30 years old, I want to tell myself

At this time, at the age of 30, I was occasionally scared when I was young and regretful when time went by. This inexplicable feeling made me sad and surprised secretly. Was it because of the gradual discomfort of enthusiasm? Or, happy on a quiet day? It is unknown that 30 years of fleeting time have devoured me without warning. I used to be carefree, cheerful, immature, fresh, uninhibited, free and easy, fearless, arduous and persistent for 30 years of fleeting time. How can I treasure the warmth I have had? How to reflect the intoxicating pictures? How to settle the vicissitudes? How can I let go of my sorrow? At the age of 30, I want to thank the joy and sorrow of the past years-because it has brought me growth and solid, mature accumulation and transformation at the age of 30, I want to pursue and seek for the true self through filtering the illusion; I want to resist the impulse stimulation and enjoy the present with heart. About the future, I am willing to regard the present as eternity-because I know that life is limited, so I can’t bear to miss possession; Because warmth is always like a meteor, so I am afraid of fleeting. About the future, I am willing to be full of sensibility and infiltrate intellectuality — because I am familiar with embracing life and need emotional warmth; Abundant life, unconsciously, I seem to see a different scenery in the limited years of life, A unique light makes me truly appreciate the extraordinary essence of life — not lamenting the yearning for youth that I once missed because of my old age and senility, don’t regret for being unable to recover. The 30-year-old self, who once impulsively and unintentionally, naturally, has such feelings and hopes. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Life needs to be put down constantly

In life, people often complain about the hardship of life, the difficulty of life and the unfairness of fate. The income is meager, but the price is constantly rising. I have paid a lot, but I can’t get what I deserve. What I thought should belong to myself ended up in other homes. How can such a variety of things not make people feel angry? After all, there are a few people in the world of mortals who can be extraordinary and refined. It is inevitable to complain and complain. Who is not full of confusion about life and anxiety about the future when he is suffering and helpless? Everyone can understand this. But when I think about it carefully, which one in the world can go smoothly and achieve what he wants in his whole life? As the saying goes: nine out of ten unsatisfactory things in life. Dissatisfaction is an element that cannot be eliminated in life, but its root is the desire that is never satisfied in the heart. Buddhism says: life is suffering, and the root of suffering lies in various desires. There are eight hardships in life, including no need to ask for, no need to let go. In life, there are too many things to pursue and want. Love, career, family, money, status, honor, when you can’t get it, you should think about it day and night, dream for it, and the taste of each person should be bitter words. When I got and had it, I wanted to hold it tightly and was reluctant to put it down any more. When I had to put it down due to various reasons, a new pain came into being. In this way, if you want to avoid pain, just let all living beings in the world escape into Buddhism and practice to the realm of no desire and no need. It doesn’t mean that. On the contrary, only when there is pursuit in life can there be hope, and only when there is goal can there be motivation. Just because of the dissatisfaction and constant pursuit of human beings, the society keeps moving forward and people’s lives are greatly improved. But pay attention to the degree of everything, and there are too many things pursued in life. If there is one thing that can not be obtained, the heart will not be satisfied. If there are too many things that can’t be put down, life will become heavy after a long time. The House needs to be cleaned frequently and some uncommonly used things should be cleaned to keep it clean and spacious. The computers we use every day need to check and kill viruses regularly, clean up garbage and plug-ins, only by emptying the recycle bin can it run normally and quickly. Life is also like this. Only by constantly putting down and abandoning something timely can we become relaxed and happy. Especially for those things that you don’t want to give up but have to let go, it is better to let go openly and smartly than to defend hard. Sometimes, for some things, it is better not to ask for, unable to grasp, it is better to take the initiative to put down. Putting down is a kind of wisdom, not incompetence, nor failure. Let go or not, sometimes even a life-or-death choice. I remember when I was young, I heard a story from my grandmother: long ago, in a village, there lived a rich rich rich man and a group of poor people. One summer, the village was surrounded by floods with heavy rains and floods. People fled town; And. The old rich man was no exception. He packed up all the valuable things in his family, carried a few big burdens and ran away. When there was no way to escape, he climbed to a tree nearby. A poor man who worked for an old rich man had nothing valuable in his family, so he climbed onto a big tree with a few steamed buns. The heavy rain kept falling, and the water rose higher and higher. Two days later, the old rich man was hungry, thirsty and tired. The poor on another tree saw him pitiful, threw him a nest and persuaded him to throw away the burden, but the old rich man was reluctant. Another few days passed, and the poor saved their lives by several nests. When the weather was clear and the flood receded, the old rich man was so tired that he fell into the flood in a rainy night. The drop-down in this story is just tangible drop-down, and its meaning is not only relaxed and happy! Those invisible drop-down may bring more and greater influence to people. The so-called: put down one thought, and feel at ease. Putting down not only means losing. While putting down, you may get a lot, such as freedom, calm, and more precious is the complete liberation of the soul. Life is short, and you should cherish it yourself. Let’s abandon those tangible and intangible obstacles and let everything be random, casual and casual. Only when you travel lightly can you walk more calmly. Like (prose editor: Dielianhua) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Be a true self

In today’s materialistic world, it seems that all people have been weakened, and the tide of following the trend is eroding the real foundation. Holding the stale concept of thousands of years and guarding the memorial tablet of the old master, he was unwilling to walk out of the house to enjoy such a magnificent and colorful life. Wearing the fake mask of the ball, I carefully peep around for fear that it would be an negligence and would be denounced and strangled. Looking at your timid face, I can’t tell what it feels like? If you go on like this, your true feelings and true self will be drowned by useless saliva quickly, sink into the historical sediment forever, and disappear without a trace. The falling faith hurt your original passionate heart, and the stiff obedience tightly gripped your burning emotion. In the face of taunt, ridicule, disgust, hatred and so on, there is no backbone to retreat and avoid. What you get is a medal pretending to be real, which stimulates your eyes all the time. At this moment, do you feel a little pain? Do you feel your sadness? With your head down and silence, I saw the gloomy cinnabar beating slightly in your chest. In fact, it is not difficult to be a true self. As long as you have a strong and resolute faith, you can smile at the comfort and calm of the floating dust. I am me, you are you, no one can change who? Who is not the answer worm? Everyone has his own beautiful and pure emotions, and everyone’s life is full of brilliance. Of course, if you want to be yourself, you need to be determined fearless and endure all the waves in the world. Everyone is drunk. The State I wake up alone is lonely, but it is also extraordinary and refined. Qu Yuan, who broke off on the bank of the Miluo River in the world of mortals, was dressed in the breeze, chanting Li Sao loudly and returning to himself lightly. I disdain to live together with ER and so on, and I disdain the so-called scenery appreciation in the eyes of ER and so on. If you don’t? Please look at my truth. Therefore, I got the most beautiful and crazy truth in the world. Friends, don’t hesitate, don’t hesitate, how fragrant and fragrant the flower core of the real Bud is. Don’t repeat others’ path, don’t pick up the dogmatism left by others, and don’t control your own life with the old rules and bad habits. You have your own thoughts, you have your own judgment ability, calm down and think carefully, use your own heart to guide yourself to find the lost truth. Suddenly enlightened, the chaos of lost and intoxicated. A Song of pure flowers and smoke, elegant is the calmness and loneliness restored by oneself. The detachment of self-confidence and the breeze of both sides explain a true self, a beautiful self and a true self. Being a true self is really important, but it is also very difficult. Rolling in the world of mortals in order to protect ourselves, we often wield beautiful big folding knives, cutting east and west to kill South and North thorns. Try to keep the same rhythm with the so-called righteous secular world, and dare not break away bit by bit. It is the terrible rhythm that changes and never leaves its ancestors lingering in my mind tightly and stubbornly lingering. It is this consistency that is not out of touch with the world that makes us lose too many things and ourselves, even we don’t know ourselves. Isn’t it? For the sake of others’ thoughts, they gave up their truest feelings. He gave up his pure love for thousands of years of decadent ethics. Be yourself once and break through the world of mortals. Be a true self once and have a poetic soul of Tao Gong. Life is so short that time can never stand waiting. The soul floating in the misty clouds burst out with lofty sentiments, which strengthened the heart of zero Tingyang. Clinging to the beautiful scenery in the bottom of our heart, we should release all our true temperament in the mortal world. Are you still watching? Are you still swinging? Your camouflage armor is getting thicker and thicker, and your camouflage heart is getting heavier and heavier. Even so, why don’t you put it down? Why not abandon it in the suburb of liumo? It is really tiring. I can see that what your thoughts are suppressed by the hateful disguise is only a little breath and a little warm breath. I am me, and I will be myself. I despise your only promise, I despise your helpless disguise, I despise all the falsehood and obedience. I like the opposite bright fireworks blooming in the dark false and right Sky. I like the collision of the so-called ethics with unique ideas. The unique temperament is fragrant in the world of self, and the real and pure eyes shine brightly. I love my true, I love my real, I love my wonderful real life more. Like (prose editor: Dielianhua) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Lonely Rose

I lived in a tall building facing the sea, surrounded by layers of undulating deep dark mountains. In the summer night, I sat alone on the balcony and closed my eyes, listening to my breath carefully, my heart beat, I could hear the swish sound of the sea breeze scouring the sea water in the distance, the sound of tsunami waves at high tide, and the rhythmic sound of the sea water pounding the reef. I listened, poetic habitat in the sounds of nature. Lonely, my heart is always rich. Life is a beautiful legend, and I cherish a poetic feeling in my heart. When I am alone, I Bloom freely and have reverie thoughts, but the reality is too trivial, too many things are pursued and too many desires are lost. That wonderful imagination may have vanished. The so-called lonely dwelling lies in keeping the truth of nature and kindness of human feelings in the heart, the beauty of life, I like to experience the idea of thinking alone, from the drizzle, listening to the sound of falling flowers, from the breeze, the sound of sea waves, from the night, enjoying the twinkling Lone Star. Only when the soul experiences painful choices can it understand the color of life; Only when it feels lonely and shudders can it have different thoughts. Human beings are faced with different mental and physical limitations and dilemmas. Life is a process of constantly searching for goals and ideals and constantly overcoming limitations and dilemmas, and a process of constantly searching and transcending, in the process of full birth and awakening, the emergence of wise thoughts cannot be separated from understanding loneliness and experiencing loneliness. Sometimes people stick to loneliness and have to pursue loneliness deliberately. They are free, leisurely, ambitious and sublimated in loneliness. People are alive, and lonely feelings are lingering all around. In the journey of my life, I walked forward alone without flowers in the front, applause in the back, no companionship around, no applause around. I walked through spring, autumn, winter and summer, and muddy swamps, walking through the cold wind and ice, walking through the 40-year-old life of wind and rain, walking in a hurry and obsessed footsteps, walking towards the bright Dreamland, just for the pursuit of the gorgeous rainbow in the sky. Experience the artistic conception of emotion and soul sublimation in the lonely shadow, admire yourself in the lonely shadow and feel sorry for yourself, but never belittle yourself and blame others, and sigh yourself with sorrow. The dignified energy of loneliness increases the weight of life value. Loneliness makes my life elegant, profound emotions, solemn practices and elegant soul. Loneliness is always accompanied by suffering and pain. It can withstand loneliness, stay away from noise and forget fame and wealth. Only sad roses can be lonely and enthusiastic in full bloom, bringing beauty and fragrance to your life. In my 40-year-old life, I experienced the warmth and coldness of human feelings, the heat and coldness of the world, the instant changes of fate, and the hardships of life, which left a mark on my heart, then I realized the true meaning of life, after the long lonely life pursuit and spiritual trudging, I got a glimpse of the truth of the world, understood life and recognized the direction, thus experiencing the vicissitudes of life calmly and calmly. In the summer night, the small building is lonely, and the roses are lonely, but the roses in the small building are still fragrant. Like (prose editor: Ke Er) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Jiujiang Capriccio

The West Lake in Hangzhou and the Slender West Lake in Yangzhou have been a city full of mystery since ancient times. Her green, her mountain, her water and her beauty are intoxicating. How many people in the world come here at all costs thousands of miles to see the charming appearance. In February of this year, I had the honor to contact the West Lake for the first time. Everything there impressed me deeply, like imprints carved on the flesh and blood, clear and lasting. Four months later, I went to Jiujiang with Penghua to take the exam. It was early summer, but it was very hot. I think of those ancient literati and moguists who left their hometown and traveled long distances to the capital in order to seek fame. The weather was the same at that time. The hot air expanded the enthusiasm for fame. How many people finally sank in the sea of fame? Today’s national and provincial examinations can’t help sighing. The crowd is like a mountain, and it is also like the sea. Can a lonely sail be like Li Bai’s long wind and broken waves sometimes, and hang up the cloud sail to the vast sea? Failure is normal. Success is just an accidental flash in the pan. The real fame and official road is an undercurrent of that mountain stream. People can only hear the sound in it, but can’t see how many unknown smells there are in this understream. After the exam, facing some abnormal questions, I felt a little upset. Since Emperor Yangdi of Sui opened imperial examination, examiners had been popular in Chinese society. This was the stage of examiners. I didn’t know whether the examiner’s face was dull or joyful when he saw a large group of people failed the imperial examination? In the 21st century, China even turned the exam into a utopia, and any success had something to do with this utopia. Some people even didn’t know what happened when they went to the exam, so they were overwhelmed by the ruthless crowd. In a bad mood, it is natural to get close to nature to relieve the unhappiness in the heart, which is the case for most literati. It is said that there is a place in Jiujiang. Although it is not as magnificent and magnificent as the West Lake, it is a small Iraqi. With a little joy, I came to the Yanshui Pavilion Station. There were two lakes on the opposite side, one was the Gantang Lake and the other was the South Lake. There is a dam about five or six meters wide in the middle, named Li Gong dam. On the whole, it has the state of West Lake and the shape of Su Di. It seems to be a miniature of the scaled West Lake. The lake surface is very calm, and the vision is also very wide. There are several small islands looming on the lake surface. Just as Bai Juyi looked at the green landscape of Dongting Lake from afar, there was a green snail in the silver plate. The situation is very fascinating. At the corner, Li gongdi was entered. The embankment was the same, but there was no quiet Su Causeway here. Noisy pedestrians and noisy vehicles were intertwined. The hot air on the ground was still steaming, and many pearls were inlaid on the faces of pedestrians. They rolled into the lake water with their hands, or evaporated directly. Occasionally there is a cool wind, which is very comfortable, but the smell of water is very dazzling, and a smell of dead fish smells straight in the nose, which makes people not want to stay, but it is not clear in the West Lake. After half a circle, the lotus leaves on the shore of Gan Tang Lake are charming. It is very green, with green leaves mixed with pink lotus flowers, which has some leisure interests of literati and scholars. Lotus is indispensable. This is the soul of scenery and the spirit of Lake. I can smell the slight Lotus smell, but I am not afraid of this trip. Another thing worth seeing is the trees along the coast. Tall and straight, like strong generals, standing beside this Xizi in rows, shaded her and windproof her. There are indeed many trees in Jiujiang, and they are also very tall. This is a scenery of Jiujiang and also a kind of complex. After all, Xizi is in Hangzhou. Jiujiang, the epitome of the West Lake, can only give people a kind of sustenance and comfort. Any kind of beautiful place can not be appreciated in three lines and two steps. A cursive view of flowers can only be on the rise. You need to be calm, slowly experience it, deeply root that beauty in your heart, and let it grow. Like (prose editor: Rain dancing alone) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

My dream farm

As soon as I owned my own farm in QQ space, I was looking forward to great efforts and gains. Looking at the vibrant green, fat and thin fields on the ever-expanding farms and lands of my friends, and then looking at my poor land of one mu and three points, I couldn’t help being ashamed, I couldn’t help strengthening my determination and courage to take good care of my farm. Wait and see. Maybe it won’t be much time before my virtual farm will be vast and full of attractive and mature atmosphere. At that time, I would probably become a rich farmer. I would dress up my farm with flowers tightly and smoothly. In fact, my biggest dream is not to be a farmer, but to be a farmer who cultivates, sow, weed and harvest on the fields. This is what I really want to say. Just like I was the son of a farmer at first, I should have inherited the footprints of my parents, ploughing at sunrise and resting at sunset on the land where I was born, working hard, work hard on that land for a lifetime in obscurity. I am sure that if I didn’t catch up with the resumption of the college entrance examination system, my original dream in my life would take root there. I would be like my father, deliver all the sweat and painstaking efforts to the field in my hometown. There is nothing wrong with this. A person entrusts his whole life to fields and villages, and that kind of peace and freedom in bitterness and hardship is itself a great happiness and satisfaction. Just like when I was a teenager, I was extremely fascinated by any green plants growing on the Earth. In my own garden, I graft cucumber seedlings and bean seedlings, and Apple branches and pear branches. I like the freaks born after grafting two different plants. I like the broadness and depth of agriculture and the subtle joy that follows, which is by no means empty talk. I am sure that if I hadn’t been admitted to the university in those years, I would have been an honest farmer now, even an excellent farmer, A humble and full farmer with a devotion to the earth like weeds. But I came to the city, far away from villages and fields full of life. I am not saying that there is anything wrong with the city. I just want to say that I am rural people, I am filled with the bitterness or fragrance of soil from head to foot. When I say this, I feel that I have become a crop whose waist is upright and full of fruits. I am there are sufficient reasons to appear on the fields, standing with the crops, enjoying the wind and rain full of nectar, and growing up constantly on the fields. But I didn’t. I really became a watcher of villages and fields. Everything is good in the city, but there are no villages and fields in the city, let alone large tracts of green crops. The city only grows high buildings, the noise and the increasingly worrying environmental pollution are getting better now. Sitting in the high buildings and canyons, I finally own a piece of land of my own, although it is the land of virtual dreams, but I can sow, weed, fertilize and harvest on the Internet, and I can experience the hardship and happiness of being a farmer in the virtual world. Just like walking in the boundless field of hope, my feet were covered with wet soil, and my pale face became rosy and vivid because of the sunshine, my increasingly relaxed and weak body began to grow stronger. I seemed to return to the long-lost countryside. On my long watch journey, I seemed to see my father sweating on the field again. Although it is just a kind of online game, who dares to say that it is not an expression of the extravagant hopes and dreams in the hearts of city dwellers? There is a blue sky and clear water in everyone’s heart, a sacred green land, where birds and flowers are fragrant, where the sun is shining, where the running water is gurgling, and where the fruits are charming, there is no doubt. Just like me, living in the reinforced concrete of the city for a long time, a heart gradually gives birth to a lot of anxiety, confusion or impetuousness. So I thought, how wonderful it would be if city dwellers could own a small farm of their own! But this extravagant hope was too far away. Before I realized this wish, I could only cultivate, sow and harvest my three-quarter mu of land in front of the icy computer. I want to plant corn and sorghum, potatoes and tomatoes, blue sky and white clouds, and my Green hopes and dreams. 1330 words Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

ba yue Peter Shore

A PHOTOALBUM this is my first photo album. Online shopping, dark blue cover, yellow petals intertwined with black shading. It reminds me of the crimson clouds which were crumpled like silk threads in the evening sky. It has collected 200 photos of two years of college, each of which is a story. Therefore, I always like taking photos. Raise the camera and freeze the fleeting beauty on the picture. I like to leave the shadow that I have experienced in every place of time. Photos can be touched at hand, and time is in front of me. It is said that there are two periods when women are most beautiful. At the age of 15 and 17, when the Bud was just released, it was as delicate and pure as Gardenia. When I was about 30 years old, after the wind and rain, there were some vicissitudes in my eyes. The fallen flowers are silent, and people are as light as chrysanthemum. And I am in an awkward age between the two. In fact, every stage is beautiful. As long as you know how to enjoy life and work. To be independent, we should not rely on others’ giving. Don’t dress yourself up deliberately, don’t change for whom. I can arrange myself, control myself and control myself. Love yourself so much that your feet can stand firmly on the Earth. INTHEDARK is in the dark. It is already the third night, sleep with the light on. Lying in the tent like a white grave, in the silent night like death. I dare not sleep because of fear. He finished reading many novels of cangyue at one time, such as “listening to snow House Series”, “Soul of Wu series”, “Wind, flowers, snow and Moon” and “reading glasses”. I was amazed by the great efforts of his driving the grand scene. Or movies one by one, killing the silence of the eternal night. Sleep is heavy, once you fall in, you will not wake up. If there are dreams to do, no matter dreams or nightmares, it is always good. Shake hands without words, a wisp of Love shakes into the soul. My soul suddenly turned into fog, and I felt a resounding sound in my ears. I don’t know if there is any more. Three Nanjing to Nanjing. Late August was a trip to Nanjing which had already been booked. Is there anything more enjoyable than a vacation trip? I traveled all over Luoyang city, and the journey to Kaifeng also lasted for a long time. Whether it is luoyang, Kaifeng or Xi’an, they are all silent and simple. The northern city converges the domineering king spirit of the ancient capital for thousands of years, such as the dull Hu Qin. Unlike Nanjing, Jinling, the sound of silk and bamboo strings flutters, the Qinhuai River is also the Rouge River, full of flashy fat. The initial yearning for Nanjing came from a lyric. [From the Pavilion banquet, take a break to shoot evil spirits], I once saw the Jade Hall of Jinling crying around, Qinhuai Water Pavilion flowers bloom early, who knows that it is easy to melt away? Seeing him rise to the Zhu building, seeing him feast guests, seeing his building collapsed. I used to sleep in this blue Moss and blue tiles, watching the ups and downs of five or ten years. The Wuyi Lane is not named Wang, Mochou Lake ghosts cry at night, and Phoenix platform roars. Residual shan meng most true, old environment lost difficult off, do not believe this map changing draft. I made a set of sad Jiangnan and sang it until I was old. This decadent beauty, just like the declining Earth Altar in Shi Tiesheng’s works, makes people fascinated. There is also the story of the Red Mansion which happened in Nanjing. On that day, the land fell Southeast and Jinling was prosperous. Under qinggengfeng, don’t come for more than ten years. The stubborn stone who claimed to be a fool envied the gentle and rich country in the world, and insisted on escaping into the world of mortals with the vast great scholars and remote real people. But ointment, easy. Later people will not exchange things, and everything will be empty. The experience is just a dream of Red Mansions. It was a pity that the woman was relieved, but it was not like a day when she was seriously ill. A peck and a drink are generated. Why do you wake up in your dream. Only when I first saw it, there was a famous stone in the West, which could replace the ink of thrush. It became pale in all kinds of fragrance. The son of crimson yarn has infinite love, and the Lord of Zhiyan Cave hates a lot. It’s fantasy, it’s vacuum, it’s idle and idle. August, go to Nanjing Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

As the saying goes, feeding village — eating and dressing

Rural people live a simple life, especially when it comes to spending money. They always pay attention to doing what they can, and they don’t put on airs to dress up the facade. Take eating as an example. Even if you eat meat at a time, I don’t have that condition, and the flour paste still makes you drink loudly. As for dressing, the rich wear woolen cloth, and the poor wear leather. In the past, when people lived in difficulties, people who could wear a woolen coat were usually Cadres. Ordinary people would never dare to think about it unless they made a fortune or their daughters got married and received the bride’s gift. Of course, the leather that people don’t have money to wear is not the leather coat they are talking about now, but the leather jacket made of sheepskin. If the condition is better, they can make a face. If the condition is not good, the sheepskin will be sewn, although it is warm to wear on my body, it is heavy and ugly, and also gives off a strong smell of sheep. However, people who wear it can’t care about dignity and unpleasant smell for a long time. What they want is Warmth. As long as it is warm, they still feel at ease. People are better than people and have no living head; People are more angry than people, that’s why I’m too lazy to compare with others. I can’t be ashamed to suffer. The thing of making people fat and swollen was done by a spoon. People with normal minds would definitely not do it. Rural people call people who can’t grasp their own weight spoon material, because rural people pay attention to reality, everything starts from reality, and they should cut trousers according to ditch, which is called eating, dressing and measuring things, to choose food and clothing according to your own conditions, of course, it is not only food and clothing, but also things that cost money. You can’t smell other people’s meat and rice, and you have to try every means to get some meat to eat; When you see others dressed brightly and decently, you have to make a new suit to wear. Of course, if you have that condition, there is nothing wrong with others. The key point is that there is no such condition, but they still need to be stiff. They are so poor that they have to pretend to be proud and show off their energy. Naturally, they become loafers and spoons in others’ eyes. There is no copper in the waist, so don’t run wild, this is the advice for people who have no money. People are divided into rich and poor, but whether they are rich or not, they should be honest. Whether you have no money, the key is to live a life, which will be respected by others; Rich people will still be despised by others if they don’t take money as money. In the past, there was a young man in Murakami who was at the age of talking about marriage. His family condition was not good, but he ignored the family condition and thought that as long as he dressed up brightly, you will get the favor of girls. So I don’t want to make money all day long. I only know to look in the mirror, wear new clothes, put cream on my face and oil on my head. My leather shoes are as bright as my hair. Wandering around all day, speaking with airs, in order to attract the attention of girls. Of course, the girls paid much attention to him. Only when the adults in the House inquired about him did they know who made the spoon material. After knowing the root, there was no following. After a long time, when the girls saw it from a long distance, they made comments and couldn’t find anyone. Even those of his age and his family were poorer than him, because of his honesty, he was still a bachelor when he got married and had children. The Murakami also said: just the spoon material, whose girl is willing to follow up to drink northwest wind. Murakami also spread a joke that there were two brothers, the younger brother was in good condition and the elder brother was in poor condition. But whenever I went to the relatives’ home, my brother would go to the younger brother’s home to pick up clothes. Because of his kindness, my younger brother had to meet his requirements every time. However, my brother was uneasy wearing the borrowed clothes and always bragged casually. He didn’t listen to his younger brother’s advice. Once when I went to the relatives’ home for dinner, my brother became more and more outrageous, and he almost described himself as a rich man. My brother was so ashamed that he couldn’t listen any more, so he gave a few words of advice, who knows that the elder brother who is in high spirits flew into a rage, scolding his younger brother and scolding him, then he leaked the bottom. What did you say that you thought I borrowed your new clothes? You just took care of me, now I will give it back to you! Hearing this, others knew that he even borrowed his clothes and burst into laughter. Finally, he became a joke spreading everywhere. Therefore, people should be honest-oriented, such as hospitality. As long as you are sincere, it doesn’t matter if the condition is not good. Guests feel comfortable after drinking a mouthful of cold water. When someone encounters something, if you have money, if you have no money, if you really help others, money is not the only thing. If you go to someone else’s home to present a gift, if the money is more than thirty or fifty yuan, and the money is less than ten or eight yuan, you can have that friendship. If you make your face swollen and fat, what will fall down is not human feelings, but a joke or even a curse. Therefore, all the basic necessities of life should be clear about their own background, weigh their own belongings, and they should not be divorced from their own reality. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

I feel so painful that I want to cry, but I can only laugh foolishly

In Liaoyang this year, it still didn’t warm up at the end of March. The North Wind from Nowhere blew me cold. I sat in the empty shop, took a cup of boiled water for myself, dried it, and browsed the space while drinking. Suddenly, saw such an article entitled “Women’s College students unbearable employment pressure suicide, leaving 100,000 diary Diary” article, Heart was shock, after reading this reproduced articles, we are so painful that we want to cry. Our generation is called the 80’s generation. This generation has a distinct impression of the times. No one can resist the growth. Seeing Astro Boy and Saint grow up, we have a distinct character of love and hate, while as the only child, we are not independent, passing through the narrow single-plank bridge into the ivory tower from the flood of exam-oriented education, he left the ivory tower in a daze and was ruthlessly thrown into the flood of society. These two Baptists almost annihilated us! The country encourages us to start a business and calls on us to find jobs before choosing jobs. But let’s look at the situation in the talent market. Who will not be shocked by the sorrow of wearing a cold sweat? Apart from those children whose parents have all abilities, we in ordinary families almost have the same helplessness: parents are getting older and older, and those laid-off and re-employed try their best to send us to university, but we can’t give them a loop and their old age, and we even have to keep gnawing at their old age. When we were young, we devoted ourselves to studying without asking about the world. Our parents even regarded reading as the only way for us to leave poverty. They, like the most dutiful nanny, washed, cooked and worked for us, day after day, and we also feel at ease, why? Because we are scholars, useful people in the future, and people who can honor our ancestors. We are held in their hands and bear their hopes. After graduation, we were at a loss in the crowded world. We didn’t understand why we couldn’t even find a decent job as the favored son of heaven. That female college student groaned helplessly, it seems to be ringing in the ear! How many people are running around the job fair with thick resumes? How many people are eager to send job-seeking emails in Internet cafes? How many people are wandering from north to south? How many people live with realistic masks? Our generation, in such a society with surplus talents, doesn’t even have the right to cry. Facing the eyes of parents, we can only hide our deep sadness, smiling to fool oneself and others till numbness I remembered that when I read fortress besieged in high school, I still couldn’t understand the sadness that people inside thought out and people outside thought out desperately, I don’t understand why this book, which seems to have no words, is so famous, reading it from generation to generation and worshiping it as classic book from generation to generation. Finally, after graduation, I understood what kind of sorrow it was. This is exactly the portrayal of graduates now. When we entered the university, we went through fierce struggle. High school was like purgatory, people among them won’t deny it. After entering the university, they just wanted to relax their nerves, and they realized the pressure of employment. Their senior brothers and sisters ran on the road of job hunting every day, it can be seen from their expressions that they are so tired. After graduation, we also set foot on the same path as them, writing resumes, interviewing, listening to the phone, until another round begins, this rush, we can’t see the end. We have been honed as round as cobblestones by life. We have fixed a maturity in this world. Our greetings to life have learned to smile. Although we always want to cry, however, looking at myself in the mirror, my tears have dried up. Our generation may not be the saddest child, but it is the saddest child. We can’t cry. We can only smile and use all our life’s strength to overdraw our souls before we can be free. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Summer of melancholy

After knocking the keyboard for several hours, the neck and shoulders were sleepy and sour. It was already summer, and the sweater on my body still couldn’t resist the cold of the room. Standing on the balcony and looking at it, the sky was gray, and the mountains on the opposite side were somewhat melancholy in silence. At the folds of the mountains, those white snow which was not willing to melt showed its difference. In the field surrounded by mountains, there is a layer of sparse green. The poplar trees downstairs were swaying with light green leaves, and it was a little bleak in the cold. I didn’t know where to hide the warmth of summer. I sat down again to review the manuscript I had just finished, but I was always absent-minded, and my newly settled thoughts were disturbed by the current tense situation in the South China Sea. As a citizen of a country, I hope that my motherland will be strong, and I don’t want to see him being bullied by external force; As a woman, I don’t want war, I want peace, peaceful living environment; As a mother, I don’t want my son to be tested by blood and fire in the rain of bullets. I hope there is no smoke of gunpowder and no killing in the world, I hope all the people in the world can live a peaceful life. But as the situation became severe day by day, my heart was gripped tightly. I am the mother of a Navy soldier. Over the past few days, I watched the news program uneasily and paid attention to the situation in the South China Sea. When my son chose to go to the Military Academy at the beginning, I was totally aware of the duty a soldier performed, but I also thought luckily that the probability of war in peacetime should be very small. But the peace and peace we want are not necessarily what others want. Every night when the military commentator in the military report column appeared in the TV program, I held my breath and listened quietly. When it came to beating or not, my husband shouted at the top of his voice to beat! Why not fight! Hey, I also fought back loudly. What kind of fight? If you are anxious, you can fight. The husband scolded me because your son is a soldier how many Chinese soldiers are there, and their families are all like you. Are you still sitting at home watching TV? I replied irrationally to others. I can’t control them. I just oppose the war! Just when the quarrel was over, the phone rang Mom, what are you doing now? My son’s calm voice came from the other side of the phone. I felt nervous and tried our best to watch TV in a peaceful tone. How are you? Are you busy recently? I mentioned the situation in the South China Sea cautiously and wanted to listen to my son’s words, while he answered his mother calmly, “it’s okay, you can rest assured! At this time, I really want my son to stay by my side. I want my whole family to stay together. Maybe it was because of the cold room, my body was shivering, and tears overflowing in my eyes were forced down by me. I still told my son, well, do your job well and take good care of yourself. My daughter, who has been married for two years, called to tell her that she was pregnant, hearing the news, I was so excited that I almost jumped up and started to work with endless energy. I kept humming a little song. In one’s life, the happiest thing for people is the well-being of parents and relatives and the achievement of children’s career. I held my worries about my son in my arms and followed the call of happiness to visit my daughter in the plateau. The moment I saw my daughter, I felt that she was much more mature. The sweet smile contained the happiness and yearning of being a mother. My daughter nestled beside me, as before, holding my arms with both hands Mom, how long did you feel when I was in your belly? The past events flashed before my eyes like the scenes of movies. In that spring more than twenty years ago, when I found myself pregnant, I was both surprised and worried. Holding the bulging belly day by day, when I was 7 or 8 months old, the little guy who stayed in the womb became restless and kicked me with small feet from time to time. Although I feel uncomfortable and even nervous, I still feel warm in my heart, which is looking forward to the happiness and sweetness of being a mother. In the golden autumn and October, a succulent little life was born. From then on, I became a real mother. Everyone has his own life dream. My dream is that I hope my children will live happily, grow healthily, live happily, get higher education and do jobs that suit their talents and interests, build a happy family and cultivate excellent children. My wish was gradually realized, and my children and daughters stepped on the journey of life step by step. From work to marriage, my daughter is relatively ideal and satisfied, so I expect her to have a healthy baby, so that her life can be considered complete. Our family of four live in cities of three different provinces. I can’t stay with my daughter for a long time to take care of her, so I can only spare time to come over. I gave a lot of exhortations and exhortations, nagged many matters that should be paid attention to during pregnancy and told me to do regular prenatal examination and so on. I would return to my home to take full care of my husband who led the students to sprint for the college entrance examination. As a husband and mother, I don’t seem to belong to myself anymore. Only when I sit down and devote myself to writing can I truly feel that I am belongs to me. Sometimes I close my eyes and imagine the road I have traveled in these years, which is bumpy, tortuous and calm. The figure I trudged and the deep footprints I left in the mud can be clearly seen. In the past ups and downs, I am touched and happy, and have my hardship and bitterness. I began to plan my yearning for the future and hope and sustenance for the next generation in my heart. That night was the most devoted time for me in the writing center recently. There seemed to be thousands of words to pour out in my chest. I expressed all kinds of feelings and experiences buried in my heart to the screen, knocking on the picturesque scene that floated in front of us like floating clouds in the past years, like fog and dream, freely and comfortably. Outside the window, the raindrops knocked on the window glass, and I heard the sigh of heavy raindrops falling to the ground. Yes, since the beginning of summer, the weather has hardly revealed a smiling face. The green of summer is hidden in the gloomy atmosphere. The flowers look at the gray weather disappointedly and hide under the branches and leaves shyly, the grass curled up with thin buds, unwilling to put on new clothes for the Earth. Although I was surrounded by cold, I was filled with incomparable happiness and happiness in my heart, thinking around slowly in this cool summer night. The hour hand pointed to 22:30, and it was time for my husband to go home. I stood up and stretched my stiff body, looking around the quiet room, only the ticking of the clock and my heartbeat. I picked up the phone and felt a little anxious. I really wanted to find someone to talk to, even if it was a quarrel. Depressed for a while, I ‘d better call my daughter. After dialing the phone, I lowered my voice, and did I have a rest? How do I feel recently? There was a pause, Mom. I was fine, but this child was out of luck with us. It had already flowed. My mind was buzzing, like pouring a basin of cold water from head to foot. Why was it like this? My daughter said some comforting words on the phone, but I didn’t hear a word clearly. I understood that her heart was more uncomfortable than anyone else, but she didn’t want to burden us. My husband who came home from work was poured like a drowned rat by rain all over his body. When he saw me with tears in his eyes, he stared at me without worrying about changing clothes. After knowing the reason of the matter, it didn’t matter if he sighed gently. Their young and dull voice was like a stone, pressing heavily on my heart. Long night, long night, I have never felt such a long night. My husband around me had already entered my dream with even snores. I tossed and turned and couldn’t close my eyes. There was a voice in my mind complaining that as a mother, you didn’t fulfill your responsibility before dawn, I got up and prepared to enter the plateau. However, God was against me on purpose. It seemed that the heavy rain last night had never stopped. The sky was gloomy and low. It seemed that a rain curtain was pulled between the heaven and the Earth, and the rain flowed down along the eaves. I was so worried that what should I do? Will the shuttle bus pass through the mountains in such a weather? In a hurry, I called the station to inquire. Fortunately, today’s ticket was sold yesterday, and the shuttle bus must leave the station unless the dabanshan tunnel was closed. The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and the raindrops fell down, beating the umbrella on my head, and then the falling raindrops sank into my clothes, which made me feel a deep chill. My husband saw me off with an umbrella, but his clothes had been drenched by the rain, and the water on his face flowed straight to his neck, looking at him who was closely connected in the wind and rain, although I walked in the wind and rain with frustration, I still felt the warmth left in my heart. When the car left the station, my husband still stood in the wind and rain waving to me. Through the window glass, I looked at his anxious expression. The car soon entered the flat Dukou Canyon, and the rain gradually decreased. The mountains on both sides were washed clear and bright by the rain. Although it entered the summer, the towering mountain top was still covered with snow, and the vast grassland seemed to drag the tail of spring tightly and refused to give up. The mountains are clipped together, the cliffs are dangerous, and the water flowing at the bottom of the Valley breaks through the tranquility of the valley, echoing in my ears, and my heart rises and falls with the rugged mountain road. There was still a gray sky above my head, and I could hardly see a little blue. Some floating clouds were silent. The shrubs on the hillside are sparse, with light cyan, which makes them look pitiful, just like the old man’s hair. Just the people who gathered on the hillside to dig Cordyceps, just like the sheep and cattle, they dug out the black soil in the mountain body with the shiny shovel and sharp digging hoe in their hands, looking for Cordyceps sinensis with eyes full of desire, I saw pairs of big hands seemed to be in the vein of the broken Mountain, pulling the shank of the mountain, and I felt the whole mountain as if its body was trembling and twitching. The simple tents scattered at the foot of the mountain were skew, howling sadly in the cold wind, venting their dissatisfaction with the owner. Human beings, devoured by money and interests, are destroying their living homes step by step with their own hands. The car finally climbed to the top of the Daban Mountain. A Daban Mountain divides the plateau and Hexi corridor into two pieces of heaven and earth. On this side of the mountain is the blue sky, and the fragrance of grass and warm plateau sunshine come from the gap of the car window. My mood became more and more cheerful with the extended peak. To be honest, what I thought most along the way was what would happen to my daughter when she saw me? I burst into tears in my arms, lying on the bed listlessly, still complaining about my conjecture, which made me embarrassed. But beyond my expectation, my daughter was neither lying on the bed nor as fragile as I imagined. She still greeted me with a smile, but her face was pale and gloomy, deep in those big eyes is the sadness that only I can feel. She held my arm, but comforted my mother. Don’t be sad. I’m still young. It’s okay. Sooner or later, it will be the same. You can still write for a few years at ease. What do you say, I would rather not write, but also make you happy. I gave my daughter a pitiful glance. A kind of sour and astringent smell surged in my heart. What’s the use of writing? What can I do if the written words are published? In the eyes of many people, only fools and unsociable people write and make ink, and I unconsciously get involved in this rank. To be honest, I was a little excited when I saw my own words turned into lead and printed on newspapers and magazines. However, with the popularity of the Internet and the chaotic management of the cultural publishing market, erotic and martial arts novels came first, the classic works were put aside on the bookshelf and suffered from coldness. Who responded to those mother-in-law words I wrote? What can the undeserved reputation of writers association bring to me? My husband, my child, they respect my hobbies and pursuits and fully support my writing in order to make my life more fulfilling and happier. For the happiness and career of my children, I really want to stop writing when I use it, but because of my beloved family affection and many people and things that move or sympathize me in the world, I can’t help expressing my inner feelings and promoting good and evil beauty and ugliness in the world. Just like me tonight, I feel much more comfortable when I write to this moment Like (prose editor: Ke Er) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…