yes, I am not willing to sleep like this. I fell asleep, one day passed, and another day was coming. Me at a loss. I can’t say clearly what I’m afraid of, and I can’t tell those emotions. They are always silent in the bottom of my heart, suppressed by me. But it was like a volcano roaring in a low voice, desperately trying to rush out of the cliff. I can’t control my emotions. I originally created them, but now I will become their slave. They drove me to keep thinking and suffering from the suspicion and doubt day after day. I was overwhelmed by the flood of emotions inch by inch, like a dying ant, trying to catch the last straw. In the silent and dead night, I always fall into the dilemma created by myself. But I do feel a constraint all the time. That is a shackle that covers my heart. The surging emotions occupied all of me, and I became a person completely dominated by emotions. So I was irrevocably attacked by neuroticism and insanity. But if it were not for them, I would not be able to write, and I would lose the inspiration and motivation of writing. I am neither a poet nor a philosophy. What I rely on is these trivial and complicated thoughts. If God did not give me the power of writing, I would not survive. Who can tell me how to be the master of my emotions? I don’t understand that we live under the same land and sky, but we can never meet each other. We walk on the same road every day, watch the same sunset, and sink in such a glorious and sad manner. Step on the same grassland and pass the same lakeside. I cursed my ridicule and cowardice to God. Even I couldn’t tell what I am was afraid. There was a wall in my heart. I fortified the outside world and refused to be crossed by others. I think about the past and the future, I am make too many mistakes and sins. I have already felt deeply guilty, and I am not willing to forgive myself. When I walk alone in the crowd, I am most afraid of someone calling out my name suddenly. It was like that I was uncovered in public and my blood flowed into a river in full view of the public. I wish the whole world would not know me. I never dared to stay in the crowd for too long. I was afraid that I would see that shadow as soon as I raised my head. I was afraid of the appearance of that face, which made my spine cold. I knew that face was looking at me behind me again. When I turned around and looked at it, I shouted in panic, “Who are you? The face sneered and asked, who are you? You are scared, afraid that you don’t know who to confess? Who should I pray for forgiveness? I think I am should confess. So I pulled out a pen in the dark and drew some words on the white paper casually by the faint light. I hugged and cried with these words. The paper and pen make me feel the most safe. They are always silent, but full of silent and rich language. Only when my eyes see them and my fingers touch them can I feel extremely steadfast. This letter, from a strange woman, is written to the same strange you. Never met you. (This article is purely an imitation of the delicate and sensitive psychological description in Zweig’s letter from a strange woman.) Like (prose editor: Shu Kuang) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Love gives corner

Some people say that a mood can describe the smile of some people, which may not be enough. A song can sing some people’s heartbreaking, which may not be enough. A film can describe the ups and downs of some people, which may not be enough. A documentary can engrave some people’s subtle changes, which may not be enough. A series of long novels can reflect that some people are profound and trivial, which may not be enough. If all of these are not expressed by some people, but under the rainy sky, someone will always be reflected by one’s indifference. Perhaps the fragmented heart is the most complete and accurate appearance in the world. People who love words show the dark side of life, while the happy and sunny side gives time. Think about some people, it seems that they owe a little more. When I knock on the keyboard, sometimes the words I clearly lay down are so painful for a small atrium in my heart, while for the other big atrium, it is something that some people don’t know. I read those words on the internet and saw an article written to my mother. Thinking of how many things my parents had done that their good son didn’t know, now I know more and more why my father is so wordy, because he didn’t even know what to say if he cared about his son, so he had to repeat these. I thought I received my father’s calls almost every day before, and thought that was my father. Every time I often call my mother, my father always says that I just want to find your mother. In fact, you can’t say a few words to my father, and you will automatically call my mother. Because father loves nothing. What my father cares about is the development of his own children, which is to see far, while what my mother cares about is where his children are affected, where they suffer, and how anxious they are to be around me. How to divide the life span, I hope that the life span of my parents can be very long. Sometimes I always like to think about the future far away. Entering some people’s space and listening to the background music of the space repeatedly, there are many things that I don’t know. Maybe others think it’s nothing, but I feel the world is getting dark. Q hasn’t been online for a long time. It’s online tonight. I’m chatting with people you miss me. At the same time, I’m listening to my deskmate talking to me about his exciting job experience today, he thanked me for listening to him for more than an hour. In fact, he also told me his experience, and later he told him disgusting words. To be honest, I hate acquaintances saying thank you to me. I think it’s too strange. My deskmate said a classic sentence tonight: we college students don’t know anything, I really don’t even know if I sell you. The third time I heard a boy tell me these things, I felt very moved to say, because I have always been ignored by boys. Life is not easy, and life is not easy. I just think I am happy except for some things. In fact, sometimes I call some people, not to ask them for help, but to let them pay more attention. Entering a world, even if you reach the cliff, you will not go to another world. Understanding a word requires a lot of efforts. Time, I have no feeling for you. I always think about the day when I am in a familiar place, looking at the familiar back, how can I face the reality and torture me. I know everything is redundant, and when I look up at the sky, the sky is also blurred. This log has been written for a long time, typing with a feeling that I know. The air in the campus is very fresh, and the snacks in the student Street are very attractive, but only I know that kind of mood. Every time I open Q, I always do such repetitive things, knowing what, but always waiting for something. I get used to it, even my mood is used to it. Everything depends on fate, but I can’t find the direction. When you shed the strong tears you unloaded in front of someone, you will know that your tears at that time are not redundant. It is good to have friends and talk about our weaknesses without scruple. I was moved to hear a classmate told me that the counselor asked me about me. In fact, I had a good life. What life gives me is that I seem to understand nothing, don’t understand! Love is just a habit! I don’t know…… It’s very cold this winter! The world is so cold! Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…